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| wwweeellll todayy-- my great aunt ERvErIne came to vistit** we all st down to eat a meal--and i looked to my right...and well..HER DENCHERS WERE RIGHT BY MY VEGES!! i was like .EWwwwWw!
Hmm**! soOo todayY i took a bath!!!....FINALLY! i havnt brushed my teeth in ages, wOopS!
i just love my mann....you know who u are babyyyy--last nite was wicked fun ;) ...*hehe
WeLl better gooOo ++ <333 alWaYS :: Kay_La :: | | |
| I am in teh computer lab with jess and andrew...approx. 10 min left til i can leave.  I think i made jess mad by saying saves the day sucks...which they do  i love these smiles | | |
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David Gilmour Oh so sexy
 Him on guitar
Only if he looked this good now David looking pretty serious
He is the best...damn why is he so old now?! | | |
| well i was talking to nadia..and well i just wanted to express my hate for certain people in my school, due to the fact of what i will explain...i pu thtis in this journal cuz no one reads my other one that i want to read it therfore it goes in here....
everyone walks around like they are indivual because of their ripped shirts and their cothes and the way they show themselves to be..to be indiviual is not to dress differently..jeeez if everyone dresses differntly then the "conforming" styles, wouldnt that make you a group or minority? being individual is not in the way you dress/ look its in the way you look at things, and the way you think...has nothing to do with how "punk" or "freak" or "grunge" you are..seriously and i quopte from my convo with nadia " they are all thinknig the exact same making them basically the same..indivualism is in the way you look at things, and they way you think, no the way you dress" everyone thinks cutting their wrist and being "depressed" make them different from everyone else? how does that do that? it draws more attention to you..making your goal of being a loser impossible becasuse you have everyone constantly around you...being depressed is a mental state that you yourself have to deal with..not to get all your friends and people who arent your friends involved...it gives them more stress then they probably already have...HYE IF YOU ALL ARE CUTTING YOUR WRIST AND BEING DEPRESSEd talk to a doctor/pycholigist who can help you not your friends who have no idea what to do when you are like that, so i believe that when yuou say you are cutting your wrist and etc you want the attention, toknow that you are loved...k im done my tngent for now | | |
| Hey yeah i know i just wrote a little bit ago. but i dont care, i have nothing better to do, no one is really talking so i am bored HAPPY B-DAY COLLEEN!Anyway yeah the day did go by really slow. Yeah i want to hang out with sara soon. i miss her me and rachel all the time, ack things have changed but its nt worse, it might even be better in some aspects..sean is reading my xanga now, too bad he wont see this entry if he could onlywait 5 min..so impatient..grr my mom is real bum at times, it really hurts when she yells at me, like i know i deserve it sometimes. But it seems imthe only one that goes above and beyond to keep this house decent, if it wasnt for me this home would go to the shitter quick. And she gets pssed cuz of my grades. Me i can note forced into doing something, for me to do it. If she gave me more time for ME (outside my home) then i know I HAVE to do my h/w..i duno t woked well last year. I feel like nthing i do is ever good enough, like i missed spot or i got one too many wrong,or you are too smart for that.maybe i am not, maybe i am average and i dont wnt to be fucking compared to genious's all the time, i just wanna be a kid and hang out with my friends, and not have to do everyone's dishes constantly, and constantly cleaning when im home. Then i feel like crap if idont, some times i feel like nothing is worth it, i know ivesaid it before, but there is no garntee you will go toa good college, even if you do, the chances of getting well paying job is slim, i mean its all crap, you die anway. well i dunno im just in one of thoseshitty moods that i feel like nothing can go right. Especially when she says stuffabout my grades, thenmy brother and sister get on my bck about it, i feel stupid, and i get so frustrated and itry to do my h/.w and i cant thnk straight so i just dont do it ndi lay in my bed and think about happy stuff...okim dne, sorry to ramble..ill make happyier one later | | |
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