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Name: Kesha
Birthday: 3/1/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Writing, dancing, singing, Journalism, Writing a book, God, Eating Disorders Health, Mental Illnesses, Helping abused children, most of all, helping myself.
Expertise: Be A Therapist! Social Worker- Both at the same time! Becoming a published writer someday.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  beautizarazor
MSN: Angelahs_heart@hotmail.com
AIM:  KeshasAngyl
Yahoo:  Angylic_love
Member Since:
10/9/2003
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| Just Updating....The Beautiful Me...It has been a long time since I updated this site! So I just have a couple of things to say to really to you the truth....My life is a living hell right now and I'm fighting to stay sane! I'm still in college and everything and I haven't given up. There are so many people worried about me that it is insane! anywho the cops are son of a bitches! I can't stand them but anyways thats another post.....I moved to my new APT and everything. Its nice to live alone again. My cats are doing fine. Life is just shitty right now but I know it will soon get better I hope. So thats about it. So LATAZ.....And if you got comments on how I look its all good and if you think im ugly then FUCK YOU! Maybe you need to take a look at yourself....Think about that.....I know I am beautiful person inside and out and I will always believe that!
~*~Kesha~*~
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| I Will Beat YouYou can build a wall and i will tear it down.
Im tired of you and all you have to offer.
I am someone who is loved by others.
I will be damned if I let you leave me on
The ground crying once again, never again.
I will fight you to the very last breath inside
My body, soul and mind. I love you but
I refuse to give into you ever again.
I look at myself and should be ashamed.
But i am not ashamed of me in any way.
Every scar every bone sticking out.
This is me and i have learned to accept me.
I will not let you win not this time I will beat you.
I won't show you any sympathy what so ever.
This is to myself because I am constantly fighting
Myself behind my smile, but im fighting an eating disorder.
It is tearing me up inside and i will continue to fight.
~*~Kesha~*~
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| ANA and MIA WELCOME BACK!I have 12 stitches in my right arm.
I think its beautiful but scary.
I almost set my spirit free.
I cut deep enough to show my tears.
I broke a contract with my therapist.
I feel horrible for not letting my providers in.
I thought I could handle things on my own.
My eating disorders have come creeping back.
I have been purging almost everyday if i eat.
I purged today just to get it out of my system.
I feel like doing it again just to feel empty.
It's all I can think about right now.
Eating and purging or not eating at all.
No one really knows how bad its gotten.
I hide it pretty well when i purge...Im a quiet soul.
It has engulfed me all over again.
Soon i will be down to where i want to be.
I have lost some pounds and thats okay.
Im not going to let them take this away from me
I don't give a damn about my sugar.
If it goes down it goes down.
I can erase me finally.
I know I sound really demented.
Truly I am demented and out of control.
At least I brush my teeth after I purge.
I need to do this to be myself.
People don't know what i'm feeling.
They can't see the eating disorders cause...
Im a big girl and can hide it very very well.
Im not bragging im just saying thats the way it is.
I need to purge once again cause im feeling sick.
So ANA and MIA welcome back to my life.
~*~Kesha~*~
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| Bodily HarmBodily Harm is due to my soul.
Giving into temptation now.
It isn't a mistake it's what i need.
Im tired of fighting a endless battle.
So I give in to my razor like always.
I know it proves he won again.
But its me hurting and needing a release.
Whisper to me a story as i lay on the floor.
I close my eyes and get lost in your voice.
I slowly slip away into my own world.
A world where my Bodily Harm.
Is forever strong and mine alone.
~*~Kesha~*~
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| Let Me GoHold me tightly.
Hold me Close.
Learning is hard.
Knowing my heart.
Will never be yours.
I apologize for this.
I should be crying.
But I can't show you.
Our love came to a halt.
It can never be never again.
My heart still loves you.
I know this hurts you so.
Its for the better for both of us.
I lower my head.
I no longer can be with you.
Its the end we are over once again.
Im sorry to make you cry.
This is all I have to say to you.
Let it be over please just let me go.
~*~Kesha~*~ | | |
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