makin a new xanga... new name soon to come...

So I leave for Florida tomorrow... i figured i should probably update even though its been about two months.. i don't really have much to say... California was fun... now it's on to Florida...

I love you Courtney!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll miss everyone when i'm gone!!! Especially you

Eh... it wasn't a bad day at all... i've had a lot worse... i just had a lot to do today! I had to go to school from 7 - 3:30ish... bowled shitty in gym  don't know what that's about... and then i had to work from 5 - 12:30... ahhh long day!!! Tomorrow I plan on sleeping in a lil bit... not too late, and then hanging out at home until Court gets up... then I want to see her for a while until she has to work, and then yet again i work 7 - 11:30... Sunday we have our send off concert for California.

I got a $.25 raise!!! boo yeah and i got all the money i was supposed to have made since December 20th or w/e the 6 month mark was... that's the highest raise you can get!!! I'm proud

Basically I'm under a lot of stress right now... I've got a lot of catching up to do in school, I need to make up some things for the couple days I miss when going to California and I work almost every night. What really sucks is that I really don't have time to hang out with anyone and I don't have time to swim. Swim team started up again on Monday (Recreation Swim Team) and I haven't had a chance to get in the water... it sucks!

Yeah... I could sit here like I normally do and complain... but there's no point. If I want it fixed/better, then I have to make it better. I'm happy with what I have. That's all that needs to be said.

I love you Court!

Just got home from a friends' house. Before that I was at work... I work too much this week... 25 hours or so... that's a lil much, oh well... i'll be happy when i get paid soon...

Today must have been the worst day possible... it was bad from the start...
            To start off my shitty day, I had to get up early becasue it was so loud in my house and the stupid dog was howling... then I got in a big fight with my brother... it was defiantly was not a good morning, then we went to McDonalds and ate lunch... and then played video games for a while, and then the stupid dog chewed up one of the $50 games that we rented!!! Then i had to go to work , and i didn't have a good day at work. It was busy and I didn't feel great at all... then I went to a friends house and got in an arguement with my girlfriend... and now here I sit... what a shitty day!

I have to work tomorrow from 7 - 2... I'm really getting sick of these long shifts... and then Idk for the rest of the day...

Honestly... i just don't give a fuck anymore... that's about it

-Jake

Just got back from the UW Platville Concert... it was awesome!!! We opened up with 4 of our songs and then listened to them sing. It was fun.

Now I'm just kind of sitting here... with a lot on my mind again... sometimes it's just so nice to be able to open up on here, and take in people's comments...

Sometimes, I feel like there is something missing... but to I honestly can not find what it is... i have everything i could want... don't I? I believe so... girlfriend, friends, job, car, school, and free time... there really is nothing else that I could want/ need. I am pretty sure that I am happy with everything that I have. I shouldn't be the one to complain about being depressed because there is no reason for anyone I know to be depressed... but there is an empty feeling... when I am with certain people, that seems to go away... but I sit here now and I wonder... is everything I have what I  want? I don't know anymore... I'm confused... Must just be the typical teenage feelings - one day I'm happy, the next day I'm not... well I work through it, and life goes on... no reason to complain about it, But still it feels like there is something more that I need... an emptiness that needs to be filled... sometimes I think I've found it, but I look at what I have now, and I always go back to feeling that what I have now is better... we'll see what happens...

Well that was just a bunch of mumbo-jumbo, but I just needed to try and get some feelings out... I would like to apologize now to everyone that just read that... sorry!

-Jake