| Ah, trusty old xanga.
First update about the beach party. Everything was at first going fantastic. We drove out there. Went to the house, then went to the beach for a few hours and skim boarded. Then went back to the house and soon people started showing up. Then the drinking started. We bought 3 bottles of patrone, which may I say knocked me on my ass. It was still early and people were showing up and it was a lot of fun. Until Alan was getting TOO drunk. First he got all pissed off at me because I was with his friend Matt and he thought we were off having sex in the bushes or something. Then when I'm on the phone with my very best friend Tonya he's trying to be all over me. And he shoves me and leaves a crazy bruise on my leg so I was pissed and we hardly talked. Then we had to sleep together which was not okay. I'm all trying to sleep and hes jumping out of the bed every 10 minutes getting sick. But luckly for me, I don't have hangovers. Which maybe isnt so lucky though, it just means that I'm more immune to alcohol. Needless to say I haven't talked to Alan since Sunday afternoon when I finally got him to take me home... we're dunzo
And to add to all the madness, my mom and dad pretty much have disowned me. We all got into a huge fight last weekend which ended in my mom flying across my bed trying to beat the shit out of me and my dad having to pull her off. During the fight my mom decided to tell me she wished I didn't live with her and that I should just leave. Also, if I stay she's going to charge me rent. She can pretty much kiss my ass on all of that. I was so angry I decided to bring up both their weaknesses and tell my mom she was an alcoholic and call my step-dad a pot head. Both are true, but maybe it was a bad time to point that out, hence my mom comming across my bed to beat the shit out of me. --SOOO, I have yet to make a decision but, I called my Aunt Kathy who says that I should just move back home to live with her. But I'm not sure that that's what I want anymore. I don't know if I want to move back. I looked into getting an apratment and I could possibly afford one but it just means that college may have to be pushed back because I won't have the money. Thus, making it very difficult to decide what to do.
Anyway, glad I got all of that out, although it doesn't make my decision any easier. Maybe I'll just plan a vacation to MO soon, the time away from my family may help make my decision easier and let the dust settle between my parents and me...
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| Woah, I havent updated in along time... Myspace has kinda taken Xanga's place.
Alan and Matt are on their way to pick me up right now so we can get to the beach house and hang out on the beach all day today and then tonight is the party! I'm excited. And It will be the first time I've spent the night with Alan so we'll see how that goes..
Tomorrow Jared is going to wake up early and start driving here! Kinda madfe last minute plans before school started but I'm super stoked. He'll get in sometime Sunday night and then leave early Thursday morning which gives us 3 days to hang out.
I start working part time next week at RHDC so I can hang out with Jared while he's here and then when he leaves I'm guna start looking for a new job. Which I absolutely HATE doing.
Lots of stuff has gone on but I have no time to update with all of it. I have to finish getting ready.
<3
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| Last night I had to watch Jackson so Alan rented a movie and came over to hang out. We watched 16 blocks which wasen't that good but I'm glad we got to hang out. He had to leave around 12:30 though because he had a wedding he had to go to today.
Now he's on his way over and we're going to go get ice cream. Then I don't know what.
I had a crazy dream last night that I quit RHDC and was terribly upset about it. I think that place stresses me out way too much. I really should quit because I do need to get a better paying job.
Then I could move out. I'm sick of living with my parents. How did I get stuck with such a fucked up family anyway? Poor Jackson..
I need to go up to school to take that fuckin test that I still haven't done.. wow I'm a terrible procrastonator and I dont even know how to spell it.
That's all I have on my mind right now. All that I really feel like writing about...
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