Another fight again!

This is the 4th day back to Taiwan. well... I admit that I didn't try my best to comfort him in the whole matter.  He was in a bad mood b'coz of his schoolwork. I know you're tired and upset babe! you think that u've tried ur best but i dun think so. Have you ever tried to ask for your teachers' help after class? NO, YOU HAVEN'T! I think I take Jay's things too seriously la.... I was so mad when I found that he didn't try his best on his work while he was grumbling.

He was very disappointed b'coz I didn't comfort him but scold him. But he scolded me finally, for my long D phone call. I hate myself. I'm spending money on my phone fee again.

He sent me sms asking me whether I was still angry. I didn't reply 'coz I think he would meet me on the msn. I supposed he was not that angry and unhappy. My hypothesis is wrong. I called him again to see if he's still unhappy about me or the schoolwork. At the end, we fought again! even worse than the fight at noon... PLEASE CALM YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CALL ME OR SEND ME ANYTHING!

I'm trying not to love him so much. It is a great suffer to love him too much. I can't bear his cruelty when he's mad. I can't bear the "break-up" thing he brings up every time. I can't bear his change when he's pissed off. I have the strong feeling that I'll lose him one day. so I gotta let myself not to put too much effort and love on him from now on (even though I still love him alot)

Tomorrow is the Mid-autumn Festival.

I hate this fest since there will be no ¤H¤ë¨â¹Î¶ê. I really hate dat!

Jay needs a break. It seems that we've got alot problems to deal with recently, even we'd ever broken up although it was just like a 2-hour break. sighhhhhh~~

I know I'm not a good girl-friend but please~~~~~~ please give me 1 more chance! You can't leave me alone.... I really can't imagine what if you decide to break up w/ me

How deep I love Jay? Even 100 million "I LOVE YOU"s can't express a little of my feeling!

6 months = 1/2 year

Our 7th month starts today. All I wanna tell Jay is "Honey, I love you so much that please don't leave me again. You're always my sweet sweet husband!"

I wonder why I'm always jealous w/ those gals who had a close relationship w/ him b4 although I'm so sure that he loves me the MOST.

Again, b'coz of the above reason, we argued last nite. Both of us are tired of every single boresome argument. I know he loves me a lot and I'm always the first consideration b4 he does anything. He has changed a lot! (specially after my coming back from Taiwan.) Honestly, he's definitely a good boyfriend and I'm really satisfied w/ his change. I hate my grumps! I just want him to be happy.

He went to Rukas again last nite 'coz Kit asked him to substitute for him for 1 hour. He said he would go home immediately 'coz he was soooo sleepy wor, but finally he stayed there just b'coz he wanted to "save" $$, no need to take a taxi ma~

Just now i sent him a sms and asked how many hours he slept this morning. He answered me just half hour!!!1/2 hour!!!! Shoot!!! He said he went to DD w/ Boy at last! What the hell was he thinking last nite?!

I hate that! I don't wanna love this person but I can't! What should I do?? I can't bear his behavior anymore!!!!

Sighhhhh... Cora finally broke up w/ his bf. I dunno how to comfort her lor... hope she'll get it over very soon la...

Yesterday was our 3-month memorial day. I dunno why I take these memorial things seriously lor... sighhh, he said no need to do so wor...