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| this is the last post that will grace this xanga: from here on out you will find me blogging on this site. the primary purpose of this move was usernames.
if you for some reason have trouble finding me, if you search for all of the john moore's on xanga users, you'll find that i am the only 'johnmoore'.
this is all.
i'll see you on the other side.
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"according to christian teachers, the
essential vice, the utmost evil, is pride. unchastity, anger, greed,
drunkenness, and all that, are mere fleabites in comparison: it was
through pride that the devil became the devil: pride leads to every other vice: it is the complete anti-God state of mind. "
~ c s lewis
when
it comes to pride, c. s. lewis hits the nail on the head in his book
'mere christianity'. in chapter 12, what becomes so terrifying is his
portayal of pride that i can see so clearly in my own life. the phrase
in the statement above that speaks the truth so justly is that little
bit at the end where he says, "it is the complete anti-God state of
mind." if this is the case, it means that no matter how spiritual i
become, when i'm living in prideful, self-conceited behavior, i am
contradicting all that i claim to worship. (pages 109-112)
he goes on to say:
"the real test of being in the presence of God is that you
either forget
about yourself altogether or see yourself as a small, dirty object. "
the
reason i have for pointing this out, is this: in a day, what do our
thoughts primarily consist of? ourselves or things that will in some
way have an effect or outcome that will be benefit us. aside from my
instinctive nature: to keep warm, seek nourishment, maintain life -
somehow, far more often than anything else, i can find myself dwelling
on thoughts of me. frightening as it may be, the more that this occurs,
the less i notice it. the more conceited i become, the less i will
acknowledge any conceit in me. this is quite the scary condition.
this begs the questoin of overcoming this dastardly state. in the way of attaining humility lewis writes:
"if anyone would like to acquire humility, i can, i think, tell him the first
step. the first step is to realise that one is proud. and a biggish sep, too.
at least, nothing whatever an be done before it. if you think you are not conceited, it means you are very conceited indeed."
all of this is so that we can have more of God; so that he can have
more of us. the fact that God desires this of us isn't because he wants
to be sure of his own dignity - demanding that we show him the humility
due his dignity.
this last quote from the chapter entitled, "the great sin", i
belive sums up why God is after us in this respect of
self-acknowledgement; why God wants our worship. listen:
"the point is, he wants you to know
him: wants to give you himself. and
he and you are two things of such a kind
that if you really get into any kind
of touch with him you will, in fact, be
humble, delightedly humble, feeling
the infinite relief of having for once got rid
of all the silly nonsense about
your own dignity which has made you restless and unhappy all your
life.
he is trying to make you
humble in order to make this moment possible . . .
to get even near it, even for a moment, is like a
drink of cold water
to a man in a desert."
this my friends, is what i'm after.
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| ::home for the holidays::
ya just can't beat thanksgiving meal, and today was like none other. the food just seems to keep getting better and better, along with the family. though it's always slightly awkward coming home after a long stint away from home, some how with these people you just seem to fall right back in. and in the course of the slightly removed relatives from "off", they didn't speak much or smile a whole lot, but it's the little quirks like that let you know that you've made it back to the place you call home.
happy thanks giving folks.
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| okay, so i've finally brought myself to update. if you really want to know the story behind my not updating, i'll tell you. (why? because what would life be w/o the stories; what is life other than a story?)
k:
so for the past five weeks i've been gallivanting around the country, right? right. so when it comes to my access to the world wide web, i've been slightly limited. or in my case, fairly limited seeing as how i invested in a camera instead of a computer. so that's the first reason.
the second reason is this: while on this adventure, (that is yet to end - i'm not home yet) i've taken quite the plethora of fotographs. so when it comes to blogs, my favorite thing to post are pictures. yet, the fact that i don't have a computer subjects me to the generosity of humankind in lending the use of their computers, to a good soul such as myself, before i can update my blog. but to make things even more complicated, the only computers i really want to use to post on my blog are ones that have downloaded the pictures that i have taken w/ my camera. which meant while the two-day team was still together, using boe's, tori's, or elizabeth's computers. which, i might add, they were very generous with. but oftentimes i would find myself on the host family's computer or the one in the business center of the hotel at which we were staying.
but, you see, right before the disbanding of the team, i got all 6.2 gigs of pictures copied from boe's computer, kate, to my ipod, jimmy. so now i'm hauling around this small hard drive, and you would think, or at least i thought, that i would surely be able to find some place where i could simply connect my ipod to a computer and slap some fotos on my xanga in this vicarious manner; but it ain't that easy. no, first of all you have to find a computer w/ a fire wire port. (that's the only cord i currently have w/ me to connect my ipod to any compute.) and secondly, here on the bryan campus you'll be lucky if you can find any computer that will allow you to connect anything to it! (i'm staying here w/ lily until tuesday when we'll drive back home for thanksgiving. right before this, after the two-day team flew out, i stayed in jefferson at the apartment. or what has now been deemed, "the alamo.")
so that is the long and gruesome explanation of why i haven't posted as often as i would have liked. i apologize. and as far as the lengthiness of this post, it wouldn't have been this long if i had had pictures.
as they say, "a pictures worth a thousand words."
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| well, by now you've all probably seen some of the more humorous photos of the team, i thought i'd update with some of the more artistic and aesthetic fotos from the Christ to the capitol tour.
a church built in 1803 directly infront of the georgia capitol
a random helicopter flying over head the georgia capitol
a prayer walk outside the capitol in georgia (photographed by chad)
the judicial building in alabama
okay, so i just mostly deleted this post, i was able to salvage these four fotos though. i think i'll call it a night. i'll try to finish this off later.
'night.
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