What is it that pieces together the heart of woman and man?

So Ive been reading and thinking and discovering. Fun stuff. Its about womanhood, I guess so guys, you may want to listen up to get to know a girls perspective, idk, take or leave it. And girls, let me know if you agree here. Any comments are greatly appreciated! Thanks soooo much for taking the time to read. It's long but hopefully worth it, if not i guess you don't have to read from me again. = )

In thinking of when I first knew in my heart that I wasnt a girl anymore, I found that womanhood was something seen in the heart, not by solely the eye of a man. For myself, it wasnt when I quit playing dress up. It wasnt when I started wearing makeup or even when I turned 18 that I realized I was a woman. I was actually at school getting ready to go out with Drew that night and I looked in the mirror....(yeah, very uncommon for a girl - j/k) I saw the same thing I see everyday, of course. However, I saw myself in a different light. I had beauty. It was when I saw my inner beauty shinning out with the life and passion of who I really was that I saw a woman. Someone made me feel beautiful and I was finally beginning to perhaps believe it. It was a casual day, yetsomething inside of me was alive.

But what does it really mean to be a woman? The dictionary says A female adult: an adult female human being. If thats the case, isnt every female a woman once they are 18, a legal adult? Ill let you decide that for yourself. I believe it has to do with your spirit and heart inside you. I felt I was a woman when I found my sense of self. If you will allow yourself to go further, Proverbs 4:23 says this: Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Your heart is the most important thing about a woman. Our heart, as a woman, was created after the manifestation of Gods heart.

I dont know about you, but Ive been through countless arguments about understanding men and women and who is more confusing and on and on. The problem is were all going to have different views based off different situations because were all different. We see things in different perspectives because we are man and woman. You cant classify all men to be the same or even think the same for that matter.  We are men. We are women. Point blank. But yes, were probably always going to be trying to figure each other out. Thats not a bad thing by any means. As a woman myself I can tell you we arent simple, and for some that may even be an understatement. The idea is displayed if you look around. Everywhere, especially in the media. You know, movies like What Women Want, or Men without Women. with John Wayne. How about this famous phrase, Men/Women, you cant live with em you cant live without em. Well. You can. Maybe I can offer a sense of hope.

Deep inside a woman, every woman, there are desires that men were created to fulfill. And yes, deep inside a man, every man, there are desires that women were created to fulfill. Women have this fairytale world inside of them of their knight in shinning armor, their prince coming out of no where (even a frog), their man of their dreams sweeping them off their feet and carrying them off into the sunset to live happily ever after. They want the man to come for them and pursue them. Now, personally, that took me a while to figure out, that the man pursues the woman. I always was told to express myself and to tell people how you feel. I even experienced heartache because I didnt tell someone how I felt, I was to late. Which now I see as a very good thing. Some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. (Amen) The thing is, there is a line between what you tell and dont tell. Sorry guys, we do have to keep things from you sometimesbut its for the better. Have you ever felt a certain way about something or someone and you wanted to tell that person but was just really afraid it wasnt the right time? I have. Ill debate it in my mind for several minutes and decide, usually. Remember there is a right place and a right time for everything. You dont want to overwhelm and scare the guys away now do you girls? However, there are times when you have these situations and you find that the guy may actually be thinking the same thing. We are different yet, in more ways than youd think, we are the same. The thing is, girls need confirmation, a lot. We like it. We like to know that a guy cares and that he doesnt want us to forget it either. Every woman wants to be desired.

Women also want to be involved in something where she is needed, where she feels important. She wants to be in the adventure. Seen as powerful and irreplaceable yet in an elegant way. She wants to share your days, your struggles, your laughs, and your adventures. I watched the movie Rumor has it tonight and Sarah (Jennifer Aniston) says to her grandmother " I want my life to be full, i want adventure." and her grandmother replies " I can tell you this, if you love the guy, that's something to hang on to." I don't know exactly how other people feel when they're around people they care a lot about...for me though, nothing else can make me ever feel the way that person does....Personally, I love it when I make Drew smile because for even that small moment in timeI was irreplaceable and so to my heart, that smile is irreplaceable.

Women and dress up. Its not only for girls though, its only associated with them more. Children with imaginations can be anything and anyone theyd like to. The girls are usually dressed up in their grandmothers nightgown as if ready to attend an evening ball while the boys are knights and Jedis or cops. Girls want to show their beauty and the boys want to show their power and fighting skills. Question. Besides getting the bad guy, what are the boys usually fighting for? And didnt many men in war carry pictures of their loved ones in their pockets to remind themselves they were fighting for their country and what they had come home to? Theres a difference in girls looking beautiful and feeling beautiful, just as there is a difference in saying you look beautiful, and you are beautiful. I was talking to my niece today in the car and she asked if I thought Drew was cute and I told her yes but that its whats in the heart that really matters and brings people together. She asked what if his heart was bad. I said then hes probably bad. She asked if his heart was just okay and I said then hes probably okay. I said to her that what Ive seen of his heart is good and that thats all I need to know. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. A woman has beauty on the outside but the true beauty is what shines through from the heart that stands out and makes her the lily among thorns. The outward beauty would be considered hollow without the beauty of the heart. She has beauty that she savors and only brings out in rare occasions such as a dance or a special evening or a wedding. Every girl wants it but hurts can also come with it. Sure theres heartache and breakups, theres learning in it all but it can also bring danger. For myself its brought danger and heartache. Some people are inconsiderate and can bring pain upon others because of their beauty either because of jealousy or physical desires, neither of which are fair or of good moral. We simply want a man to love us for everything we are so that we may play the irreplaceable role of his bride forever and know that who we are is enough for him. Thats the kind of dream we have. Its not about the dresses or the makeup we just want to have the kind of beauty thats worth going after and fighting for.

Men have desires also. They want a battle to fight of course, something to work for. The funny thing is that men show their affection most through their battles. They also want adventure in their lives as we explained earlier. More than that, it also creates a deep spiritual longing in a man. They like something that puts them to the test something that makes them work or show off their skills. (usually for the ladies) When fighting, they like to have beauty to fight for as I explained earlier with the war pictures. Its even like Mario and the princess. He has to fight through all kinds of struggles, up and downs (quite literally) and castles and dragons but when he finally reaches the end there is the princess. She was his purpose in the first place. His work is paid off, he has her. There is nothing that inspires a man to courage so much as the woman he loves.

Okay, so this is the great part. Weve discussed the differences of man and woman. Were going to have them. But God created man and woman. He created us in His image and woman after his own heart. Were different but we were created this way so that we could fit together in an amazing way! Its like a puzzle. The pieces are all different but when they fit together they create the full picture. If two pieces were the same they couldnt ever fit together. Thats how we are as man and woman. God created us all and everything about us specifically to fulfill our purpose in His kingdom and none of us are alike exactly. We are all different but its our differences that piece us together.

A woman in the presence of a man, a real man, loves to be a woman. Same as a man in the presence of a woman, a real woman, loves being a man. Be who you are, come alive, be free and bring out the best in one another!

Set out on a journey to discover the deep desires of your heart. Discover who you are. Let your beauty shine!!!

My Life These Days

Hey everyone! Have I mentioned that I love Ozark Christian College? Just checking. If not, now you know. I came to Ozark this last Fall. I knew it was going to be a great experience and it has been, but I didn’t realize it was going to be this great. I guess that is a good thing, eh? Like I’ve said many a time, the professors are great and I’m learning a lot in class, but the people are what make it such an experience. I came here with a mind set that I thought was very very good actually. And compared to many from home and high school, it was. However, what I’ve been learning here has showed me that I needed to step it up a notch. I have become a considerable different person, with different views and stronger beliefs. It’s great!

God has blessed me with the greatest friends I could ask for. Instead of being the one always looked up to and watched as an example at home, I am now looking up to others that are examples for myself that are people of the same age and I am learning more than I could have imagined. I am able to help others here too in amazing ways. So really, Jesus is just cool. (underestimation) It has made me want to tell others and to help them see in the view of what I have seen here. I am almost overwhelmed. Well, not really, cause I could always learn more and be A-Ok with it but I am full of all great news. I am learning and trying everyday from my heart to fall more in love with Jesus Christ. Yes, back to the basics…only…not so basic. To actually focus my thoughts and energy on things that are worth while and that feed me spiritually and that will then produce fruit. It has now become what I want to do and not what I want to do just because it looks good and is right. I’ve mostly always done the “right thing” because I felt I had to, and thank the Lord I did anyways, However now, I am more of an independent person being at school and my mind is wandering and I am now doing things because I want to from my heart. I want to live for Him. Not just in a way where I say it, as I just did but truly mean it…with everything. It’s the fact of making it your lifestyle that makes all the difference. That’s one of the hardest things for Christians to do. To move to that next step, the step where they actually give up everything. We’re to give up our life and follow Him. Life = Everything. Wow, that’s a biggin there, don’t ya think? That’s what we’re saying when we are baptized also, yet we fall. We all fall. I am the same as then, I just have a new mind set. We are “under construction.” What is it that is hard for you to give up that is standing as a barrier between you and that real relationship with Christ right now? I know that mine was music. I would give up anything in the world for Christ except I couldn’t let go of the thought of music. I could give it up for Him but I was selfish about it, in a way. I wanted to be the best and be admired for the talent. Yet, when I finally gave it to God, that’s when I found that I really enjoyed it. I love it now more than I ever have in my life. I changed my major and am now not even doing music except for on the side. I know that God can still use me in it and I am strengthening my abilities in the area so that I may be able to praise Him even more with it but it’s not about me. Another thing, always remember, when you are around people that don’t try with you to bring you closer to Christ, then they are dragging you down. You truly are like the company you keep. It’s crazy, but it’s true. I’ve been exposed to both since I have been here. I’m glad now to have friends that I learn from every single day and that I can teach also. We all have something to offer. They teach me, they love me. They don’t judge me for things I say or how I act or what I do that bothers them, but they encourage me, they lift me up, and they pray for me. Now, that’s how it should be. God has chosen me to be here and to learn from this place, and I am so happy for that. He’s blessed me with a family that can help support me in many ways, especially in coming here. He’s blessed me with a church that is so loving to support me in making sure that the cost isn’t a problem. He’s blessed me by the opportunity to learn from such amazing people of faith. He’s blessed me with friends that care and help me grow closer to Him. He’s blessed me with a life, a purpose, and a mission and so much more. Tell me, what has God blessed you with today?

Hey everyone! Long time no post eh.Well, i'm back at school for second semester.  I am feeling better now and am back to normal...or as normal as i can be.  I had another CT Scan on Monday. They said it's pretty normal but i have to go have another sometime in a couple monts. yay! haha.. anyways. I love school of course. It's great.  A lot of work this semester but it's worth it completely.  Jesus is cool and i'm learning sooo much this semester...It's great. Well, i'm gonna run to dinner. Catch ya guys later.

Live the Difference!

Well, fair warning...when i write these, i sometimes get a little side tracked or just don't make any since.  I get excited and my mind goes in to many different directions..lol, hope you can follow along though.  

Most of my life of what i can remember i have always been a very determined person.  I'm a perfectionist in some cases and I am competitive, it's just who i am.  I am still an open person, i mean i'm not like set in my ways or anything i just do the best with what opportunities i have.  Since i have had any knowledge as to who Jesus Christ was, I have felt different from other people.  I know that as a Christian we are set apart...but no, i feel different. I truly have the feeling of wanting to change the world.  I don't just say that as a cliche either. 

I was watching a thing on television tonight while i was helping my mother make cookies.  It was about adoption.  It was started by Dave Thomas (the Wendy's guy) about 7 years ago.  It's just a show of these stories of children that have been adopted and have been able to truly experience life. 

I was adopted at the age of 10 and a half.  I was given the opportunity to experience life as i should.  I was given the opportuity to live and do with life what i could.  Is that why i am competitive and determined?  I really don't know.  However, i do know that because of the chance at life that i would have not otherwise had, i have tried to make the best of it and i continue to strive for the best.  I don't settle...because i did in the past without the choice, and i don't  just give in...i push through, because i can.  With that mindset of my own, and with the strength of God with me...i do feel that i can accomplish anything. 

Like i said in the beginning, I have always had this huge feeling that i am different.  I feel like i am going to make a difference.  I mean, i know that i already have made a differece in some ways, to some people...but i want to more.  While i was in the kitchen with my mother making cookies tonight we talked about our past individually.  She wondered if i ever had the desire to call or speak with my biological mother again.  I told her Yes! i would!  I want to not for me as much as i do for her... i want her to see where i've come from and what i've done with myself...and i want her to see what she has to offer and make her a better person..see the bright side i guess.  I wanna make a difference in her life.  It's things like that which inspire me.  I want to fly.  I want to open myself up and show who i am.  I definatly have some work to do, but i would love to write a book, or some books...i want to inspire others that they can do great things.  I want to do great things for Christ...i want to change the world...but i am who i am...that is all...i am nothing....Really, i just want others to look at me and know where i've been, where i've come from, where i am, and where i'm going...i want them to look at what i've done and am doing and want to be better people and try bigger things, and inspire them to trust in our Lord because with him we can do anything.  Only He is bigger than us, and bigger than our country, and bigger than this Earth.  He is the Almighty, the Alpha and the Omega...praise Him!

I wanna live the difference, stand the fight it's all or nothing no compromise, i wanna live the difference, put my life on the line. It's my generation and i'm gonna shine, it's time!