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| Oh damnStupid light cameras... I have to pay $100 dollars for speeding. Drat. Hannah and Tyche are back home... I'm hiding in the den right now from a next door neighber, shes nice but she talks alot. Hmmmm... The tuition to the school I want to go to went up to $49,000. Good thing it's only a ten month program. So much money... People are being dumb, but they always are so it's no suprise. My knee is apparently cracked, does that mean it's broken? I don't know | | |
| Ya don't sayI'm noticing that people i thought were beginning to become closer friends are acting strange... Like someone told them something about me, maybe something untrue? I have alot of things in my life I'm ashamed of but usually the worse ones are private- meaning I don't share them- I reallly wanted to captilize those words, I don't share them... Lately I've been hearing stuff about myself, mostly things like opinons that my old friends had about me, have you been saying things ma'am? You are a friggin idiot if you tell someone close to me about problems you have with me and expect them to keep their mouths shut. Sure I've gossiped before I'm not proud of it I realized it hurts others and myself, and I'm ashamed when I find myself doing it nowadays, why? Because it's so damn fun. Ain't it? Bragging about what this person did or said that was sooooo stupid or how they hurt you, well it made me feel like I wasn't the only screw-up. I am truly sorry if i said something about you when you wern't there, but also there is a differance between gossip and asking for advice on something you really do need it on sigh, drama drama drama is overated. I'm beginning to lose my train of thought. "I let my mind wander and it didn't come back." So to you who says things about me, if they are true fine, if it was secret you have a big mouth (that I probably wouldn't mind making bleed), and if you hate me? Then either stay away from me or confront me, don't go talking crap behind my back.
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| blah, blah, blahThis is who we are
Dear world I write to you from my heart
Everything is so messed up
That's the way you wanted it to be
And I wanted you
To believe me when I say
I can't live like this anymore
I'll run and I'll crawl till I get away
It's all in our head
Everything is perfect
The universe is still spinning
And no one is dead
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| Did you know? I didn'tToday... Is one of those days... That I have no clue how I feel.... So i make weird lists... you may be able to relate or not I don't know if anyone would ever read this no loss if they haven't...
I hate
coconut
shoes
shopping
bugs
sun
fights
losing
crying
humiliation
shame
hate
stupid politics
liars
cheaters
people starving
not knowing what to say
I love
family
friends
horses
photography
daises
motorcycles
running
jumping
rain
clouds
travel
sleep
music
animals
trees
oceans
laughter
driving
I miss/want
feeling like I belonged
no worries
that person I trusted
that opportunity
the flowers
not caring
being a kid
bouncy bouncy balls
a daisy
Wished never happened
never loved him
lied
hurt
cryed
been bruised
chickened out
lost a person
gotten lost
things I have
scars
secrets
a blanket
family
hate
shame
a past
a future
homework
my own cup
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| Want to be with you
I’m dead to my own beliefs
Can’t even feel the ground beneath my feet
Don’t even know what do when I smile
Can’t tell the difference between a long time and awhile
Not sure what to say
When they ask if I’m ok
Confused when they talk about love
Lost when I try to tell them I’ve had enough
Watching the shadows dance across their faces
What makes them so willing to offer up praises?
So humble when they lift up their hands
Why they fall on their knees I can’t understand
Please just stay a little longer
Let me feel the peace that makes you stronger
Begging to find what would redeem me
It’s so beautiful please, just let me see
KjP
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