To be honest, my original intention when I started updating my xanga entry today was to throw whatever emotions into it. But now hor, after I fell asleep on my bed, my temper totally simmered. So here I am, wondering what's wrong with myself. All right, today isn't a long day, but its enough to drain me out. I've finally taken a tour on my own for the first half. For those who didn't know, I was training to be a Tour Guide in the NEWater Visitor's centre. Well, this group I took were kids. But lucky enough, they are not that noisy. Couldn't say the same for the rest of my khaki. I know one of them was feeling really dejected as she was unable to relax in front of the crowd like she thought she could. From what I heard, she was totally nervous till her face turned really black- her symptoms of nervousness. The other, was handed a difficult group of kids. They were so noisy, so messy (they left litters and food everywhere - hello, newater no food allowed.) that even the three of us plus two senior guides couldn't control them. Something added on to the whole situation = Results. My friend got crushed by her results. Honestly speaking it wasn't that bad, not as bad as my first term results. I got the same grades as she did. But she looked so so upset, I had to put myself down to make her cheer up. But it didn't work. I decided to shut my mouth. I feel unhappy about my results as well, but sometimes, they just sulk more than I do. No I'm not blaming them but, hey, I'm unhappy too, can you pay a little attention? Maybe I should juz... well. These days, I just wished there's someone to give me a hug. Someone strong enough to pull me up. Strong enough to for me to know when I fall, he will be around. Perhaps I have someone in mind. But I consider that as an infatuation. Haha. Now I know how it feels, to be alone. | 
