| Welcome Back, Kyra!! lolSooo.... It's been a LONG time since I've written anything on here. I'm not really sure where to begin exactally... I guess I can start out by informing the people who don't already know this, but I am pregnant. 35 weeks to be exact. My due date is January 22nd, 2008 (although I'm going to see if I can maybe induce on the 17th of January... That was my dad's birthday, and that'd just be cool). Brian (my wonderful boyfriend of the past two years) and I are having a boy. His name is going to be Brayden Keith Knoblauch. I'm excited! So is he. And just to answer the question that everyone seems to ask me after I tell them I'm pregnant... No, we are not married. We have talked about it though, but nothing is set in stone (yet again, not many things are set in stone). Today I get to see one of my best friends (Crystal). She is coming home from Florida for Christmas. :) The last time I saw here was in early June. Brian and I are picking her up from the airport, so it's kind of exciting to be the first people she sees when she gets back to her home state. lol. Well, I guess now on to the mental state... The past two years have been the best. I will admit, I did have my extremely rough times, but I've also come to the realization that "hey! other people do too!". I've been looking more at what I want to do with my life instead of how bad it used to be. One thing, I think, that helped that was a dream that I had... Ever since my dad passed away back in 2004, every night my prayer would consist of nothing but begging God to let me see him one last time to tell him that I loved him. Well, about 4 months ago, my prayer was answered. :) I had a dream that my family was at a baseball game, and I was going to get something to drink, and my dad walked around the corner wearing his blue coat that he used to always wear, and he had the biggest smile on his face. I ran to him, crying, and threw my arms around him, and he hugged me so tight and said "it's okay, baby. I've missed you too." (Oh gees.... I'm getting teary-eyed saying that, but every time I think about it, it makes me so happy). Needless to say, that dream helped me in so many ways. Ever since then, I've just been so much happier. I mean, I was somewhat happy before, but nothing like this. My relationships have grown stronger. Sure, I've lost contact with a lot of my old friends, but that is a part of life. Some of them, it's kind of a good thing that I lost contact with them. And this is why (which, some of the people who might read this, might not have known this about me)... I was definitely hanging out with the wrong people. I was always drinking or smoking pot (at least 4 times a week). I was at the point to where I didn't care anymore. I didn't want to do anything that would better myself, I just wanted to party with my "friends" and have fun. But, ya know what? If I could go back in time and change what happened, I wouldn't do it. I've learned my lessons, and I've helped people who couldn't quite pass the final exam. But, that's all the time I have to write. I just figured I'd let the world know how I'm doing. I miss everyone and I think about you guys all the time!!! Please leave comments or write me and let me know how you guys are doing!!! If you want, you can even e-mail me on my personal e-mail address!! sylvester_may_14@hotmail.com |
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