Hey pictures.. long over due.....

so yeah! Here are a few pics of when Robert was down.. it was nice:) worry it took me 2 months to get them up...

much love

him being silly at amy's house...

Christmas morning (^__^)

bob, Me, and robert reuniting finaly after like 4 years (robert wouldn't smile, so i tickled his side)

him and my little sister mimi

this is bob!

and this is by far, the funniest face i've ever seen him make.

Just thought you guys might like those....

Robert came home for christmas.. it was so awesome.. i'll be posting pictures on here in a few days when i get back to san antonio..

It was so wonderful.. we spent the first few days of his leave with his family and grandparents.. that was nice! :) and then we came down for christmas with my family. he was adored my little sisters.. we mostly layed around the house and chilled with them all day, or we went to the mall and hung out there, and oh! we took them to see the chronicles of narnia. We had such a nice time... I look forward to visiting his family the rest of this semester while he's in germany and while he's in iraq and kuwait (bad spelling). but still, it was an amazing time.. and it was well worth the wait.

i'm happy... i'm so very happy :)

I feel I need to explain a few things.. to many of you.

I got "the letter" from Zephyr the other day (You all know to which I am referring too) and when I got it, I was really REALLY angry and I thought it was because of previous fights I had gotten into with certain people (leaving names out), and things I'd said that I had gotten that letter for

And I decided, if Zephyr didn't' want or need me, I didn't need or want it.

But it kept bothering me, I knew that wasn't the case, I knew that the administration didn't just make these decisions to hurt or offend anyone . and now two days later after this really beating up on me (and two days isn't a lot I know, but still) I got a hold of a friend, and talked to her. After about 5 minutes of really complaining and just - venting, this friend of mine really let me have it.

She asked me to name 5 things I liked about Zephyr, so I told her 5 things all pertaining to things that made ME happy. Then she asked why should I work there? and I smarted off to her.
She flat out told me my heart wasn't in the right place, that it wasn't about me being happy, it's about serving God out there. and even though I knew the right answer all along, I had completely missed the point of being out there. I knew I was out there to serve God, and for all I knew, I was.

But I wasn't allowing myself to forgive people who had offended me, I wasn't allowing myself to serve God with a full heart and a sound mind and I wasn't letting my spirit be in the right place it needed to be with God. I realize now that earlier post offended and hurt some people, and for those of you reading this, I'm Sorry, and I thank you for putting me in that situation to realize where i stood spiritually. Don't feel bad about that decision, I know it was something you had to do and that it was made out of love and prayer...lots of prayer.. and I'm more deeply touched that you took the time to even explain and write that letter to me telling me I'm not where I need to be, because if you didn't care, you wouldn't have said anything in the first place.

So here I stand, completely humbled and broken in front of you, people I know who care, and people who I know were always there, people I hurt the most with my stubborn heart. Thank You. and through prayer and a lot of time I can only hope of gaining the honor back of rejoining the Zephyr Family, even though I know I don't' deserve it. and even if I never rejoin, I am grateful for your prayers and friendships, for these I will keep with me. I apologize to everyone of you, for not being a better Christian, and a better friend. I begin now, a new beginning and a new perspective. God hasn't given up on me yet, and I'm really glad he hasn't because I would be completely dead and truely alone, without him.

Hey all... i'll be at Zephyr tomorow, i'm soo excited! I missed it soo much... Killer Bee'ss won the first win of the 2005 - 2006 Central Hockey League season against the Lubock Cotton kings..  Tonight is their second game of the season and Andy and i have free tickets to go.

the best part of coming home.. is leaving again..

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I love writing letters to him.. 12 pages later and i am still not done.. the funny thing is, when he called, he couldn't stop writing me as well