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Saturday, April 14, 2007

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 21:01:26 GMT

Yea, it's been a while and thank you all SOOOO much for the comments, I love you guys, and I promise you that you will get a HUGE update if I get 1 comment a day for a week. If I get 3 one day, and none for the next 2 days, you won't get an update, so be sure for anyone to comment at least one time every day this week, starts tomorrow. It will be bigger than the last update. Btw, new site: secret_addiction_quotes.....this one is staying and being updated, I just also made a new one.

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Okay guys, You've already gave me 3 suscribtions (more than enough), so now give me 3 comments and you'll get that huge update, mmkay??

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Heyy. I know it's been a ~~while~~ since I updated , but no comments, no updates, okay? Here's the deal. You give me 1 more subscribtion and 3 comments by ~~friday,~~ and you will get a ~~200 quote~~ and ~~200 picture~~ update this weekend, or earlier. I already have the quotes and half the pics, so hurry up ok? Are you so busy you can't take 5 second to subscribe or ~~comment~~? if you are, ~~don't~~ bother coming to my site, ok?

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 21:43:00 GMT

A promise is a promise
At least that's what they say
Well welcome to reality
They're broken everyday

Telling a depressed person to be happy;
is like telling a cancer patient
to cure themselves

Take a razor,
Cut my skin,
It's time for this,
To finally end

I want you to be free,
don’t ~~worry~~ about me,
& just like the movies,
we'll play out our ~~last~~ scene,
you wont cry, I wont scream

When I Am Queen
I Will Exist
With Perfect Scars
Upon My Wrists

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong.
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep.

but you can't judge a book by it's cover.
you can't love someone while messing
with another. no you can't win a war that
you're fighting with your brother. you wanna
have peace? you gotta love one another.

Once you've found that passion,
that heat, that intensity with that one guy.
Don't ever let it go.
Once you've lost it, you'll never get it back.
Don't give up for stupid reasons.

You know she's your best friend when
she wakes you up in the middle of the
night and says, "move over you whore."

"I'm scared that I'm gonna end up alone.
I'm scared that I'm always gonna be
someone's friend, or sister, or confidant
but never quite someone's everything.
Mostly I'm scared I'm never gonna
meet a guy that I love as much as I love you."

Cause when the days are getting colder I miss you most
I'm stuck out in a rainstorm, but you're my coat
to keep me safe, to keep me warm
cause without you I'm just stuck in the storm
and the days are getting colder, I miss you more
then I ever did or ever could before.

the only thing i have left in this life
is the ability to make people cry
so i'll abuse this power tonight
i'll begin with you and end with me

and you'll choke on those words
no one can swallow that much pride
and my contentions all ring true
every word you said was a lie
and I thought we were friends
but you changed that in time.

we're all burnt out from working overtime
from eating pills that control our state of mind
we drink ourselves asleep just to forget the day
we medicate again just to stay awake.

with those eyes that you throw me.
and those lines that you sold me.
i can't break if i don't bend.

I am dying for a sign
what's been running through your mind?
don't just smile at me and act like it's okay
why can't we be never-ending?

It's here this time. We'll watch the sky fall down
to the earth. Tiny burning lights cry at the
sight of her. It's here, it's here tonight.
Shut down the heart and open the eyes.
For something as beautiful as scattered moonlight

the soft trace of your fingertips
the round shape of your pressed lips
why can't this be easier for me?

I love you then I hate you. It's like
I wanna push you off of a cliff and
then catch you at the bottom.

Tonight, the city lights had
me hypnotized .&. for a moment I escaped.

In a few years, I'll be off to college.
High school will finally be over. I
won't get to see him everyday like
I used to. My best friends & I will
go our separate ways; we'll be
lucky if two of us stay in touch.
Nothing will be the same, instead
everything will be new. I won't
have a house to come home to everyday.
No siblings to scream at. Just alone, in a
dorm far away from home. The people
I've loved for the longest of times will
be another memory added to my photo
album. And it may be crazy but I'm fine with that.

I don't want to let you go. I don't want
to forget the wonderful memories. But
I do want to hang on tight, I want to make some more.

And if all those words you said to me
actually meant something, maybe we
wouldn't be standing where we are today

&& we'll make it like
the old westerns.
You'll untie me and
shoot the bad guys,
I'll use my karate skills to
beat the ~~evil~~ seducer,
then you will passionatly
kiss me, grab my arm,
and pull me onto the horse, and
we'll ride into the sunset.......
cue the ~~corny~~ old music, happily ever after !!

I remember those few times when
we would pose for pictures together,
& how I was close to you getting ready
for the camera to click...
I wished for it to last an eternity.

I shouldn't stop and think of the
'good ole days', but sometimes, I
can't help but to dream can't help but to wish.

sometimes i just break down,
because i keep reminding myself
that it would never happen

Do you remember those old movies? the ones where someone kisses and fireworks go off? When we kissed, it was exactly like that, in my mind.

It's the worst feeling in the
world to love & hate someone
all at the same time. And it's
hard to watch things change
when all you want is for them
to stay the same. It's funny but
stupid how you want everything
& nothing at the same time. It's
crazy when you want to let go,
but you keep holding on, &
when you want to move on but
you're stuck right where you
started. When feelings come
and go & you can't decide what
you want. When you have so
many things to say but you don't
know where to start. When you want
them in your life so bad, but all
you can do is push them farther
& farther away. It's so hard to think
back to how things used to be & look
at it now and realize that things are
different & they may never be the same.
You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if
it really didn't matter, you wouldn't
spend so much time thinking about it.

Sometimes just get so fucking depressed, because I know I'm not gonna make it to neverland.....I can't think happy thoughts. I have none left.

Fuck all the boys that made me cry
Fuck all the lies you tried to hide
Fuck all the moments we shared
Fuck all the I love yous,
Its not like you ever cared

You can blurt out any lyric
& I'll blurt out the rest of it
You can say a band name
& I"ll say why they have it
You can name a guitarist
& I'll name bands his been in
But you ask me to spell mircophone
& I'll have to look it up

Look at me, So pretty, don't you see?
Look at me, your little junkie.

They read you Cinderella,
and you hoped it would come true...
That someday your prince charming
would come rescue you..

you asked, "so whats goin on in your life?"
I thought, "well, i like you, but you're with her,
and it breaks my heart everytime i see you two
together. im failing everything at school
and my parents are divorcing. What else?
oh yea, i still have an hangover from the last time
something had to stop me from thinking of you."
but instead i just said: "Nothing much. And you?"

Me and him are nothing alike
We often bicker, we often fight.
He messes with my head all the time.
I sit here wishing he would be mine.
Ive liked him for a while and hes known
He almost never lets his feelings be shown.
We flirt all the time but its hard to describee
Alls I know is that hes mine-my kinda guy.

Suck in my stomach.
pinch my waist.
spend hours touching up my ugly face.
All these things I fucking do
dont make a difference.
Im not perfect enough for you

As I hold back the tears and push
down the blade the blood begins to
show and there goes my pain

Close my eyes and count to ten and
hope that everything will be wonderful again

Youâ€™re talking to the girl who
has sobbed, cried, yelled, screamed,
cut & has made it through it all

Take this razor and sign your name
across my wrist. So everyone will know
who left me like this

And I m screaming every hurtful
word that I can think of.
And whatâ€™s killing me is that
they donâ t hurt you at all.
Because you don t care
what I say, you never did

I m often silent --
when I m screaming inside

10 shaking fingers trace my
9 fading scars. They run over the
8 new open wounds. Within
7 minutes, I start losing my sight, and
6 times I almost blacked out.
5 more minutes and I know Ill be gone. The
4 pillows propping me up start to fall.
3 tears slip down my cold cheeks from
2 red swollen eyes filled with tears and pain.
1 life taken, forever to be missed

I know what it s like to want to die and
how it hurts to just smile, how you
try to fit in but you cant, how you
hurt yourself on the outside to try
to kill the things on the inside

When you attempt suicide and you fail,
its like this big disappointment because
its just one more thing you cant do right

Little miss perfect was flawless as she
seemed though one day she was found
in her room with a locked door.
A rusty razor. A towel stained with red.
A folded note. A broken mirror. and she
lays there dead. Their emotions tangle
the room begins to swirl.
She was -- mommy's perfect angel
& daddy's little girl

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 17:04:59 GMT

OK, well I accidently deleted all my sister sites when I changed my layout, but PLEASE comment and let me know if you are one, because I luvvvvvv my sister sites and I need to link you...ok? And if you wanna be a sister site the only thing is you have to be a quote, icon, or photography site, and just ask and I will add you. if you have a button let me know and I will put it on here. ok?

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 22:50:05 GMT

Hey guys, I know it's been a loonnnnggggg while since I update but, I have myspace and it takes up a lotta time, so ya. But anyways, here is the update. And btw, the advice site is dear__someone. It's not really been started yet, but go there and look.

i keep trying to find my way out of this maze of memories.

Lost in this maze of memories, the nightmare begins when I wake up.

I can never love again, he's the only who will understand, We used to be so happy, keep away from my man.

Headphones blaring, eyes shut tight, just a buncha, too broken to fight

I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna run away, so against my will I'll go, just because you say.

Brusied not broken, desperatly hopeing, searching for the way, about to drift away.

&&you might as well slap the arrows on my ankle, let the world know I've been used.

i'm tired of being nice to people who dont give a shit about me.

it's one of those days when i want to die & see who would care.

just like everyone else, i hate myself too.

my real nightmare is when i wake up.

so if i'm a bitch, youre a whore & i'd rather be known for waht i do then who i screw.

do it today, it might be illegal tomorrow.

i could kiss a million guys & it still would never mean s much as holding your hand.

good girls blush during naughty scenes in the movies. bad girls smile cuz we know we can do better.

here's the truth about the truth, it hurts so we lie.

i am the girl with nothing to say but everything to share.

something has to be right about us being together.

If someone tells you "it will be okay" it's because
it's tearing them up inside to see you torn apart

Im gonna drive until I ~~break~~ ~~down~~
Hold it inside until I break down

so she pretends she doesn't care
hoping she can make it through the day,
full of pain that no one can see
& at night all she can do is think of what will never be
when she finally falls asleep she dreams of him
his beautiful smile & the way he makes her laugh
this is the only time she is ever truly happy
cause in her dreams they`re not just friends
he loves her back. she wakes back up & knows she has to face reality
he does not love her, the dream is just a cruel joke
played by the crushed heart he doesnt even know he broke

sometimes you gotta stop, breathe, think,

sometimes you have to wonder,

question, find a link

, 'casue if you don't you'll live in fear

, you'll never know, and you won't care,

just question your love

every once in a while or you'll wake up

and he won't be there.

sometimes i c a t c h myself staring at ceiling,
wondering if i'm the only one dealing with these feelings.

You think your not pretty - There is always someone uglier.
You want more money - People are in poverty.
You want a boyfriend - Someone doesn't even have parents.
You're hungry - a child is starving.
You want to go to the mall - someone is looking for anything that they can wear just to stay warm. Your chilly - others are frozen.
You just want to die - most people want to live.
So don't waste your time on things that you think you want because there is always someone out there who needs it much more than you could ever possibly know.

high school is like the game telephone.
you say something to someone.
and by the time you hear it back.
there's not one word the same.

yeah, they talk about her,
she smiles like she's so tough.
she says, "hey can you talk a little louder?
i don't think my heart is broken enough"

she was a maths elite, he was in a band. how they got together, no one could understand. everyone doubted, that they were ever going to last. his friends said they were going too slow, her friends said they were going too fast. yet, they were happy, because they were the only ones to see, that dropping all the labels and judging was what made them be. so please, it doesn't matter, whether you are a punk or a geek. a prep, a jock, a goth, an emo, or just a "freak". cause labels will just be labels... and in the end, everyone is the same. everyone has their own happiness and everyone has their own pain. so please, once again, lets get rid of these labels that only make us pretend to be the person everyone judges you are. but truthfully . . . words really do hurt in the end.

What we know of other people is only
our memory of the moments during
which we knew them. They have changed
since then, and at every meeting,
we are meeting a stranger.

Don't tell your problems to other people.
79% don't care, and the other
20% are glad you have them...
but then theres that one person..
that really does care
and i call her my best friend

I have pages and pages
Of things that you said that made me smile.
& I keep it close at hand...
Just in case I'm having a bad day,
& you're nowhere to be found.

&& he's the first kid
that has ever made me
this confused about..anything.

sit & stare at the tv- it won't get me to you. wait for
you to get on, but you never do. try to get the courage
to e-mail you, i can't. what else is there to try to get
through to you? everyday, every week, monday to
sunday- i'd set aside my homework, cancel any other
plans, delay all my other activites, & just sit there; staring
at the computer screen, waiting for you to sign on. now
i don't know what i'm more frustrated at- the fact that
you never did sign on long enough to chat, or the fact
that i wasted ALL MY TiME waiting for you...

she was always second best,
so she never thought she'd be
the first he picked. she never
thought he wanted her so bad.

it was just you and me, two friends.
then with a simple look my hand fell into yours

i think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could just freeze time. whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. the world would stop turning & people would stop changing. because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.

& to be completely honest,
you`ll never know how much you mean to me <3

& i don't know what to say
everything changed so fast,
i can't keep up
i'm lost in all of those words that
could not escape my lips that
would've made you stay.

she has a secret;
a dark addiction;
she tries to hide it
but if you look closely you'll see:
she's slowly disappearing
disappointment stops by
from time to time
to see how Im doing.
& he came by last night,
right after you left
my life in ruins.

You can't go back, only remember. Remember how we used to be, how our relationship used to be, how we used to love eachother. And how the things we both said replay in my mind over & over again. There's nothing more I can do now, but move on. I don't think I can do that.

remembering all our memories &
its times like these that i miss you most,
remembering when we were so close.

All I want is for you to know me again,
for me to be in your life. And even if it can't
happen right now, I would just like to know
that I'm not blocked from your memory.

Every night she finds herself lying in
bed, reliving and remembering every
glance he gave and every word he said.

Forget how he called you beautiful. Forget how he gave you the butterflies every time you saw him. Forget your first kiss. Forget how everyone talked about how cute you two were together. Forget talking to him on the phone until 2am. Forget everything you loved about him. Remember how he broke your heart.

and it takes all i have not to call you, not IM you, not think about you every minute of every day

I'm sorry for calling so late
but I miss you & I want to talk <3

if the pond was weed and i was a duck I'd swim to the bottom and smoke my way up. But the pond isn't weed and I ain't a duck, so pass me the bottle and shut the fuck up.

The girl who seemed unbreakable broke.
The girl who seemed strong crumbled.
The girl who always laughed it off cried.
The girl who never gave up finally quit.

there's something i need to tell you.
i love you, you know that i do, but..
i am just scared of so many things.
i am scared of feeling this way, &
i am scared of being so vulnerable.
but most of all, i am really scared of
[ l . o . s . i . n . g * y . o . u . ]

10 Commandments 4 Teens

1) thou shall not sneak out when parents

are sleeping.

(why wait?)

2)thou shall not do drugz

(alcohol last longer)

3)thou shall not steel from k-mart.

(Wal*Mart has a bigger selection)

4)thou shall not get arrested for

vandalism.

(destruction has a bigger effect)

5)thou shall not steel from thy parents.

(every-1 knows grandma has more money)

6)thou shall not get in fights.

(just start them)

7)thou shall not skip class.

(just take the whole day off)

8)thou shall not strip in class.

(hooters pays more)

9)thou shall not think about having sex.

(as nike sayz just do it)

10)thou shall not help old ladies cross

the street.

(just leave them in the middle)

Settle down, precious. I know what you're going through. Because ten minutes before you got here, I was gonna jump too <3

Sticks and stones are hard on bones Aimed with angry art. Words can sting, like anything, but silence breaks the heart

you've got bruises on your arms girl;
you lie to me and say you tripped and fell
but i recognize the hollow in your eyes;
your story goes deep.
i see a mere child only trying to defend herself
against a man who promised to take care of her.

where i come from, its differant.
if a boy stares at you for a few seconds,
don't get flattered; he's probably high.

sometimes all you need are those few best friends.

they still want each other, they still need each other
more than anything in the world.
they're just taking a long time to figure it all out.

you're playing with my heart,
and it's getting really lame.
decide what you want, the girl or the game?

forget what you heard ;;
recognize what you see.
i know you heard rumors
[ here's the real me ]

WHAT DOESN'T KILL ME,
WILL ONLY MAKE ME STRONGER.
THINK YOU'RE HURTING ME?
YOU'RE JUST MAKING ME LAST LONGER.

this cold air brings in such a distance to us,
such a painful distance. but i'm still waiting
for you to say you hate me now,
so i don't have to

there was sun through the blinds this morning
when i opened up my eyes. outside, i could hear
a mockingbird. i could feel your heartbeat as you
lay there by my side. i thought of how the world
could end with just one word, but you couldn't say it,
and i didn't say it.

the first time i saw a body bend that way,
i realized that we're more beautiful dead than
alive. then, with bloodied flesh removed, your
ribcage ripped away, and i saw why they say
beauty comes from inside.

theres always going to be that one thing
you wish for, but never get. that one
mistake you can never take back. and most
of all, that one memory that you would
do anything to get back.

i am just giving up and shutting down.
i am just so sick of thinking my head is broken.
i am fucking lonely.

you said your time was running out.
you're far from where you want to be.
you're hanging in the lost and found.
you're losing touch with everything and
when you think it's over, i won't let you down.

I wanna be his happiest hello and saddest goodbye, I don't want him to leave me, I don't wanna have to cry.

A scent can bring back a memory, a day, a dream, but it can't bring a person back. So forget the memories, day's,and dreams, your just wasting time, just dying slow.

C'mon, Bitch, what are you gonna do? You wanna fight?I'm ready for you. I'll beat your ass, nothing else to choose. Your bound to get hurt when your messin wit sum 1 who has nothing to lose.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 13:07:02 GMT

If someone tells you "it will be okay" it's because
it's tearing them up inside to see you torn apart

is full of goods & bads, turns && curves,
but the most important thing is to [remember] to follow your dreams
&& never give up, even when everyone ~~denies~~ your success.

if you don`t like me like that, tell me, because i want
to stop the tears that are falling for you every night

imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius.
And it`s better to be absolutely ridiculous than
absolutely boring. And when it comes down to
it, i let them think what they want.

she`s addicted to the song lyrics that spill her heart out for her

i`ll keep driving so we can talk a while.
i know i could drive all night, just to stay here with you.

she asked "if i walked away would you come after me?"
he said "no."..she turned away,upset and began
to walk away & he grabbed her hand
and said "because i wouldn`t let you go."

since the first time you ran your fingers
through my hair ; since the first time your hugs
eased my pain & since the first time your
kisses took my breath away..
i knew there was no one else for me

late at night when all the world is sleeping,
i stay up and think of you and i wish
on a star that somewhere you are thinking of me too

you ever look at a picture and see a
stranger in the background?
it makes you wonder how many
strangers have pictures of you,
how many moments of other people`s lives we`ve been in.
were we a part of a stranger`s life when their
dream came true,
or were we there when their dreams ~~died?~~
did we keep trying to get in as if we
were destined to be there,
or did the shot take us by surprise?
and not even know it.

the worst thing in the world is when you drift apart
from the person you had the time of your life with, everyday.

we used to talk about everything
but now its impossible to even
start a decent conversation with
you. you can`t deny it. things have
changed. we`ve grown apart &
you have to face the fact that i will
no longer be there every single time
you need me. the truth is what it is
& that is i do not have anymore
respect for you as an individual now
you`re just another face in the crowd

She was the girl who dreamed, who saw things

how they were but never really let it get in the way

of her wishful thinking. she laughed and cried.

We wonder why black and white photographs capture our soul.
i think it`s because without color we aren`t drawn to the makeup,
the color of our eyes, our hair, or how tan we are.
Black and white captures the innnocence on one`s face
and the hurt they`ve gone through to feel vulnerability.
The glow we see comes from the inside.
Brightening our eyes, our skin, and our smile.
it grabs the truth that liberates us.

Don`t ever let anyone promise that they will never hurt you
because at one point or another it will happen.
The real promise is the time that you spend together
will be worth the pain.
Be your own hero and stand up for yourself.

They give their hearts to each other unconditionally; that`s what love is.
it`s not this fairy tale life that never knows pain,
but it`s two souls facing it together and diminishing it with unconditional love.
-One Tree Hill

have you ever felt like you could cry
because you know that you just heard the
most important thing anybody in the
world could have spoken at that moment?

So when all you`ve got are sleepless nights,
when the tears are clouding up your eyes,
just remember ;; it was you who said goodbye.

i don`t know how much longer i can handle this life that i`m living.
i`m so tired of everything & i`m not sure how much longer
i can be the person that i`m almost out of tears, i`ve cried so much.
i feel like i hit rock-bottom; i couldn`t possibly get any lower.
But now i`m digging

watch you from a distance.
i remember all those instances when you smiled,
when you laughed, when you crashed,
when i`m there to catch you when you fall.

My best times have gone
from laughter to memories
My best friends have gone
from friends to family

The days are getting warmer.
Summer is getting nearer.
I find myself lost in this song, & even more lost in your eyes.

I still imagine your touch.
It's beautiful missing something that much.

Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed & I wanna crawl in with you
but I cry instead.
I want your warmth,
but it will only make me colder when it's over.

Try to forget how you've been touched.
I loved you, so I told you,
but it didn't matter much.

I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I'll go to Boston, where no one knows my name

When it came night, the white waves paced to & fro in the moonlight,
& the wind brought the sound of the great sea's voice to the men on shore,
& they felt that they could be interpreters