How I am supposed to love my boyfriend or would be boyfriend?

One Sweet Day

The first meeting is planned. I can guarantee the purity of it all from the start until the end. He is the best person I ever known. A person with tender smile, modest attitude and kind heart. You will easily acquaint your soul with him. He is a friend from nowhere and his name is Chobby.

The first day is great; never a day failed leaving without a smile. We are teacher with each other in a classroom where all strangers to me besides him and my friend Allyson. The time of Statistics is amiss but not until I saw him. He made it right when I feel wrong. We shared stories, personal and non-personal. I appreciate when he listens because that time, I left no person to talk with. There I came to realize how wonderful it is to have him as a friend. He is an angel. Who came to know me but then…

We satisfy ourselves at the last semester. We knew it is the end but not totally the End. We really have so much fun in the last day of first semester of my third year and his second year. Then, second sem came and I’m eager to see my friend Chobby.

God didn’t fail me when I saw him in the admission who is about to go home as well. I surprised him at his back and smiled when he finally saw me. God knows how much I missed my friend at that moment. And when we reached the gate outside, he bid his goodbye to me with a touch of his hand on my face while saying these words “I missed you.” An idea came to me that something is wrong. That’s strange, that’s weird. That’s unusual of him to do that to me by only saying goodbye. There’s a whisper in me to run after him and ask him what the problem is. Sorry to regret this… I did not do.

Shocking news blew my consciousness when a common friend told me that… “Chobby is already gone.” It held my tongue for a minute, thinking it was a practical joke, but then my friend told me “Kristine, you think I would joke to you with this kind of thing?” I…I…d-don’t know what to say at that time. It was like an arrow that strokes my heart into pieces. How could a very good person be taking away so easily? To every person I know, why Chobby? Why my friend? I cried there with my friend’s notice, she hugs me and felt sorry seeing me howling like a baby. There she told me the full story from the time Chobby was excused from school, to his condition at the hospital, until he was comatose and get amnesia, revived from comatose and then died. I cried terribly from imagining what my friend gone through, I cried terribly at the thought I was erased from his mind.

I was crying, until I reached our chapel and prayed to God my friend Chobby. Our head priest saw me and called to come near him, as I came close to him he immediately hug me tightly without asking what’s the matter. There I felt safe to burst out crying. I am such a baby. The priest and I prayed Chobby and after that I told him that I wanted to go home.

As I reached our house I began crying and my little brother saw me and drew his arms around me and shed tears with me. Hehehe… such a drama but it really happened. I went upstairs and my brother brought me barbecue because he knows it’s my favourite. He told me it was hid condolence to me. Hehehe… my brother is really sweet.

The grieve end for I don’t know when. Until now I cried every time I remember him. But now he is not just a friend who came and left me on earth, but he is an Angel to me who came down from heaven and guides me at the time I really wanted a person like him. Now, today he is still with me he’s besides me at any moment. He is alive in heaven. I am so blessed to meet a person like him whom I will never forget. He is a wonderful person. I feel sorry I can no longer say these all to him. Back then I remember that he loves the song “One Sweet Day” when he was listening on my mp3. Like the message of the song “I know you’re shining down on me from heaven… like so many friends we’ve lost along the way… and I… know eventually we’ll be together… One sweet day… patiently I’ll see you in heaven.”

I’ve learned in the end, how lucky I am that God still allows me to breath and shared my life to everyone I love in this world. I cannot allow wasting a second of my life because every seconds of it is precious. I still have a purpose to discover and fulfil perhaps Chobby’s purpose end in that way. I know Chobby’s dream and it was to help; same with mine. Since then I treasure every morning I wake up and I value the simple things that happen to me. God is good to make me realize this. I am the witnessed of Life’s Law. Since then I learned not to take advantage of the people I loved and loves me back. This is what I learned from my friend Chobby.

My Blessed Life

Seven Months has passed and yes, a lot of good things have happened. I cannot completely remember now everything but I can still detail every happy memory I still have in mind and heart.

            What a year! January was good because I had the chance to be close with a new friend named James Benedict Lim-it. He’s kind and generous; he even surprised me when he gave me a personal book of my dreamed to read “The Little Prince”. It was an extraordinary feeling, knowing I’m not used to entertain peculiar person but I already knew at the first instance that I met him, he’s different… he’ll be none other than. We became close friends, that I’m almost always being visiting his house. I will admit that I’ve fallen in love with him at the moment I tried reaching out for his soul. I was drowned by the discoveries I found out about him. I knew from the start! He’s the man I’ve been waiting for; from then on I started praying that he was sent by God for me. God knows how much I entrusted Him with everything I hoped for. The ironic part is, just when I am about to give up looking for the right person there after he arrived. And yes! James later on became my boyfriend. Unbelievable! But what had happened was truly a blessing…a wonderful gift. God really knows how to plan better things. Everything seems to be remarkable for me. I became happier since we’re together. But now it’s May, we’re now on our second month anniversary. I have no wishes for now; I have a new laptop which is a very precious gift from very generous people who were my Uncle Bob and Auntie Liezel. Auntie brought me this all the way from America only this May 3 in the morning. Yes! I know God did something about all this, there’s no doubt about it. And I can’t wait to thank Him tomorrow for its Sunday.

            February 17, 2007 is the date that is very memorable. I should not forget that. It was the date when James proposed to me in a jeep on the way home, hehehe… it’s a very unordinary moment. But I did not hesitate to answer him with a yes. Now, this relationship is both our First Time. Incredible right? Actually I cannot believe myself I could found someone that is so perfect for me. I could not really ask for more, my oppa is every man for me. So thank God that He already allows me to fulfil my fantasy and wishes with him. I am not an idiot to deny this; I am in love with the boy who meets a girl along the journey of searching the real happiness. Truly I was blessed with a wonderful boyfriend and a family that I wished for. I was blessed with generous relatives like Uncle Bob and Auntie Liezel who gave me this beautiful laptop. I was blessed because I have miraculous friends who are mature, religious and understanding. I was blessed with unordinary life that is inspiring and unique because I was made by my father God. He made me beautiful and anything about my whole being. I was blessed. Thank you Lord.

Memorable quotes for Patch Adams

The Girl who Lives Today

A miserable day for me to gather today, a sun full of burden in her heart it's very hard to survive in a moment of difficulties. She wants to release herself from the evil that surrounds her but she doesn't know how. She wanted to help herself but seems alone can't do enough. It's been 18 years of sacrifice from the attitude that imprisoned her and yet she thought she already freed from it. What a great sorrow, she looks like a monk out of nowhere she exist. You loved a child and yet like a bubble they'd quickly disappear. Is this life all about? She wants to perceive an ideal world full of aesthetic and joy, where a place you can be want you want to be.

I longed to see the future in a brand new way start where people have no idea what is being bad. When the day comes where dreaming are easy to reach. I agonize for those people who can't see the light, the positive this world could offer. I agonize for those people who treated them in cruelty and greed.

Can you feel what I am feeling? Are you also the victim of criminal estate of this nation? Pardon me, but... are you the One?

I wanted to see the real image of Jesus Christ and most especially my Lord God. My faith helped me survive from these trials and yet now I am still surviving. Do you belong to anyone? I belonged in heaven that's what my faith tells me and yes I am trying to destined myself on there. Can you judge my actions? No, even myself I cannot judge, for everything I do... I tried to control.

Release your suppressed emotion my child and people will pay for their actions. You've got no problems to endure that is all in your mind. I trust you enough that you can overcome any challenges that you would encounter. That is what I know about you. Tomorrow will be much better than today, believe because you've already seen it. Kurisuchin.