Holy moly-it's been two months!!! Haha-sorry ya'll but i've got a myspace now so i'm on that a lot more than on here.

anywho-it's so weird how some conversations you have with people that you have not even talked to in so long can have such an effect on your life. And to that person-i thank you.

It truly is amazing how when you are open and honest, you sometimes hear things that you just didn't want to hear-but know in your heart that everything will work out for the best-even if you have to go through some difficult times-personally, spiritually, and mentally. It's EXHAUSTING!!! But when you find peace of mind and soul-there is no better feeling in the world!  It's always so wonderful to re-establish a friendship you thought you completly lost!!!!

I have been doing like a 360 degree turn around-physically on the inside and out! It's weird! haha It's so many changes happening all at one time and it is actually getting a little stressful-i want change now and not in a couple of months down the road! haha which is funny-because i used to hate change-i hated it because it not only ment that the things around me were changing-but i had to change with it! I've been learning so much now that i am married-to be patient-and to just let things go that are not worth arguing over-which if ya' know me-i can be very argumentative and stubborn!!! and by the way, i am not saying that i am not those two things anymore-i'm just learning to let things slide! It's very hard-but i know to keep peace-i do it! hehe

I hope ya'll are doing wonderfully well! Drop me a line or comment! I'd love to hear from ya'll and see how ya'll are doing!

Have a great week!!!!

Love, Crystal

Tired!

Hey everyone! I am once again...still alive!!!   Christmas has come and gone and I am once more sad at the fact that i have to take down my Christmas tree that has taken me 2 hours to decorate-and no, i am not stretching the truth...2 hours! It is beautiful! Work is going great-i work  day time hours now-thank God!!!! i take care of mentally challenged individuals-it is so fun!

This year has been a little difficult- a lot of emotional roller coasters, i've become emotionally drained more than once this year and it took a lot out of me! I've already come up with some wonderful New Years Resolutions that I tend to stick with. By next year, I will be a brand new...me!

I definately miss talking to a lot of my friends from KU and here at home. I've let go so many wonderful friendly relationships that it just tug at my heart more than ever this year for some reason. I have just gotten so involved in so much that I just stopped talking to people and for that guys-i am truly sorry!

Hopefully I will once again re-establish these relationships in the future and hold to them...like I told Nate, I will remember to Cherish the relationships that I make and have made and hold them dear to my heart!

Jim and I at a Well that you could go swimming in. It was beautiful!

Jim and I at Dinner on our resort!

This is my Daisy! She may look so stinkin' adorable...but don't let that fool you!!!!

So let me tell you a story- at my current job, we have two living rooms to watch tv (i work in a group home for mentally challenged individuals), anyway-the one broke, so i told the guy i was working with that he could turn the tv to whatever he wanted...so he turns on some evangelism station and i thought to myself, "this is going to make my last 1/2 an hour at work go even longer." So i wasn't really paying any attention to it until i heard these words, "plastering on a mask" then i started to listen

the whole thing was about how people walk around and say things just because they know that who they are talking to would love what they are saying. You see, i myself was one of those people that had "plastered on a mask." yes i said it FINALLY... hehe but I have been fake in the past. I said things because i thought what i was saying would be loved by whomever i was talking to. I didn't even really believe in the words coming out of my mouth, i just said them to try to get people to love the "fake me" but i totally forgot who I really was.

the mask has been off for awhile, but i still find myself saying things that i'm just like, that is not me. it's hard, but i catch myself every now and then and take a reality check.

don't be fake people-let people fall in love with the real you!