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 See No Evil
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©Backstabbers
By Alixandra Shay Gurski

Carli was my best friend
I thought she'd stick it out
But all of that friendship changed
When Brian came about.

Brian was a senior
He drove me home sometimes
He started stalking Carli's xanga
When he fell for her changing eyes.

I introduced my two friends
And they connected right away
I was afraid of losing them to each other
But I prayed that they'd stay

They got closer as the months passed
And I tried to hide my pain
I'd pretend that I wasn't crying
When I danced out in the rain.

Then one day, Brian stopped being my friend
It was his fault and it was mine
Apparently, he just stopped caring
So I acted as though I was fine

But really, I was broken hearted
At losing my second best friend
But I didn't know how to express my sorrow
So I just played pretend.

And instead of taking my side
And trying to be there for me
Carli listened to Brian stab my back
And laughed as she agreed

Losing my best friend Carli
That was the worst part
She chose that Brian over me,
The girl who was there at the start.

She never should have had him
It was me who put them on track
She should have been loyal to me first
But she stabbed me in the back

They talk about me all of the time
As though I'm the worst friend ever
But they're the ones that turned on me
After they promised me forever.

I can't concentrate during the day
And I can't sleep at night
I want to hurt them back for what they did
But I don't know how to put up a fight.

I guess I never needed them
If they aren't willing to be there
I never should have let them meet.
This is so unfair.

no comments please.

When the sky gets dark in the middle of the day
The clouds rumble and the sky quakes.
And the air is filled with the smell of strawberries
Because the rain is on it's way.

Droplets hit the ground
People run indoors
You can't see the tears on your face
Because they mix with heaven's tears instead

Being in the rain...
That's my favorite.

Note to Alix Gurski:
Your best friends suck.

//Edit//

a·ban·don   (-bndn) v.: To withdraw one's support or help from, especially in spite of duty, allegiance, or responsibility; desert

Thanks Catharine for abandoning our friendship. Thanks for not caring how I feel, and never giving me any support at all. I guess that Ashlee girl probably means more to you than me right? Cause i mean, better to hang out with a total slut than the girl who has always been there for you. Thanks for abandoning me during my worst hour, just because you had better things to do. Thanks for thinking you're better than me. Thanks for the tears.

ditch  (dch) v.: To get rid of; discard; To get away from; To discontinue use of or association with.

Thanks Carli for ditching me. It was really nice to see my best friend in the whole world ditch me for Trish and Vicky. I have lab on Tuesday, and I guess that's a good enough reason to ditch your best friend during the only class you have together. Thanks for ditching me on my birthday. It'll be your one month with your boyfriend, so of course you should ditch your best friend on her day. Thanks for always ditching me when I need you. And i'm supposed to tell you my darkest secret. How do I know you won't ditch me when you find out?

di·min·ish   (d-mnsh) v.: To make smaller or less or to cause to appear so; To detract from the authority, reputation, or prestige of.

Thanks Brian for diminishing me. Thank you for making me feel like the worst person on earth. Thanks for using my darkest secret against me, and then ripping me to shreds with it. Thanks for never really being there unless you can get some diminishing time out of it. Thanks for knowing that I'm in a bad, dark place and then diminishing me to the point where life seems pointless.

Your best friends suck Alixandra Shay.

//Edit//

Best of luck to Carli's mother, who has surgery tomorrow.