hi xanga again, havnt been up on this thing for awhile, anyways...i have had quit a bit of journey through my life with wrk and everything;  i have finally got a career job (AT&T)...this is my first professional job, and hopefully it will be for awhile...but along come this job...headaches and stress came with it too...blah on the third day on the job... the bitch that works at the store that i was in came in while i more here...well towards the later of the job, yah  she def. is an all time tattle-tale, and of course she told on me to my manager and got me in trouble...first she freakin told me that my shoe sucks and requested that i have to wear 4 inch heels, then she said that i was lazy..coz i was sitting on the sofa and watching tv instead of selling the product that i was suppose to sell, then i got a call from my boss telling me that i am done working for the day because that bitch tattle tale on me ... i was like okay...so yah..a bunch of shit happend and i am just soooo stressed out from it and since this is the only thing i can vent on...im gonna vent it all...jobs are all full of bullshit...especially jobs for college kids, i have found that out real quick in this adult world...and everything that i have went through in the past has been really real for me...there are tears shed...experience learned...and shit thrown at...but i guess it is all part of real life experience...yah i just wish that there arnt soooo much damn competition out there and that people can be real instead of fake in front of you... listen up all you fakers...you guys will get it at the end... you guys will!!!!!!  

sigh! i wish i didnt have to vent...but i cant keep it inside of me anymore...becuz everything is tooo real...and they are all stressing me out....i wish i can just be alone sometimes...but i guess we all need friends to count on when they are down    well okay....i am out

well come back to vent when i need to vent some more

WOW!! it's beeeeen a long time since i have updated here...

well  here's a shorrrrrt update on my life...just been schoooooling and working....i think i have worked and schooooled too much ...anyways...did manage to squeeze in some partying here and there...but yah....i might be going to taiwan and china this summer...cant wait...i misssss the fooooood and shopping...anyways...if neone wants to go back with me...let me know!!

anyone knows how to type in chinese??? please share with meee....coz apperantly i am not good at it at al!!!

Currently Listening My Love Pt.1 By Justin Timberlake see related

omg! the quarter is almost over! another month or so! damn this quarter has gone FAST! nd everything is a blurrr to me...the morning classes  which im never up for...nd the midterms after midterms which i have two coming up...nd work omg...i think im gonna wrk for nationwide....had an interview already and i think it went well...well...lets cross our fingers and hope i get the J O B!   so yah...lots have happend during this quarter and yet it feels like nothing had happend at all...iunno why...buh when this quarter is over...which i canNOT wait! i will have a goooooooood long ass WINTER BREAK! then its another quarter...sigh...the cycle never ends!  buh hopefully this is my last yr of college...

hmmm~ wow its sooo early in the morning and i CANT sleep! yah i went to bed at 2:30 nd im up by 7...dat dont usually happend...buh i dunno y i cant sleep today...have sooo much thoughts going through my head...and yet i dunt kno who i should share this with! so i decide to write on xanga and hopefully i will stop stressssing over it sooo much coz its making me getttting helllla old! :(

sigh! sooo much stress in my life sooo many people tryin to impress especially my parents~ gahhh i hate asian parents!!! and then stress on top of stress...my life isnt getting ne better! seriously i dunt kno how someone can be so happy...i dont kno what happy means nemore~ my emotions has been like roller coasters lately...one day im happy myself the next im mad at someone...nd just want to quit everything and goto a deserted island all by myself with no one else...

my relationship life has been one big roller coaster lately...i am soo sensitive to everything...girls...money...and i get ticked off so easy when i hear that some "Bizaaatch" try to get with my man~ i mean comeon...rnt there enough "fish" in the sea for everyone...y does it have to be him...Y Y Y? comeon  i dont go after other man that's already taken...Y do some "bizzzatches" have to make someone elses life so damn hard.~ i just dont understand! y go through all this trouble try to take someone away  from other people...so whaa...u can have the satisfaction that you have the "skillz" to steal other people's happiness...buh ya'll kno...there will always be haters out there...so  yah im keeping my distance from everyone~ i got hurt before by u kno who...not gonna mention no names...buh yah if she can be all miss nice nd sweet on the outside...buh underneath all that ...she's nothing buh lowlife with the schemes that she pulls~ yah i had enough with people these days...

TRUST

a BIGGGG wrd...buh not too many people can be trusted...actually most people CANNOT be trusted....and my friends TRUST IS SOMETHING THAT U EARN NOT GAINED!