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Kat_thecatlover
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Name: Kat
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 8/15/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: God and Jesus, my family, my boyfriend Mike, my friends, caring, listening, trying to be a good friend, music, animals, tv, lots of stuff.
Expertise: well i wouldn't say i'm an expert at HTML, still have a lot to learn, but i'm teaching myself as i go, and so far I'm pretty good at it =)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  KatNapPurr
Yahoo:  Kat_thecatlover
MSN: kittenKat03@hotmail.com
Member Since:
3/19/2005
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| "Well done, good and faithful servant. Welcome home."I just got home from the most beautiful funeral I've ever been to. A close family friend, Jack Samad, passed away May 22nd. He had stage 4 lung cancer, on top of countless other health battles. He had Hodgkins Disease in 1979, and was treated for it (I assume he overcame it) and b/c of the radiation treatment, was left with countless other medical complications. This man, though, was an extreme servant of God (extreme in a good way of course). He was given 2 years to live in 1979. He looked at the doctors and said "you're wrong" because he had faith that God would heal him. He believed that God's plan for him was far greater than just another 2 years of life. He was told he and his wife might not be able to have children b/c of the radiation treatments. He refused to accept that answer, but instead, prayed with his wife DAILY for children, and had others do the same. They were blessed with two beautiful kids, a boy and a girl. Jack never once complained about what he was going through, despite the pain we all knew he was in. 29 years and not a single complaint. He continued to care more about others than he did himself. I told my parents, unless you knew Jack, you wouldn't know anything was wrong with him. He didn't live his life defined by his battles. He lived his life defined by GOD. Every time I saw that man, he walked with pride, he had a huge smile on his face, and he was cheerful and outgoing - even in the midst of a major health battle! When others came to visit him in the hospital, he asked what he could pray for for them. Even in his final days, he cared more about others than he did himself. He even planned most of his funeral to make it easier on his family. In December, when he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, he knew then, that he was drawing nearer to the end of the race. He knew that he was on the final stretch to home. I didn't cry at all during the funeral, which surprised me. Yes, I am sad that he is gone. He was a wonderful man, and it's not going to be the same without him at church. His daughter is my age. I've known him since I was a kid. I'm sad, but not too sad b/c I know he's experiencing the joys and glories of Heaven! I know he doesn't want us to be too sad, b/c he's not sad! I just think, oh the glories! How wonderful it is, to go from pain to glory in a mere second. No more pain, no more sickness, etc. I just think Jack is an ultimate example of what it means to live for God. To put others before yourself even as you're dying! To live, 28, 29 years like that, in pain, one battle after another, and NEVER, not even to your own WIFE, complain about what you're going through! To have THAT MUCH faith, to boldy say to the doctors "you're wrong" when you're given 2 years to live, and BELIEVE, KNOW in your heart, that you're going to live far beyond another 2 years, baffle the most knowledged and experienced medical doctors. Breathtaking! Astonishing! Wonderful! THAT is how I want to be remembered. THAT is how I want to live my life. It also just goes to prove, who ultimately is in control! God is real, and yes, He does still perform miracles today! The fact that Jack lived as long as he did and endured as much as he did, and overcame all odds, is proof. God is not limited by medical science. He's not limited by knowledge. He's not limited by anything. He had a WONDERFUL purpose for Jack's life, and Jack fulfilled every last detail. GOD is in control, and He will always defy logic and science! Jack - You're finally home! I'm so happy that you have overcome this world, and now, you are finally home in the arms of Jesus! How glorious. May your life and all that you did always continue to leave a legacy! You will always be remembered for your heart of gold, your love, and your kindness, and you will always be missed. As you said during your final days here on earth, "I'll see you later"  , Kat
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| SAVE THE POLAR BEARS!!*note: this is my opinion, anyone reading this is welcome to disagree, but please do so respectfully* Sources:
Natural Resources Defense Council
Wildlife Adoption Center As I'm sure many of you have heard, there is an oil company (Big Oil) that is trying to get the US Government to grant them permission and access to drill for oil in a "remote" part of an Arctic Refuge that is the habitat for polar bears. The government has placed polar bears on the endangered species list in order to protect them, but that's not stopping the oil company from persisting. Many people, including my own family, see no issue whatsoever with what Big Oil wants to do. I have been told, "It's in a remote section so it won't harm them". Someone SANE please explain to me: Global warming and changing climates are already lessening the amount of land polar bears have to reside on. Scientists believe that the noise made by drilling for oil will disturb and upset mother polar bears, causing them to abandon their cubs. Without mom, the cubs’ chances of survival are very low. So consider these points: Global warming and changing climates are already melting areas of arctic regions where polar bears dwell. Drilling for oil will FOREVER destroy the habitat area. Drilling will disturb the mothers, causing them to abandon their young, who will die without the care of their mom. If the oil company drills in an area and finds nothing, they will move on to another section within the refuge. They will have ruined vital habitat land for NOTHING! The oil company will continue moving to another area and drilling until they find oil, IF they do at all. (Have they considered what happens if they DON'T?)
Now think about this: We complain about overcrowded landfills, air pollution, littering, DAILY! If it's something that disturbs OUR habitat, OUR environment, it's unacceptable, and action must be taken to change whatever it is disturbing and/or ruining OUR habitat. It's not ok with us for a rich entrepreneur to declare someone's perfectly fine home as "blighted" (when it's clearly not!), force them to move, tear down the home, and put up a high-rise. It's not ok with us for companies to pollute the air we breathe, and pollute the water we drink It's not ok with us for you to leave your garbage all over the ground for others to have to smell and step on.
HOWEVER... It's ok to drag noisy dirty machinery into a wildlife habitat and destroy the wildlife's home?? Has anyone considered what happens if this company does strike oil? - They could cause oil leaks and spills that would ruin arctic waters where the polar bears fish, swim, and drink.
- The leaks and spills would ruin the land they walk on.
- The leaks and spills could get in the fur of the polar bears
How is oil going to be cleaned off a WILD polar bear? I don't think it's possible. I APPLAUD our government for taking action and protecting the polar bears! If we don't stand up and protect the wildlife, who will? They need people to stand up and speak for them! They need people to protect them! Another thing to think about:
God created the earth and all things that dwell upon it. Sky, land, sea, everything that dwells up high, or down here with us, or down below in the waters, God made them ALL. He placed ever creature of the sky, land, and sea in an environment created and designed PERFECTLY for their survival! I KNOW God did not place us on this earth to destroy his creation and ruin the habitat of innocent creatures. It's bad enough that we destroy our own environment, but now people feel the need to destroy the wildlife habitats too? (Yet we complain and question, "Why didn't anyone do something?" when an animal's population borderlines extinction) I DO agree that we need to find an alternate oil source in order to lower fuel prices and improve the economy, BUT it should NEVER involve destroying wildlife habitat. I would rather pay MORE for imported oil than pay less for non-imported oil that caused the INNOCENT loss of wildlife habitat in order to be obtained. Just my opinion. , Kat | | |
| Don't wanna say goodbye...Garry is leaving Wednesday for a month, don't know where. All I know is he's being deployed somewhere for a month. I'm sad. I've only seen him once in the whole time he's been home (a month and a half) and he had the time to see me he just chose not to I guess. I don't know what the whole deal was. I prayed so hard that he wouldn't be leaving but he is, and I'm sad. I'm now praying so hard I get to see him Tuesday night before he leaves, but I may not get to. I wasn't prepared to say goodbye so soon. I know it's only temporary, I know he'll be back, but still. A month seems so long. Am I cut out for this? Am I really cut out to be a girl who likes an army guy? I just don't know. I really have my doubts. I'm now also date-less for a wedding this Saturday which I'm not thrilled about. It's a wedding of 2 good friends from my business team, so I'm going to know most ppl there, and I kinda wanted a date so I'd have someone to dance with. Selfish stupid reason I suppose... I wouldn't care so much if Mike wasn't going to be there. It sucks still having feelings for him. He's going to be dancing with other girls and I don't know if I'll be dancing with any guys. I'll probably ask my friend Reuben if he'll dance with me. Idk. Just cuz I think he would and no one would think I like him (which I dont...) since he's in his 30s. We'll see. I just think going to weddings of close friends when you're single sucks  esp when the guy you love will be there and already made it clear he won't dance with you. *sighs* | | |
| When is life gonna slow down??Life is moving faster than I can keep up, and honestly there's been so much going on lately that I'm amazed I'm as level headed as I am. I guess I've just gotten tired of stressing over every bit of drama that comes my way, tired of being upset over stuff, etc. I've calmed down a lot more in the past year than I ever used to be. I have Mike to thank for that. Things are better between us. We're talking at least and friends, but still not at the level I'd like to be. I'd like to talk to him more, and see him more, but I don't think it's gonna happen any time soon so I'm just learning to deal w/ it and find other things to occupy my time and mind so I don't go insane missing him hahaha. I'm now kinda seeing a guy named Garry. He and I went out once in the past (I think maybe 2 years ago or so) but nothing ever really became of it b/c he was more interested in playing poker ALL THE TIME back then than making even a little time for me. Back in September though he sent me a message on myspace and said he was sorry for what he did and he missed me, and he wasn't like that anymore, and wanted to start talking to me again if I wanted to, and gave me his number. So we started talking again, but didn't see each other again until a week ago b/c he joined the Army and was away for bootcamp and other training stuff. But we finally met up last Sunday (after trying for over a week to make plans) and hung out for awhile. He was busy all morning and most the afternoon, so after church, I went to Mike's apartment and chilled there with Mike and his roommate. That was kinda fun. He picked me up downtown and we went to his house where I met his family. I was SOOO nervous. I was like wow... I'm seeing you again for the first time in awhile and already I'm meeting your family? To make it more interesting, he didn't bother telling them that I was coming over. We were gonna hang out in Newport but he decided it'd be more fun to go back to his place for a cook out. Considering we're both broke and would have gotten bored pretty quick He's only been home from the Army for a few weeks, and he has a job, but hasn't been home long enough to make much, plus with bills to pay and such... It was fun though. His family is really nice, and were happy to meet me. After dinner he walked me to the bus stop to catch the shuttle bus back to downtown, and kissed me goodnight (didn't expect that at all, but it was nice :) ) He's been super busy this past week though between work and the Kentucky Derby, so I didn't get to see him this week. I'll try for next weekend lol.
In other news, I'm anemic  I went to the doctor Wednesday for my regular ADD checkup and my heartrate was quite a bit up (I was told it's usually in the 70s and it was over 100). The dr looked at my palm and said I looked pale, so his wife (his assistant) drew blood to submit for testing. She called me Thursday night with the results. I'm anemic, I have a low white blood cell count, and I *think* she said I have elevated liver enzymes. Something about my liver.... so they're doing more testing and I'll hear from them tomorrow some time with those results. I was told it could be something as simple as an infection somewhere, so I'm hoping that's all it is. I've been feeling fine so I doubt it's anything serious. I've been rather emotional about it though, not b/c I'm worried or scared or anything, (I've been at peace about it overall) but just b/c it IS my health n this was unexpected. I trust God though and I know He's with me and taking care of me and no matter what's going on everything's going to be fine. Anemia generally isn't a serious condition, and it's rather common in women, and considering I have a poor diet, I'm not surprised I have anemia. It explains though why I get so tired quickly, and 5 minutes of mild exercise (like running) will wear me out. I thought it was b/c of my asthma but looking back that doesn't really make tons of sense I guess :P that and I thought I was out of shape (you CAN be skinny and out of shape... if you rarely exercise then when you do exercise your body won't be used to it so you'll tire more quickly) I'm going to do some more research on anemia though. I know improving my diet will help big time :) I want to know what all I can do though as far as my daily life. I know it might sound stupid but I kinda feel like I can't live a "normal" life now. My heart rate is up, so I don't think exercise would be wise... I kinda feel like I gotta just sit around until the condition improves but I know that's silly. I know walking wouldn't hurt me, and mild exercise is probably ok too, as long as I don't over-exert myself. I think I'll also learn the severe-ness of my anemia tomorrow, too. I've probably had it for a year or few years. Who knows though. Prayers would be appreciated though =) , Kat | | |
| "Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend...."so much for things getting better between me and Mike.
Now we're not talking.
Why?
Cuz lately his actions have shown me he doesn't have time for a friendship with me. He almost never talks to me but when he sees me he's all nice and stuff but still doesn't wanna hang out with me.
I'm really upset. He insists he doesn't have time to talk to me yet he is always talking to others. He doesn't have time to send me a short message saying whether or not he's mad at me, but he has time to tell-all to my best friend?
*sighs* I just don't know what to think or believe anymore. I want so much to believe he wants to be my friend but his actions have me thinking otherwise anymore, and when my best friend talked to him about it, he said he's not going to do what I seem to want him to, which is act more like a friend to me.
I don't wanna give up on him b/c I care so much about him but at the same time I don't want to keep allowing myself to get hurt.
*shrug*
I just don't know what to do. I don't understand and he refuses to help me understand yet gets mad at me when I jump to wrong conclusions.
I really wish he'd just agree to take an evening, sit down with me, and just talk with me about stuff so we could get on the same page and attempt to understand each other better, but I doubt that'll happen.
I hate this feeling, I really do.
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