Life...so unpredictable

Ok, so again it has been a while since I have been on Xanga.  But this time I was just really bored, looking at my facebook when I realized...oh yeah, I forgot I had a xanga.  Anyway, I read my last entry and it is amazing how much things have changed since I wrote that.  Summer turned out to be fantastic after all...got a new job at Britches and hung out with some awesome friends, had some good times.  Oh, and I now have a boyfriend who I love so much.  I am really happy right now I think for the first time in my life...crazy huh? 

Currently Listening Flyleaf By Flyleaf see related

Ok, so I haven't written on this thing forever and I am pretty sure that nobody is going to read this.  Frankly, I don't really care I just need to get some things off my chest.  And I don't really want to bother anyone by calling them and telling them my lameass problems.  Really they are pretty lame.  First of all, I am living in Como this summer and I don't know if it is going to be as fun as I thought it was going to be.  I live alone in my apartment and I get really freakin lonely.  Yes, one of my best friends is living in the same apartment complex but I hate to bug her all the time.  And if I was living at home in LS this summer, even though I hardly have any friends there anymore, at least I would have my family there who the older I get the more I sooo appreciate.  You know and I thought I would like living alone but I hate it.  Gosh, I hope I am not single for the rest of my life or I am going to be in really bad shape.

And speaking of being single...I am kinda sick and tired of that too.  I have never had a boyfriend and I have always wanted one.  I know I am still young and I have plenty of time for that kinda stuff blah blah blah...It is not like I want to find THE one and get married right now or anything.  I just want a boy that cares for me and a boy that I can have fun with.  I try to act like I don't want one too and that I like not having a boy to worry about and that I like the thrill of the chase but it isn't true.  It is just a huge cover up because I don't want to tell everyone that I am a huge loser and that every single guy that I truly like does not like me back.  Seriously, what is wrong with me?!

Anyway, I am going to stop complaining because I do have stuff to be thankful for.  Like my friends who I thank God for every single day.  And my ablsolute wonderful family who I also thank God for every day.  I am very lucky in that area.  I hope they all know how much they mean to me and that I would do anything for them. 

P.S.  I might be going to the Dave Matthews Band Concert in St. Louis.  Kristi had some extra tickets and wanted me to come.  I feel bad because I am not a huge fan of them and I feel like someone more into them and deserving should go but then again all of my friends are already going and I think it would be a blast going to a concert with all of them.  I mean and who really turns down a free concert ticket, seriously? 

Currently Listening First Impressions of Earth By The Strokes see related

I LOVE MIZZOU!  It is soooooo nice to be back from break!!! 

Currently Listening Monkey Business By Black Eyed Peas see related

WHY AM I SO AFRAID OF EVERYTHING?!!!!

LAST DAY AT CUSTARD'S!!! 1 DAY TILL I MOVE BACK!!!!!  I AM SO EXCITED!!  well, everyone thanks for a great summer!(especially you meg, i don't know what i would do without you!)  wish i could have spent more time with some of you!!  miss you all!