Stupid connection! >[

Oh, fuck the stupid, irritating, asshole wireless connection! The connection died on me for several times, and started to piss the fuck off me. >[ My msn keeps signing in and out, in and out. I have to refresh the explorer again and again, waiting for the connection to be back. Damn the connection. Damn damn damn!

Anyway, today's a bad day as i'm having a bad bangs day! My bangs' weird. It somehow different from the usual days. I don't know why and i can't figure it out either. I hope tomorrow will not be like this again. ]:
My cousin came over the mall and looked for me. We went shopping! Okay, mostly i was the one who did the shopping. Somehow she seemed like she's just accompanying me. haha. So i bought a tee, one snack and a don't-know-what-does-the-thing-called. It's something like to make sushi but it's not. It's for hanging on the wall, i'm 100% sure. And i bought them to place my earrings and necklaces. Now i have easy access to whatever earring or necklace i want to wear for the day. Wooo, i'm so happy!

Plus, i finally gotten the money that my school gave. Went to check my bank balance and it was there! My mom warned me not to use and and i shalll not touch the card at all, before i started to gave all the money to the shops.. lol.

Because of the stupid connection and it's late now, i shall post pictures and reply the comments tomorrow. [: I hope tomorrow the connection would go well... If not i would go berserk. But girls & readers, please don't stop giving me comment, even though i quit the idea of keeping track of what i eat... :D

Have a nice summer, everyone. The weather is quite cooling today! [:

XOXO

A new beginning..

I'm done with torturing myself. After reading Sophie's yesterday, it really made me think hard. Real hard. Why should i want to stop doing the thing i like to do, example having a huge appetite and eating 4 meals per day. Why? Why i want myself to stop enjoying foods? You know, foods are heaven! I love to eat them, especially fried stuff. So, i'm gonna be back to my old self. Eat whenever and whatever i like and enjoy them. I really have to thanks God that my metabolism rate is still as fast as usual. I won't gain too much on it, perhaps after eating i will weight 0.5 kg more than before, but after a while it goes back to the same weight before i ate anything. That's great. And i really have to thanks God & my parents for giving me this. Like what my friends said, i'm skinny and yes, i will believe them. Because whatever my friends said are the truth. Why should they lie about that? To make me feel better? What's there to make me feel better? I'm 41 kg, and it classified as "underweight". Since i'm underweight, how can i be fat? How can i keep saying myself fat? By saying this "i look fat" over and over again, it will only irritate the hell out of my friends. I hate people who irritate me and i bet my friends hate it too. Instead of pissing them off, why not i enjoy my life, right? But this doesn't mean i will stop doing exercises. I will continue to do it as it keeps me healthy. And i'm gonna love the way i am now. Because this is what my parents gave to me and God wants me to be in this way. Byebye, "i look fat". Hello, "i'm loving myself every sec". [:

I decided to update now because i don't intend to do anything else except continuing on my research tonight. I need to get this research done by tonight, or latest tomorrow. But most probably i will get it done by tomorrow because i still have my AutoCad assignment. It's due today, but i'm not giving a heck about it. I've already checked on the examination dates. I have three examinations to sit for and one test. I wanna enjoy my breaks with no worries, like there's no tomorrow. lol. Good luck people! For your upcoming examinations. [:

I'm like looking at my laptop's keypad now, with weird feeling. It fills with stickers on every key. Those girlie girlie stickers. I look so girlish. I'm a girl and it's my right to be girlish, but i don't like it. Girlish means being weak, and i am NOT. But the stickers are really cuteeeee! Aww, i guess i shall bear with it then. Until i'm sick of them, i will then remove them off from my keypad.

I'm listening to "Our song" by Taylor Swift. If the guy i like said this to me, i will definitely melt in his embrace. However, i don't really need a guy in my life. I already have my best friends, good guy friends, best 1H`clique and wonderful family. I don't need any more. I'm not greedy and i don't want to be one. As long as the relationships i have with them always stay in this way and i'm always that happy, i'm satisfied. Contented. [: And right now i'm chatting with my lovely 1H`clique in class, even though we're still sitting beside and behind one another! :D :D :D

Just one step at a time.......... [:

XOXO

[Updated] 23:31

Wooo, today weather is sooooooooo COLD! I love it! Though it made me wanted to put on more clothing, it still felt so good. I love when there's not bright sunlight shinning onto me, getting me sweat like mad and feeling so horrible for the entire day. I love when there's wind blowing my hair all over my face and making it looks messy. I love wind instead of sun. However, i love getting myself tan, which needs a lot of help from the sun. =S

I'm watching an american tv show which is sooo interesting. It's like someone is having a certain weird disease...? I don't know. It's my first time watching this and i have no idea what's the title and what is it about..

Btw, my cousin might be going shopping with me tomorrow. I haven't spent much lately hence i have enough to buy myself more tops. =P

I'll be MIA from here SOON.

So many things i wanted to say and i shall do it right now since i have the time. I will be gone for a period of time. It's 22nd of July, this means after this month, it will be a critical period for me. I need to work hard for my examinations. No way am i going to see the same teachers back again at the next semester. No way am i going to study the exact same thing again. Definitely no way am i going to let all my hardwork down into the drain. Hence, i won't be updating often. Anyway, nobody cares. Nobody reads this boring xanga at all. Sometimes it feels like i'm actually talking to myself, like an idiot. -.- Still, i shall continue be an idiot. I will only be updating on Thurs, Fri and weekends. This week is ending soon, and i have to rush all my assignments! I need to hand them in before the deadlines. I am NOT going to take any risk! I'm a loser, so what?

Stayed back in school after my classes, together with Cons, Su, Val & PZ. PZ taught me Hydraulics and guess what? I finally managed to understand the whole chapt 4 & completed my tutorial & additional Qn on this chapter! Guess i'm not that stupid afterall. [: So, i only left with chapters 5, 6 & 7 to be understood. Additional Maths i'm still able to coop so that's alright. Biology i have no problem with it. Ecology is all about memorizing. Hence.......the only thing that worries me a lot is Hydraulics. Once i understand all remaining 3 chapters, i guess i am 80% prepared to take this examination. I'm not borned smart, hence i need to work extra hard than the rest of my classmates.

So, there's one girl, S, who is being disliked by most of her classmates and yet there's another girl who has been trying to let S joined one of the cliques in class. The kind-hearted knew that everyone,except her, dislikes S but she still wants the clique to accept her which is a so not possible thing. As a member in the clique, how will you feel? Will you keep quiet or will you just tell the kind-hearted girl to stop doing that because the clique will never accept her??? Sigh....

Over the weekend:





This green apple fruit blend is awesome!

My best friend. [:









fooled around in a bookstore. =X

Bookkkssss

That's all!

XOXO

P.S. I want to catch Wedding Daze! Anyone????????????

Sorry for the delay of update.

I'm getting lazier and lazier each day. My assignments are not complete and the deadline for each assignment is getting near. ]: Probably i won't be updating as often as i usually do. I'm not going to talk about what happened on Sunday. No point doing so since it was already over. All i can say is that i was having fun when i'm with my best friends. [: I love them, hell lot! They are everything to me. Even if we seldom meet up, even if one of us is at the other side of the planet, even if we are studying at different school, we're still best friends. We are more than just best friends. We studied our critical examination together, spent most of our times together, even shared secrets together. How close are we?! Though there were times we were pissed/mad with one another, it did not affect our friendship. In fact, it made us think about how important we are to one another. I miss my best friends, especially Jav! I can't wait for him to be back. ]: ]: D, J, Jav & Johnny = my best friends.

Anyhow, Biology practical was awesome! I had fun with my 1H`clique! We were sort of fooling around and camwhored. However, we did get our job done. Had a little talk with Mr Alfred Tan after the pracitical. Then headed home and had dinner with my Mom and her friends. I ate really full and i'm still feeling full right now! ]:

Okay, so i'm currently watching Enchanted, again. Had just finished The Covenant. Both shows are awesome. I'm waiting for Twilight and Harry Potter! :D
Oh, i cut my bangs yesterday btw. My bangs look so short (not really the short to the extent that it makes me wanna clip them up) and thick. I like it, i meant the thickness, not the shortness. [: I wanna try a different kind of bangs. Not now but sometimes later, when i'm having my break from school. So that if the cut wasn't a success, i can crop up at home all day until i can put them back to the side. [:

we did do our job. [:

XOXO

Oh great! I'm feeling hungry now. Extremely hungry to the sense that i wanted to change and head to the Seven-Eleven store and get myself something to eat. I feel like eating now and i know i can't. The consequence will be = eating -> bloated -> fats -> gain weight.
How how how?! Should i eat or should i not? I want to chew something, fill something into my stomach. I'm feeling so awful right now. I haven't been doing my thighs workout lately. It just somehow slipped my mind. Not good, this is really not good. In fact, it's worse! Ugh! Forget it, i shall see if i can find anything to eat in the kitchen. If not i shall go down to get something. I give up. I'm so sorry. I lose to the feeling of being hungry. ]: