wha wha! Spring break! thank God! lol Leigh Ann and i started it out right yesterday...we went swimsuit shopping for the 'pageant' we're going to be in. we had SO much fun...trying on and taking pictures of each other... it was a complete blast...we got approached while we were in Pac Sun by a guy who worked for Abercrombie...he wanted us to work for them...yeah but that requries buying A&F clothes...and i'm too poor for that lol

I am, however, looking for a job...so if you know of a good one let me know :) ... gotta save up some money for a car...that's my goal. yes it is. a convertible MINI. i'm in love, officially, with that car. and i will have one.

Not a lot else is new...my birthday is in 12 days...and in 11 days is THE pageant. Everyone come out to Electric Cowboy in Tyler... and yell for me and LeighAnn...but if you come as one of our friends, you can ONLY yell for us!!! lol we're gonna need it...prancin around in a bikini and heels has never been my strongpoint. but there's a first time for everything :)... anyhow...i'm out...gotta return my pageant application and pictures...later! 

Okay...today is the day for my venting post. Some of you won't get this so if you start reading and get bored, you don't have to read it all...not many people read this anyways lol

It all started around Christmas of 2004. Well, no, it didn't start then, it started before then, but that's when it got bad. Actually no...let me talk about the stuff that happened before then. I had a friend...notice i said "had" a friend. We actually were roommates for a while. There was a lot of stuff that happened during that time that i didn't like, but i let it go for the sake of keeping the peace. I wont go into details. Lets just say that she didn't like the way i dressed or the guys i hung out with. She even got so pissed off at me for holding hands with a boy at a halloween thing in dallas that she pretended to be asleep on the way home when i needed directions b/c i didn't know how to get back. i was freakin HOLDING HANDS with him...we didn't kiss we didn't snuggle, we held freakin hands. and she got MAD at me! okay...fast forward to the following summer...when she made out with him...NUMEROUS times...not held hands, MADE OUT...with him and they weren't dating. THIS SAME GUY! yeah, but i didn't get mad at her...nope..sure didn't. So then...we went to the lake, she invited me and my cousin to go...we paid our part of the boat rental fees...that guy went too...well she and a couple of others acted like bumps on a log...they didn't want to swim in the lake, so when me and my cousin got in the water, that guy and his friend got in with us.... next thing i know we're "flirts" and all kindsa not nice things like that. B/C WE SWAM IN THE LAKE...what the hell?! alright, so after that we kinda didn't talk much... until christmas..when she invited me and my boyfriend and whoever else i wanted to come to a christmas party. i thought this would be a good time to reconcile differences. boy was i ever wrong. Haley, Joel and i went...and were treated the worst i've ever been treated in my life. Some people hardly acknowledged our presence. I would walk into a room and they would walk out. Joel would say something and she would roll her eyes. for lack of a better word they were complete bitches to us. why do you invite someone somewhere if you don't want them there and intend to be rude to them the entire night? yeah, i don't know either. that's messed up.

Skip to the present. I haven't spoken to her since that night, and don't intend to unless she talks to me and then i'll make it clear how i feel. so...saturday night joel and i took my mom and dad to the planetarium show at tamuc...and guess who was there...that's right, her. not only did she turn around and walk back inside when she saw us...but this is how immature they were...of course she wasn't going to speak to me in person, but i can't gripe about that, i didn't talk to her either...but...as we were leaving they pulled up to the stopsign...and some guy, i'm not sure who he was, hung out the window and yelled "HEY JULIE!" followed by a burst of laughter and them driving off....as if that's not a big signal that they're talking about a person...yeah...that's mature...

OOOOOH something else... so throughout our entire friendship, she talked about these guys from Hugo...Dillan, Justin, Blake and Martin...i even "talked" to them online...but everytime i was going to meet them, something fell through... I just found out that absolutely noone from Hugo, Oklahoma has ever heard of these guys. EVER! and its not that big a town. And considering one of the dads was supposedly a dentist there...yeah...So all of this was a huge lie...What kind of crap is that?! These guys didn't even exist, they were just something she used against me to have some kind of "reinforcement" about the things she wanted to change about me. that's some shit right there.

Yeah... and that's all i have to say about that...for now...just know that people who act holier than thou...are normally the biggest lying bitches you'll meet.

Okay...this is my last one for a while...my next post will be way more interesting, i can guarantee it...

[1]. Name one person who is on your mind right now.
Joel...mainly b/c i can hear him playing his game

[2]. Do you think your life has been good so far?
I think my life has been wonderful and i can't wait to see what's in store next...

[3]. Where is the last place you went?
To my mom's house to get some dough lol

[4]. Who is the last person you called?
my voicemail..but besides that, my mom to invite her and pops out

[5]. Who is the last person you texted?
Haley of course

[6.] What was the name of your first love?
Joel...and that still is his name

[7]. Do you still talk to him/her/see?
Every day :)

[8]. What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?
18 months and going strong

[9]. Why did it end?
It hasn't

[10]. ever cheated on anyone?
never!

[11]. Been cheated on?
not that i know of, but it could have happened

[12]. Have you ever thought that you were in love?
one time i thought i was in love, but i wasn't...and then i knew i was in love...and i still am

[13]. Ever been caught having sex?
...

[14]. Have you ever slept with someone on the first date?
no

[15]. What is your favorite body type to cuddle with?
Joel's...super tall and strong

[16]. Do you look like your mom or dad?
everyone says i look like my mom...

[17]. Do you have siblings?
Yep - Donya, Stacey, Susan, Jerry, Scott...and Peggy but she died when she was a baby

[18]. Do you smile often?
i do

[19]. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
maybe...

[20]. Could you be a vegetarian?
NO, i'm a meat-eatin son of a gun...a meal is not complete without some meat

[21]. Are you sentimental?
very

[22]. Ever thought someone was "the one"?
yep...and then i realize how right i was

[23]. What do you think your wedding song will be?
i'm not sure yet, but with joel's musical backgrounds i know it'll be a good one...I know part of it will be "You" by Jesse Powell

[24]. What is your middle name?
Beth

[25]. Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity):
Love...bc its what life is really about

[26]. Do you wish on stars?
heck yeah i do

[27]. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
lol i never do

[28]. What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
squid...

[29]. Would you kill someone?
...maybe

[30]. When did you last cry?
lol today, b/c i'm a freakin sap and was watching Independence Day...and that part at the end got to me

[31]. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play you?
Reese Witherspoon *so Joel says... she's freakin gorgeous so i don't know about all that lol*

[32]. Have you ever met anyone famous?
yeah, Jaret from Bowling for Soup...i'm sure there's someone else but i can't think of anyone right now

[33]. Do you like your handwriting?
sometimes

[34]. Who are you jealous of?
um, not one person that i can think of right now, but i'm sure there's someone lol

[35]. What is your favorite lunchmeat?
Ham

[36]. Do you have any bad habits?
pickin at my nails and cussing...i really gotta stop that lol

[37]. Are you a friendly person?
of course i am

[38]. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
well yeah!

[39]. Do looks matter?
yeah, there's gotta be the initial attraction

[40]What is your favorite school subject?
biology...its my ONLY school subject right now

[41]. Are you keeping a secret from the world?
um...no?

[42]. Do you regret anything?
no...well maybe living with the person i did and changing myself for her for so long

Q: WHO'S BED DID YOU SLEEP IN LAST NIGHT?
A: Joel's

Q: WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
A: cream

Q: WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR UNDIES RIGHT NOW?
A: Pink

Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
A: a dog, Enana...and then Beans of course but she's really joel's

Q: MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?
A: Miss Congeniality, it was on tv today

Q: NAME 3 THINGS THAT YOU HAVE ON YOU AT ALL TIMES?
A: phone, clothes, stun gun *lol actually i couldn't think of anything but phone...*

Q: WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS?
A: black...and they are the softest sheets in the WORLD

Q: HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW?
A: $0... i have a check from my mommy tho

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT?
A: um...probably playing Halo with Joel

Q: WHATS YOUR FAVORITE PART OF THE CHICKEN?
A: leg!

Q: WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TOWN/CITY?
A: right now, Philly...its gorgeous...i really like NY...but i've never been there to see how much i'd like it in person...but some day soon i will

Q: I CAN'T WAIT TO?
A: Go to NYC, graduate, get my own job and get married...pretty much in that order lol

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR DAD?
A: tonight... lol he was telling a story about my dog

Q: Who got you to join myspace?
A: Haley

Q: How long have you been at your current job?
A: HAH what job?! i need one

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: yeah, only b/c i might need him someday haha

Q: What's the last thing you said out loud?
A: 'crap, she hung up and i've been sitting here with the phone to my ear"

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: Joel playing Halo

Q: What is the last place you spent over $100?
A: Wal-Mart

Q: Who's your favorite villain?
A: ScarFace

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: Hah! a t-shirt that says "you knead me, i don't knead you" with a loaf of bread on it, a hoodie to wear over it, and a pair of brown Roo's from haley the day that it was raining at her house...i think that's the last thing i borrowed from her...if not then my answer is "something from haley's house" lol b/c that's where i get most of my clothes

Q: What web site(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: myspace, i'm eff'n addicted

Q: If you could drink anything right now what would it be?
A: tequila... okay, i kid...but it might make my head feel better... some grape kool-aid

Q: Does anything hurt on ur body right now?
A: my head...but what's new with that

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
A: Playa Del Carmen...i think... it was crazy

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: yep

Q: What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
A: if its summertime and hot i like french vanilla frappuccinos...if its cold i like caramel macchiatos

Q: Any ideas for your new-years resolution?
A: no, they suck lol

Q: Admit something about yourself.
A: I'm a very clumsy drunk.

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-Current Mood: sleepy

-Current Music: i'm not listening to any...but halo is in the background

-Current Hair: er...it was dye #12... but its washed out so its kinda medium brown

-Current Annoyance: stupid bitches who think they are holier than thou and are old enough to stop acting as childish as they do...yeah

-Current Longing: for a baby...HAHAHA J/K!!! to be held...and that longing will be fulfilled in a lil' bit :)

-Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing: finishing my quantitative biology homework...but its in commerce, so i should be sleeping

-Current desktop picture?: its a Texas Longhorns pic

-Current Favorite Music: blah...anything i love music, just don't know much about it

-Current Favorite Book: hm.. i'll get back to you...i love Ann Rule's true crime books, but i don't have a favorite one

-Current CD In Stereo: Hillary Duff...no, i'm not kidding

-Current Refreshment: Dr.Pepper *shh don't tell* lol

-Current Worry: "am i going to wake up early enough in the morning to get to c-town and finish my homework?" lol