the question is...i was asked the question "Julie, what do you want...truly want?" My first response was going to be something unimportant, something quick, something meaningless...but i stopped myself and really started thinking, "what do i truly want?" i want... i want to take a walk on the beach, hand-in-hand with someone special...i want to stay there all day, laughing, having fun, taking lots of random pictures, sitting there in his arms watching the sun set... i want to visit Ukraine and see my family...o, how i miss them...i want to shop the streets of Lutsk...i want to go to their church again...i want to learn Russian...for no real reason... i want to actually get good grades next year at college and not just so-so...i want to feel smart once again...i want to actually work for my grades instead of gettin lucky... i want to not miss out on things because i am afaid of being hurt or let down...i want to love recklessly...to feel the passion...i want to learn to step out of my box...out of my comfort zone...i want to try new things and not be scared or hesitent... i want to learn how to dance... i want to travel to Austrailia and hear their accents...i want to go to Paris...i want to go back to NYC and times square... i want to go skinny dipping... i want to play soccer again, to feel the rush of the game, to feel the passion once more, to make the game winning save, to feel the ball between my hands as i dive to save it...hearing the crowd cheer...once again feeling like i make a difference on the field... i want to live my life without compromise...i want to be firm and strong in my beliefs...i want to be the strong person i used to be...the person i no longer am...i want to fall completely in love with God...doing His will...and growing in Him more and more everyday... i want to graduate college at the top of my class...proudly passing state boards and becoming a nurse...a dream and passion i have had since i was a little girl...i want to be a nurse to kids, babies...i want to work in labor and delivery, helping to bring new life into the world...how amazing that would be... i then want to go on and become a sign language interpreter...something i love and miss so much... i want to find the love of my life...a man who shares my loves, passions, and love for God...i want to get married in this certain place...i want to grow old with him, side by side...i want a man who won't let our love and passion dwindle away with age and time...i want to be as in love with him when im 80 as the day we got married...i want to always feel the love between us...i never want the little things to fade away, like writing love notes, holding hands, the desire to just be near each other, the feeling you get when you look into each other's eyes... i want to build a home with this man...in the country...having a house full of children...to hear their laughter and joy all day long...i want to be the best mother i can be to them...be there when they are happy, sad, lonely or hurt...to wipe away their tears and tell them everyday how much i love them...i want to teach them about God and how amazing He is...i want them to look up to me and to see God through me...i want to go to all their soccer games(yes, soccer!!) and be their biggest fan...cheering them on in everything they do in life, with my husband by my side doing the same... along with my own children, i want to be a foster mom...to take in children without a home and give them a place where things can be good for a while...to help them heal if broken...to help them learn how to love if all they know is hate...to show them the love of a mother...the love of a family...the love of God... i want to see all my children grow up, become the best that they can be...having a family of their own...loving God with all their hearts...and spoil my grandchildren... i want to join the Red Hat Ladies Society with Lisa... i want to live life to the fullest...with no regrets... so, after being asked what i truly want, those are my answers...it's a lot, yes...is it do able? i don't know...but am i going to try? of course...if i didn't i would not be true to myself...true to who i am...true to who i am going to be... so, what do you truly want?? | 
