| What is maturity?
Is it when you get to a place where things, people, places revert you back to a current state? Is it when you turn a certain age? Is it disopline? Knowledge?
I don't think it's defined by time. Time is only an illusion. If time were the deciding factor to what makes or breaks growth, than everyone would be mature when they hit 18 years old. But it doesn't work like that. I pose this question simply, because it is simply what all humans struggle with. Its a question wrapped around self identity. Oh yes, the struggle Hamlet was based around. Shakespear said that the only way we know our true selves is to accept our own mortality. The ability that every creature, living thing is vulnerable to. The great equalizer of men. We will all die and be baried in earth. We will decompose and fungus will eat at our organs. I've always been afraid of death, but It's one thing I've never been fully able to comprehend. What is so scary? Leaving this comfortable life in suburbia, SUVs taking over our streets, a life dictated by advertisements. And I don't mean that lightly, they dictate everything when you think about it. But back to the question at hand. Death is change. Not nessesarily good or bad. But thats why its scary, because we don't know what is waiting on the other side. Relegion isn't right. None of them are, how could they possibly be? It's not like the lotery, like some guy just chose to guess what happens to us when we die and got it right. Basically relegion is centered around death. It talks about how we should practice rituals and do good deeds. But that's only because we die, and we want our death to be pleasant. If there was no end to life, than why would anyone buy into relegion? So how is it possible to accept one's own mortality? It would be to relinquish all that human nature is based upon. All we do is seek knowledge, entertainment. Everything we do practically is a stall from the boredom of existance. But theres more than that. Its a burning desire to know whats instore for us. We have to know, so that we can feel comfort. But we can never just be free, to live in the present means that you arnt afraid of death. If we don't ask questions about the future, than we'll never know whats instore.
After school I walked home. I listened to music and saw the afternoon, friday, february air. The sun made everything golden. For some reason when I see the sun like that it makes me think of times when I felt that way. Black cement in my driveway is a comfort. The culdasac I look out to from my window every day when I wake up is always there regardless. I'm so scared of loosing it, but if I don't than I'll never find anything better.
I think the answer to what is maturity can be summed up in how we deal with situations day to day. It's not a transformation. It's measured by each upcomning task. It's something that is in the present. Its just an adjective. |
