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Saturday, May 03, 2008

Sat, 03 May 2008 14:26:46 GMT

Items my kitten has destroyed/lost/stole since coming to live with me in Jan. :
* 4 houseplants
* 3 dirt spots where she spilled the pots
* 1 Stellar Kart T-shirt with a hole in it from a claw mark
*numerous ponytail holders
* her tag from the vet (laid it on the table , gone the next day)

*my purple flipflops

*my brown flipflops...

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 17:52:23 GMT

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Yay!!!

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 13:43:57 GMT

Well, I did it-- I filed my FAFSFA application for student loans, so we'll see how much I get. I've done a reverse 180-- and decided that I do want to go back to college, rather than take the Resource job. Though about a month ago I had decided that I could handle still being in eduction, I have felt those feelings creep up again of not wanting to be committed to the field, and I can't get rid of them. I don't feel like I put 100% into my job, and with teaching, you have to, otherwise a lot of things suffer. My thinking was that I would feel differently in a different position in the same school. I can't guarrantee that I will still feel burdened about this job either, and that kind of scares me. B/c of that, I knew/know that I have to get out.

I've only told one person about it-- not my principal-- but I'm not sure the reality of the decision has formed yet. I will need to tell my family about the decision, and they probably will be surprised, b/c I just told them like 2 weeks ago I was taking the other Sped teaching job. My principal announced it in our faculty meeting on Wednesday that I was transferring to the position, so now everyone knows. When the announcement is made that I backed out of it, I hope people don't think less of me. But I have to not think about needing their approval-- My God is the only approval I need.

I can't even begin to think about what it's going to be like going back to college and having to move all my STUFF 400 miles. I also don't even want to think about having to leave my friends and my church here. Oy Vey.

Friday, April 04, 2008

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 18:17:15 GMT

How long is it till summer break???..... I'm ready for it, starting yesterday!!

Monday, March 31, 2008

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 19:58:41 GMT

Is it too early to start counting down how many days are left in the school year? I don't actually know, but I know it's less than 40. Suddenly, it's going to be a really LONG 9 weeks!!! My kids have Spring Fever, with coming back from Spring Break, and they have/are going to be quite the challenge. I'm gonna need lots of prayers!! Their favorite past time is talking. *LOL*

Last night, Lish and I went to see Third Day, December Radio, and Revive in concert. They were all really good, but I didn't get to hear one of my favorite Third Day songs, "Can You Feel It?" Concerts like that are so inspiring, and I would love to be able to go on the road with a Christian rock band and listen to them every night. I have a hard time not standing (or sitting) still when it comes to music; We actually, for the 1st time sat up in the stands, and it was a rather strange thing for me. There were a few times where I wanted to stand up and move to the music (not actually dance, but just kind of "sway" *lol), but everyone else was sitting down, so I did too. Sanctus Real was supposed to be there too, but they cancelled, which I was really disappointed about. I have their CD, and was really looking forward to seeing them. Revive was still good. I hadn't actually heard of them before, but they rocked out pretty good. They are a band from Australia.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 08:09:50 GMT

"... My Father in heaven can whip the father of this world.
So, if you're wondering why I feel so secure, understand this...
He said it and that settles it.
God is in control, I am on His side, and
That means all is well with my soul. "

~Author Unknown

Monday, March 24, 2008

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 22:24:57 GMT

Tomorrow begins the long awaited (well, not really...) return to school from my Spring Break. These breaks really spoil a person, and it's been almost 2 weeks since I've been with my kids-- I got sick the week before break, and missed 4 days of school. These last 9 weeks will be rather interesting with the kids being probably rather crazy, and I know behavior will be an issue with them. I think that I will take that Resource job, even though I haven't talked with the teacher I'll be replacing. But I am going to still keep looking for something else. I've prayed about it, and I think it is the right thing to do. Though, I know walking into those halls on Saturday was not the most fun thing in the world. I really didn't want to be there. I'm hoping that the break will help me with my motivation. Guess it's back to the grindstone! Wish me luck!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 15:26:04 GMT

WooHoo for Spring Break!!!

My Cold and Flu Season Saga

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 19:22:15 GMT

I started the month of February with getting sick and missing 2 days of schools. I wasn't ever in school more than 5 days a week. My cold had kind of been lingering for several weeks, never really getting over it. Then, Tuesday I woke up with having barely any voice and alas, my cold had returned! I went to school Wednesday with having even less voice, but I didn't stay for very long. I had thought I was going to stay, but by 7:10 (I had gotten there at 7:00!), I realized that I couldn't stay, so I left again by 7;30. I actually didn't feel as bad yesterday, but I couldn't be hardly understood, b/c my voice was almost gone. Today, I went to school, but I left at 10:30, mainly b/c my chest was hurting. I decided to go the dr and they the dr did decide to do a chest x-ray. The x-ray came back negative, but the dr decided to put me on an antibiotic, since I hadn't ever really gotten over it the last time. He said that the virus that I had before (in February), with what he was seeing in other patients, was turning into a bronchitis or pneumonia, so it was good that I was getting the antibiotic. I decided not to go to school tomorrow, and just stay home and rest. I also decided not to go home for Spring Break, so I guess I will be spending my time here! I feel really bad for my kids, b/c I know this isn't good for them to have a sub for this amount of time. Ugh.

On another subject, I'm considering switching to a different position-- The Resource teacher at my school is moving to Montana with her husband, and my principal asked if I was interested. I'm seriously thinking about it, and praying about whether or not it's the right thing to do. It would be basically like what I was doing before, but I would have K-4 students, instead of K-1.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 17:46:25 GMT

I was looking at the public viewing of my xanga site, when I saw this advertising off to the side:

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I was appalled by what I saw there! (I didn't actually go to the site- I was just appalled that it was actually on my xanga site. lol) I could not believe that there would be an actual website that would promote having an affair! But I guess it's not that farfetched as to what the internet promotes and has brought to our society. I rented the movie Waitress with Keri Russell last night. Now, I did know when I rented the movie that the character was going to have an affair, but I still went ahead and rented it; partially, b/c I've always kind of liked Keri Russell as an actress. In the movie, her character gets pregnant by her husband, who is portrayed as basically a scumbag. She then has an affair with her doctor, who is also married. And what is bad is, that you're rooting for the dr, and the waitress to stay together and eventually run off. On top of everything else, one of her friends, another waitress, is having an affair with the manager of the restaurant they work at.At the end of the movie, right after the waitress has her baby, she divorces her husband, breaks up with the doctor, and opens up her own pie shop with money she received from the original owner of the diner who passes away. And everything is all hunky-dorey. There seems to be no emotional attachment, as to having an affair and to then breaking up with your husband.

Is marriage no longer sacred, that it is just no big deal to have an affair? Affairs are almost an all too common thing in our society, along with divorce. When people get married, they have a "back-door," a.k.a divorce. One thing I hear when people get divorced is that it's "irreconcilable differences." Marriage should be a sacred enough thing that no matter what the differences are, the couple will come together and work it out. Most likely Christ was not the center of, or the head of their marriage, and that was the reason for their falling out. But what do I know? I'm not married. I guess, with being single though, I don't really have any experience on the issue, other than what I have observed and read about. I just know that when I marry, it'll be forever. And I guess the longer I'm single, the longer I have to work on myself, and be that much better for my marriage and my husband.