"And the black and white answer... but what is the question exactly for this black and white answer so I can answer it to the fullest?"  There is no answer and the golden judgment comes with time (if ever) so there are only options to life.  And so, I will be excellent at what ever I choose to do and I will not fear.  I will only understand all reactions and effects.  I will take a risk.

A risk. Not the game. 

"so what'd you make on drum line this year?"

"the tuba."

yes, i have been cut... and all i want to do at this moment is disapear.

A poem for Emmi.

You have dark hair
You dance to you beautiful music
You truely appreciate lyrics ; )
We used to scream long together
Remember guy hunting?
I do.
You knew about alan before anyone else
You still have butterfly power
I no longer have the UN locker, but maybe a UN house?
You named me Chae, a name i love.
You are emmi, and i want to grow old and play cards with you when we have dentures
I remember you.

currently playing: silence.

I am scared sometimes, it's so silly.  I'm so caught up in maybe having a relationship with someone that i forget myself.

insanity, madness hiding everywhere.  time to let the world know, welcome madness say hello.