8:42 pm

"i just want a perfect world
dumbest thing you've ever heard
but to take what we've been given
is a trick i've never learnt"

to you: like you said, one year has passed by so quickly, 언니. six months will be even quicker, and we will meet again. i'll be counting the days
to you: i hope all is well and you are all right. you're always in my thoughts, and i hope you have the strength to get through this.

kiez got a perm!

11:11 pm

air perm, to be specific! whatever that means...!

after about one year plus of straight-but-not-really hair, i got a little bored and decided to perm my hair again. not curls, but waves , i have instructed the hairdresser. somehow it didn't turn out quite as i have expected.... hmmm

at times, it makes me feel like my hair has got 'more volume'... other times, it makes me feel like an auntie, 아줌마! ;p

most times, though, people do not even realise i permed my hair!!! what a waste of my money and 2 painfully boring hours!

a four-eyed auntie at that...

okay there's your dose of kiez random photos. now go to bed! good night all, and have a good week ^^

6:10 pm

hmmm.. i haven't been blogging for a while. not because i've been lazy, but just because.... well, because my mind is blank. life's been busy. yet, there is nothing worth noting.

after two weeks of torturous sickness, i commenced on a new project. i was thrilled.. after nine months, i've finally moved on to a new porject... at a client company which is one of australia's biggest companies. my excitement was shortlived, as first day into the project, i found myself drowning. i was basically on all on my own on the project. my manager was almost always not there, and the client was always so busy and at times, impatient even. i felt like i have asked one too many dumb questions, yet if i did not ask them, i have absolutely no idea what's happening or what to do. such is the case if you throw a fairly fresh commerce girl into the deep end of a mining giant - drowned out by all the men and the technical terms. i struggled, oh, how i struggled. sitting alone at my desk, desperately needing the help and support i coudn't get.... i wanted to cry, but crying would be useless. i wanted to give up, and believe me, i was so close to telling my manager at the end of the day that i did not think i could do it and i did not want to come back the next day. alas... i dragged myself back there the next day after all. i continued with the dumb questions, and tried to clear my mind and start from scratch.. and finally saw a better approach to things.

fast forward two days, the originally impatient and too busy client walked past my desk this morning, smiled and said, 'i've had a look at the stuff you've been doing... i quite like what i see'. that feeling was... priceless. at the meeting after, another person who started off not understanding why i just did not seem to get the picture, said to me 'great job'. indescribable sense of achievement. i wanted to jump up in joy and pat myself on the back. somehow, to have done work that is approved by these men in a big shot male-dominated company.. especially when every bit of it has been 100% my own effort.. it's so much more satisfying than getting a 'well done' or 'great job' by the manager. it's been a big challenge, and much struggling, but .... half more day left of the project, i am happy with what i've achieved   잘 했어요, 키스야!

12:27 pm

잘했어요! XD

4.more.days.

2.more.days.

3:04 pm

when you're not feeling well, it seems sleeping becomes the biggest issue. it is usually when you are sleeping that your throat hurts the most if you have a sore throat. it is usually when you are sleeping that your throat is the itchiest and you cough non-stop if you have a cough. it is usually when you are sleeping that your nose is most blocked or runny if you have a blocked or running nose. this makes me dread sleeping when i'm sick. yet, when i am sick, it seems all i ever want to do is sleep because of the feeling forever tired. it's hard to find a balance!! it's a vicious cycle, this one. grr. i really want to be well again soon :(

for the first time in my life, i know what it means to 'not be able to afford to fall sick'. i have never understood how that is possible when my sister complained about it. now i do, too well. you feel like every hour of sick leave you take means an hour extra's worth of work you have to make up for and get done by the same deadline that does not pushed back by an hour. i unwillingly took half a day of sick leave yesterday, and already am feeling like i'm suffocating from the amount of work that needs to be done by the end of the week. can't wait to get this week over and done with, yet at the same time i wish i had more time to finish everything!!!

this stupid cough is driving me insane, and this deadline is making me mad. so help me God!