Jilliaaannn's Xanga

oh how mawkish!

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 15:32:24 GMT

if you are reading this, chances are you are someone i love... or at least strongly like. so to you i say, happy valentine's day. i have on the only red thing i own today (long sleeve gap tee) in order to be festive on this very special day. okay, also... i have this job where i have to plan events on all possible occasions for celebration. so as a result, i'm way more into holidays then i ever really planned to be.

ok leila

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 15:09:28 GMT

something new, you ask?

i would love to post something new, but you see, i'm distracted here at work by the hot mess that my floor has become. we have to beg the janitorial staff to use their cleaning supplies here, and the floor of my office desperately needs to be mopped. the heat wasn't working (which let me tell you is truly ideal in this weather) and then the fix-it guy came in to work on it and tracked even MORE ice and slush into my office. so forgive me if words aren't spelled correctly, i keep giving the floor the fisheye...

this is following a tuesday that truly was... a little less than awesome. every day at work someone (not my wonderful coworkers of course) says something to me that is, well, insulting to anyone without a thick skin. yesterday was no exception. strangely enough, right after i ate lunch, my blood sugar crashed. that's happened before and i've been trying to not eat sugar. well, anyway, we have this art class in my office for the kids on tuesday and thursdays. okay, so i'm sitting at my desk and it's just me and the two teachers and my hands start shaking. i put my coat on and call the other office to have them bring me some cookies. i'm sitting hunched over at my desk, and the female teacher comes over and looks at me and goes, "wow. you look terrible. you have huge circles under your eyes and you look extremely vulnerable." kay. and the other one started laughing at me. grrrrrreeeattttt. i felt AWESOME.

uh huh...

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 14:55:06 GMT

today i was scolded by a senior over the phone for saying "uh huh."

he goes, "excuse me, but may i make a suggestion to you?"

"yes, of course."

"you should not say uh huh when speaking with people. it doesn't sound right."

"oh, okay"

(jill bites her tongue for the remainder of the conversation)

"well jill, i'm going to try this number for the hospital and if it doesn't work i'll call you back"

"uh huh" (SHIT!)

*grunts* "goodbye"

"bye"

god bless us, every one.

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 07:05:58 GMT

i didn't watch "it's a wonderful life" this christmas eve, so i didn't cry this time around. but i did force my friend to go to midnight mass with me tonight... well i guess i technically didn't force him but i sort of guilted him into going. at any rate, i had to do something to make myself feel more like it's actually here. christmas, i mean. it got drowned in "holiday" the past couple of weeks. left a bad taste in my mouth.

anyways, mass was good. they turned off the lights and we sang silent night. i liked that.

merry christmas. i love a lot of the people that read this thing, so you know... i hope your christmas is really beautiful, calm, and finds you joyful.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 21:57:47 GMT

can everyone please listen to this? thanks.

http://www.purevolume.com/matthewjr

(cut and paste it, i'm stupid and can't make the link thing work.)

and hey you! i'm proud of what you made.

a story

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 21:46:51 GMT

once upon a time there was a princess named jill and she got a job and then one day her job got very busy and she woke up in the middle of the night freaked out about how much shit she had to get done. there were many old toads at her work that tried to distract her with lewd comments day in and day out. she would hide from the toads, sometimes in closets, but there was no victory.

the end.

i don't do well with sitting still.

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 21:12:03 GMT

i'm a fidget. a big one. i can't sit still, so don't ask me to. my coworkers always have to tell me to not twitch when i'm sitting around in the office. but i can't stop. won't stop.

anisia just left and the office is very, very quiet all of a sudden. i was about to put some music on, but i haven't yet. because there is a problem with the fact that i cannot stand silence. noise is an excuse for us to ignore ourselves. maybe that's not a good thing. i wonder how long i can take it...

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 14:47:43 GMT

It's snowing outside and I, for one, think that's positively magical. It's only October! And wasn't it just 70 degrees and sunny like, a few days ago? The leaves are still green for goodness sake...

This makes me realize that I need to begin to think about my winter goals. As I was typing that I remembered that I already know them. This winter I will master the art of crafting the perfect tiramisu and learn how to iceskate backwards! That's it, folks. So, if you so happen to be perusing Craigslist and see a used pair of size 10 iceskates for a girl... please let me know. Did you know you can skate some places downtown for FREE if you have your own skates?! It's true. Little known fact. So hopefully that's where you'll find me in the dead of winter. Skating my ass off (literally) downtown.

barf my face off

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 17:24:56 GMT

I am taking a breath from work and giving a shout out. To you. Work has been driving me crazy and blowing up in my face recently, but I just got one big BIG thing done so I'm checking out for a while.

Last night after I stayed late at work I decided to reward myself with some Taco Bell. This is the kind of reward I guess I can afford myself. I get there and order my grilled stuffed bean burrito. I got home and excitedly unwrapped the package. After a few bites I realized it in fact was a beef burrito. To my horror. But this is how absurd your friend jill is. She decided to squeeze the nasty beef "matter" out of the burrito and continue to attempt to eat the burrito. Why, you ask? Because she spent an incredible $2.00 on the damn thing.

Yeah, I felt pretty sick by the time I was done with that.

on rainy mondays

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 19:23:29 GMT

i've discovered that I'd rather be in the office on sunny days then on rainy days. that seems a little strange to me, but frankly, the only place i want to be when it's rainy and dark is snuggly and in bed. or on my couch. with blankets and pillows. rain makes me feel trapped. and i left my great big umbrella at argo tea on saturday, so now i have to carry around the rainbow one that i accidentally stole from a former roommate. oops. i can't wait for the kids to get out of school so that i can bring them in here and force them to do labor for me in preparation for the health fair. until then, i think i'll stare at this computer more and try not to fall asleep. ugh.