hm yeah im pretty sad b/c i only have three friends haha..

i kinda like realized tonight .. for recital. i have my tap .. then ONE dance. and then my ballet. hahahhah im screwwed. but yeah well. im a quick changer

tomorrow im going to philly to some hospital haha and then after that .. im not sure what im doing.. probably going to south streeeeet haha . yeah

then recital all weekend so i wont be able to do anything.. not that anyone would want to do anythign wth me. but you get the point hahah... lets try to get more then 3 please?

ah. so today this hellicopter came to our schoool haha and we had to watch this video on like... teens dying in the hospital hahah. me and paige were like umm. wow ? hhah yeah it was something. Me and Gabby went to Lundbergs in activity hahahah it was sooo funny. Shithead Jones!!.. whoo. alright . yeah... so lastnight was my last ballet class for the year , im so proud of myself that i got through it hahah

Sunday i got confirmed. yeah it was pretty alright. hah the lady who took our picture.. well.. haha most everyone knows by now so i wont bother going into detail . but. I got lots of food so thats always happyyyyyyy

Recitals this weekend. Joy<3

tuesday we went to the highschool and it was pretty interesting hahha... jenny strohl's brother was my tour guide but i didnt figure that out till like...maura told me online. yeah

wednesday nothing happened. haha.. just the same boring shit but yeah i almost got my kitched kicked out of the lab hahahaha it was hmm. quite interesting. lol

haha so this xanga is like on again off again... yeah so.. not much happened today we had early dissmissal and im sittin here talkin to gabby.hm exciting.. ill put pictures of the 8th grade celebration later maybe?anddd pictures from philly hahha but i got dance later tonight ahhh.. these girls were like screaming at eachother in lunch today hahahaha woah it was soo funny me and maura were like ummmm ? yeah. hahaha and Mike Kelley gave me this like keychain that says 4given with a cross on it?he made it in prep? yeah

so that would be pretty rad if ya commented on how boring my life is?

hm. so today pretty much sucked like every otherday?. haha.. yesterday i had to go to the travel clinic at the hospital and get shots for China. hah fun. i hate shots lol.student council ws pretty boring today and miss pa was ourmotivational speaker. hahah itw as pretty stupid b/c she talked about like drugs for 2 minutes. and then the rest of it singing and talkinga bout herself. whooo.fun hahah and then me maggie n pat wanted a picture but we couldnt.because of retarded people i wont say who hahha . hm. yeah.

hm. yeah.. everything really sucks hah. I stayed home tonight with Tim. i dnno i was supposed to do something with Maggie adn Chay but i guess not .. and so now lets break it down to some Bright Eyes...

The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts.
My head is a carousel of pictures.
The spinning never stops.
I just want someone to walk in front
and I'll follow the leader.
Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush.
Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs. I almost forgot who I was,
but came to my senses.
Now I'm tryin' to be assertive.
I'm making plans.
Wanna rise to the occasion, yeah
meet all of their demands.
But all I do is just lay in bed
and hide under the covers.
I know I should be brave
but I'm just too afraid of all this change.
And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.
I keep making these "To Do" lists but nothing gets crossed out.
Working on the record seems pointless now.
When the world ends, who's gonna hear it?
But Im tryin' and take some comfort in written words,
yeah Tim I heard your album and it's better than good.
When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together.
Because I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by...
all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting out time.
Remember all those songs and the way we smiled
in those basements made of music.
But now I've got to crawl, to get anywhere at all. I'm not as strong as I thought.
So when I'm lost in a crowd,
I hope that you'll pick me out.
Oh, how I long to be found.
The grass grew high. I laid down.
Now I wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand.
I have been laying so low
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
But if everything that happens is supposed to be
and it is predetermined, can't change your destiny.
Then I guess I'll just keep moving, someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going.