Let's face it, we've changed ...
we've all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting,
we've all gone our own directions.
Hearts were broken, friendships diminished new loves started and new people came into our lives.
We no longer spend all our time together in our circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all.
We've changed ... some for the better and some for the worse.
Some of us are finding love while others are trying to let go.
Even though we've changed, we all know that even though were all finding our own place in the world
that when we find out love, when we let go of a love, when the tears fall or the happy smile spreads across our face ...
we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens,
nothing will ever change so much that we're not all best friends forever

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting... and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isnt anyone who wont take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just BECAUSE. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait... 

So its almost 2006.
And tonight..im ringin' in the new year by myself. With my sister. Unless she goes out.
And then tomorrow morning just adds to all the fun.
Daycare, with the kid who spits on megan and me and tries to bite me.
This weekend is going to suck.

I'm going to quit the church after we get back from florida. Nobody besides megan understands how horrible these kids are.

So..2005.
Not the best year, not the worst either.
I've decided i really miss my friends.
Summer '05 changed us all. Even if we don't want to admit it.
I wish things would go back to the way they were.
Highlights of '05-
-California. duh.YYYYYYY
-Ironbirds game with kaitlyn, lacey, and jasmine<3
-Pool parties<3(Ohhhh fiiiiiiive!)or was it ohhhh eighhhht? haha idk but it still makes me laugh<333333
-basically whenever i got to hang out with kaitlyn or emily or jasmine or lacey

My hopes for 2006-
--To fix some friendships.
--To make new friends
--To make things like they were before 2005.
--To find a nice guy who doesn't always go for the slutty blonde, big boobed girls(hahah lauren, if only there were guys like that)

ok so this wasnt a great new years update, i dont have any pictures because i've been "antisocial"

Happy New Years

there is a difference in what we long for,
what we settle for and who we are meant for

something's gone. her smile has disappeared.
the sparkle in her eyes has faded away. if only
she could forget about him..

Just because someone doesn't love you
the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don’t love you
with all they have.

Christmas is in 5 days. I'm excitedddddddddddddd.

Going to myrtle beach the 26-30. Hopefully it'll be a good getaway from alll of this. I need a break from everything.

<3

Made all county again
16th chair...2 better than last year.  

 Thanksgiving's in 2 days. Not celebrating it til friday though.
Tricia comes home late tonight. Mom and james are picking her up right now.
 Christmas is in a month<3 And i think every single person reading this should write me a Christmas card. That would make my christmas a bazillion times better: )

I need to stop thinking about things. They're not going to happen. It's done and over. I just need to say adios.

you never know who your true friends are..
until tears are rolling down your cheeks;
the true friends are the ones,
who are there to wipe the tears
&& hold your hand;
when everybody else just stands around
wondering what happened to you.

don’t you miss the nights we used to talk for hours
& i held my phone up to my music saying
" this is the part of the song that reminds me of you "

Ever have one of those days where nothing really goes wrong,
actually good things happen to you, but you still just feel like you hate the world
+ anything that happens even dropping your pen in the hallway
makes you wanna break down right there and cry?

as he grabbed my hand..half of me wanted to
scream "don't touch me." but half of me
wanted to say "baby, never let me go" <33

^^hahaha DONT TOUCH ME!! haha that made me laugh for some reason?

im still walking
down memory lane
cause i know i' ll be
running into you <//3

okkkkkk sooo what about cute icons? whatever happened to them?

maybe he`s doing the same thing as me.
maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just
won`t because I haven`t called him. then again,
maybe I shouldn`t fill myself with false hope...
that he might just be missing me, like I`m missing him

When your married and have kids,
and your little girl asks you who
your first love was
{{ I hope you say my name}}
^aahh that one was cutttte..at least i thougth it was


Open your eyes
Im crazy about you

 that reminds me of the notebook...dunno why

Sometimes things need to fall apart, for
you to realize how much you need to put
them back together again


I got bored. Everyones doing something. So this is what i do. I find quotes and icons.

Glad its the weekend. But theres going to be like nothing to do this weekend except Sunday. Club volleyball tryouts and my moms birthday. Other than that, i might go to the thingy tomorrow. Ah who really actually reads this part?