Country:United States Birthday:5/12/1987 Gender:Female
Interests:First and foremost, Jesus Christ-->my comforter and my strength.
also, staring at the ceiling, making animal noises, whistling two different notes all at the same time, counting my fingers, counting my toes, rolling around in the mud, talking to my dog, talking to myself....eatiing.. eating...eating.....chocolate .. ice cream late at night when no one is watching.... Expertise:*Music. track runner, or use to be one. SNOWBOARDING. PIANO!!! , violin, voice, and guitar. running. Soccer. art. S.A. Pastor @my school---->community outreach/service for the National Marrow donor program and Red Cross. NURSING HOME MINISTRY.
for my future profession, I plan on being a social worker for geriatric care. Yes, Im a softee for the elderly... Occupation:Student Industry:Art
It is the final week of my winter break, Jan. 2, 2007. The first quarter of college flew by. I finished with a 3.73 gpa, which is...believe me... a lot better than I thought it would be. I have low self-esteem when it comes to the academia world. I have made up my mind to believe that I'm not brilliant. I do not say this because I beg for pity, I say this because I've assessed my brain to see that it is true. However, my friend William seems to think otherwise:
William: if you have a mind and can use for other than keeping up with fashion and gossip and can think for yourself you are brilliant and bright, you are a light to those who can't.
An inspiring comment. I think he was referring to me. Anyway, I am switching my major. If all goes well, I will be auditioning into the music program this spring quarter. I've been told that beyond my current age it is difficult to excel at an instrument. I believe in this full-heartedly, which is why I've decided to dive back into they mystical word of music - and I do not say that out of mockery. When I play music I am infused with a creative energy. I want to re-explore this area and hopefully do something I can be proud of.
But what about beyond music? My major will be music education. Apparently this is my "fall-back" profession. I will start taking science classes and see how it goes. Do not question my motives: I am not pre-med or pre-dent. I am pre-I don't have a clue. Okay?
New Years Eve in Japan was a happy time for my family. We walked to a temple in Higashi-Yodogawa and hit the gong at midnight. We laughed and whistled... life couldn't feel more complete. If I could have requested anything at that moment it would have been a kiss from my boyfriend. So, I tried to imagine it, but as you must know, imagining isn't nearly as good as the real thing.
Speaking of my boyfriend, he came out to Japan for the first week of Christmas break. It was incredible. My grandfather (Ojiichan) has been sick with terminal cancer (stomach) for some time. This was Tim's last opportunity to meet him before his death, and he seized it. Somehow he scrounged up the money to do it. He flew out a day before me and spent the day with my family. It's really nice to have a boyfriend that fits in so comfortably with my family. It is also equally nice to have a boyfriend that takes interest in my motherland - Japan. Tim was so fascinated with Japan. He gained pleasure out of simple things - such as, looking out the shinkansen (bullet train) window. He also received full ratings from my grandfather. They really hit it off...
Ok, well... I should probably go to bed now. Good night diary...
It's kind of ridiculous that I've gone this long without writing in you. Well, guess what? It took me rolling around in my bed till 4 am to make this decision - I am finally recording my life again.
This past Sunday was my 6 month semi-anniversary with my boyfriend Tim. Yes - Tim and I are still together. And we are doing amazing.
I am in college right now and my head is going crazy. I'm still figuring out this whole "time management" thing. Apparently, I really suck at it. Anyway, I have my first test in intro to social work @ 1 pm today and I'm scared. Really. Tests freak the hell out of me, especially now that I'm in college.
So I was in Japan this summer. There is a reason why: my grandfather is dying of stomach cancer. We will be going back this Christmas, and if he is still alive (God willing), Tim may have the opportunity to meet him. I really hope it works out this way.
Bla bla bla, I don't feel like writing much more. To give you more brief updates on my life, I am going to La Sierra University in Riverside, CA, I'm majoring in Social Work with a minor in music. Somehow I have already acquired the position of Co-Captain for a Homebase Ministry Team, and I am also Co-Social VP for the Social Work Club.
My head is seriously going crazy. If I don't fall asleep anytime soon...
Junky
p.s. my roommate is awesome. Her name is Quiche and she's from Sacramento. We laughed a lot before she fell asleep.
It has been... ages since I've written in here. Believe it or not, in just a couple months, a lot of things have happened. It would take... forever to write about all of it. Today I ran my final blood drive at Pine Tree Academy. Everything seemed to hold sentimental value. I soaked in the last hour. I looked around in a tired, yet happy daze. Every time I realized a few more lives were being saved because of someone's simple act of self sacrifice, a burst of joy would permeate my soul. Feeling ignominous for my my previous anxiety and fear of not reaching our goal, I began looking at things in a different light. Instead of focusing on how many more donors we needed, I gave up thanks for the 32 pints of blood that weren't there before.
My senior year is coming to an end. It is difficult for me to write about this - it begins to draw out emotions I prefer not to experience too deeply or let alone express at the moment. When I begin to do this, nostalgia takes hold of my mind, and I begin to think of the unchangeable, memorable past.
Luckily, I have a bright future ahead of me. I am going to Pacific Union College in the fall. I have an amazing boyfriend who I feel overwhelming contentment with. We connect on multiple levels. Our minds and our passion for life coincide with each other. He understands my heart. I feel so happy and blessed. As of now, we are destined to have a long distance relationship. Physically, we are 3,000 miles apart. Mentally, we have become very close. He has described our distance as a gift from God - I agree with him.
Isn't this difficult to believe? It seems unreal. Impossible. It is out of Jen's nature to feel so confident about a relationship . I am supposed to be the feminazi, independent bitch of a girlfriend..
Today was an amazing day. Sanele gave birth to Nyasha, a beautiful baby girl. She went into labor @ 8 AM this morning. Until now, I have been at the hospital ever since. As her contractions grew increasingly more intense, we held her hand and breathed "hee, hee, hoo. hee, hee, hoo." It was definitely a bonding as well as an exhausting experience. As her labor progressed, it became more and more difficult to see Sanele go through so much pain. In the end, some complications with the pregnancy made it so she needed a c-section.
I could go into a lot more detail about tonights events. However, at this point, I am way too tired. All I can say is this: today was a day filled with beauty and joy. I will always feel a special connection to Nyasha, and plan on being a good auntie to her.
Ok, to sleep I go...
-Jen
p.s. And yes, I was very emotional, and cried a lot.
.. ice cream late at night when no one is watching....
