tonight's been interesting to say the least.

mmm. jamie's on tv tomorrow  =]=]=] INVU won battle of the bands along with $200. They're my boys. haha.

i'm really stoked about tomorrow actually.  the boys missed me tonight.  i hope they remembered to tell grandma happy birthday for me!!! so yes, since the fun couldnt be had tonight at grandmas with brad and chris, the mall tomorrow shall be awesome.  and this time i WONT steal chris' money. i'm already in debt. lmfao. 

and thennnnnnn monday i think i'm free.  Friday i think me and brad and chris are going to woods.  and saturday is brads bday so lord only knows where we'll end up for that.  lets just say. i'm totally stoked about this week. 

even if you dont care that i was concerned for you. i was.  dont make stupid accusations. especially not about my boyfriend when you dont know a damn thing about LOVE.  The facts are.  I know who my real friends are.  And if you end up being one of them again or not is really in your court now. you wanted to exclude me for how long.  and blame it one brad.  or blame it on me.  you keep doing that.  cause it's oh so mature.  To get straight to the point: I'm over the drama. you set yourselves up to be worried about. dont complain that it happened.  i'm going out with chris and brad tomorrow, jamie in the near future, and some of my new crowd, and i'm getting on with my life.

omg i HAVE to rant now. omfg. you are such fucking bitches it isnt even fucking funny. i can't fucking stand a one of you anymore. you've changed so god damn much and it DISGUSTS me.  How the FUCK could you go and hurt him like that?????? so much for "i'm so innocent i dont drink blah blah blah" bullfuckingshit.  i can see you growing to be such a shallow, whorish individual. get pissed at me for this. I DONT CARE. why??? i've been excluded enough to know YOU ARENT WORTH MY TIME. you arent worth landons time either.  you all...what have you become? you're fucking lush now? oh em gee it's the weekend lets get wasted and tell the only boy who cares about me that he means nothing to me adn i dont want to see him. well guess what stupid. the fucking boy you like and kissed and whatever WAS ALL OVER ANOTHER GIRL AT WOODS AND I DIDNT TELL YOU BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY HOME GIRL. i was trying to spare your feelings. like you ever fucking spare mine. you've all become so bitchy it's unreal.  i saw this coming the first fight we had over fucking reeder. you're rediculous.  lets see. you know you hurt my feelings. so you start saying blah blah blah missy i love you so much i'm making you a sign.  is that what it was??   i've held off on this for so long. ask brad. ask anyone i'm close to. truth be told i DIDNT WANT YOU AT WOODS because of how sad you all make me. but i asked you anyways. why? because i of all people TRY to be a friend and TRY to include those i THOUGHT i was close to. i'm just a fucking fool apparently.  you girls play everyone you know.i'm glad you didnt come.  i'm glad you dont mean a thing to alex.  i'm glad you can't stay happy with one guy for more than a day. i'm glad i can finally see past "best friends" to see how rediculous you all are and that I DONT NEED YOU. i dont.  i've got brad.  i've got jamie. i've got chris chadwell. i've got so many better people to spend my time with that it doesnt matter if you HATE me for this?  why? i'm strong enough to carry on.  but shit. one of you get your feelings hurt adn it's the end of the fucking world. cry me a river.  i hope this broke your heart as much as you've hurt mine this past year.

you're finally rid of me;happy yet?