oh how mawkish!

ok leila

something new, you ask? 

i would love to post something new, but you see, i'm distracted here at work by the hot mess that my floor has become.  we have to beg the janitorial staff to use their cleaning supplies here, and the floor of my office desperately needs to be mopped.  the heat wasn't working (which let me tell you is truly ideal in this weather) and then the fix-it guy came in to work on it and tracked even MORE ice and slush into my office.  so forgive me if words aren't spelled correctly, i keep giving the floor the fisheye...

this is following a tuesday that truly was... a little less than awesome.  every day at work someone (not my wonderful coworkers of course) says something to me that is, well, insulting to anyone without a thick skin.  yesterday was no exception.  strangely enough, right after i ate lunch, my blood sugar crashed.  that's happened before and i've been trying to not eat sugar.  well, anyway, we have this art class in my office for the kids on tuesday and thursdays.  okay, so i'm sitting at my desk and it's just me and the two teachers and my hands start shaking.  i put my coat on and call the other office to have them bring me some cookies.  i'm sitting hunched over at my desk, and the female teacher comes over and looks at me and goes, "wow.  you look terrible.  you have huge circles under your eyes and you look extremely vulnerable."  kay.  and the other one started laughing at me.  grrrrrreeeattttt.  i felt AWESOME.

uh huh...

today i was scolded by a senior over the phone for saying "uh huh." 

he goes, "excuse me, but may i make a suggestion to you?" 

"yes, of course." 

"you should not say uh huh when speaking with people.  it doesn't sound right."

"oh, okay"

(jill bites her tongue for the remainder of the conversation)

"well jill, i'm going to try this number for the hospital and if it doesn't work i'll call you back"

"uh huh" (SHIT!)

*grunts* "goodbye"

"bye"

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god bless us, every one.

i didn't watch "it's a wonderful life" this christmas eve, so i didn't cry this time around.  but i did force my friend to go to midnight mass with me tonight... well i guess i technically didn't force him but i sort of guilted him into going.  at any rate, i had to do something to make myself feel more like it's actually here.  christmas, i mean.  it got drowned in "holiday" the past couple of weeks.  left a bad taste in my mouth.

anyways, mass was good.  they turned off the lights and we sang silent night.  i liked that.

merry christmas.  i love a lot of the people that read this thing, so you know... i hope your christmas is really beautiful, calm, and finds you joyful.