Wallet + Camera stolen

My wallet and camera were stolen at one of my favorite Korean restaurants in NYC.  I should have never placed my purse on the floor,(Yea, isn't it a "bad luck" to put your purse on the floor?) but I did anyway.  I mean, most NYC restaurants are tiny! I left my purse on my left side, but when I looked down to grab my purse to pay the bill, it wasn't there.  So, I looked down on my right side and there it was...my purse just thrown down in to the floor..lost its shape.  I spoke to myself, "I thought I left on my left side, did it walk over here?"  When I opened my purse, no wallet...no camera.  (Actually, I did not know that my camera was also stolen until the next morning).  How stupid was I?  Lost all my cards including ATM card and health insurances..(great, I have my dental appointment and I don't even know my dental card #), all my gift cards, and drivers license. I hate going to DMV!  I was incredibly upset all day yesterday, but I am feeling much better now.  It happens to people...it is not the end of the world.  I will just consider this as a wake up call.  I leave my purse around all the time. In a shopping cart, ladies room sofa, in my office,...I know..what is wrong with me... errr... I am the unofficial office photographer and I feel so naked without my camera...  What's good out there?  Let me know if you know any good camera selections.  I have to purchase soon, since my brother's college graduation is coming up in 4 weeks! 

This year is so far the unluckiest year for me...

January- I bumped my head so badly on a taxi roof and gave me a minor concussion and I made a scene on 32nd St.

February- Work + ykan life disaster

March - Got very sick and left work for two weeks

April - Wallet stolen

May-  what is going to happen now?

Someone please shoot me.

I think I am just going to shoot myself.  This is too embarrassing!!!   What is wrong with me?!  I can't even describe it.  Why can't I be more assertive?  Why am I allowing myself to be #2, in front of her?  Why do I get tongue tied?!  Why can't I even speak in front of her?!  WHY?  Why do I freeze in front of her.  She is aggressive and has totally different personality.  But why do I get so introverted... Why do I act like I have a two digit IQ?!  Errr- This isn't just a competition.  This is a serious illness of mine.  I want to know why my entire brain and nerves just stop working when I am in front of her.  Yes. I work with her.   Oh my...I can't stand myself anymore!!!  OH MY... I am sick of me.

"I am so disappointed in you." I think the word "disappointment" is one of the most devastating things to hear.   I am not a perfectionist, but I know that when you lose ones trust, it is hard to earn it back. Trust is fragile.  I am not talking about someone betraying you big time.  Even little things can add up.  The little disappointments can lead to losing trust and end up losing everything.  Of course, I make mistakes as I am a human and I have disappointed some of my friends/family, but every time, I try to learn a lesson and I try not to do that again. However, I am really disappointed right now... And I don't think there is a painkiller for the disappointment I am enduring right now. It is excruciating. Why? Perhaps, because I really trusted and cared about that person.  I wanted that person to be better,...to grow. 

Tom Boy Hair

Finally, I am feeling much better.

Sick Leave week2 with Laryngotracheitis/severe tonsillitis. Was told that it is stress related illness. Basically, those strong meds didn't work last week and had to stay one more week at home.  I just wanted to punch my doctor when he told me to stay home another week.  Does he know how much work I have this month?!! Have never been in so much pain in my life...and never been on so many medications in my life!  I think when I get better, I should do something to protect my liver!  What da heck was in that antibiotics? Gave me a lot of side-effects including a real bad back/neck pain. I feel like sueing this doc. Obviously, it's a viral infection and why did he put me on 10 days of antibiotics that didn't do any good but harm.  Hope I will get better soon..By Easter...at least by my birthday.  I just want to hang out with my friends again!!

 I feel like I am in jail.  Depressing and boring as hell.  Well, I have been reading a lot, catching up on my Netflix DVDs and rented "New Heart" drama in DVD (Boy! There were so many scenes that I missed out from youtube!) I'd thought it would be a best "vacation" just staying home doing nothing, but actually, I am so bored.  Lost some weight and don't want to eat anything....love that part of being ill.  Yes, me, the mega food lover, does not want to eat anymore!  I can actually breathe now..and I don't have to take pain killers anymore.  Thanks to acupuncture treatment, I think I am finally better.. But..when I can eat solid food again...I think I want some good yummy bibimbab.  Thanks to my friend Kathy who sent me chocolates to my home... hehe it melted right through my swollen tonsils! 

Things I wish I can do: smiling, sneezing/yawning without pain and eating solid food.  You people..be thankful for what you have. I learned my lesson.