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Name: SMiLE FCHo
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 9/6/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: . movies . music . him . you . cars . friends . HACKiNG iNC . school . video games . clothes . shoes . shopping . taking pictures . writing .
Expertise: . making ugly faces . talking to myself . going insane . complaining . having my heart broken .
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  SMiLE FSHO
Member Since:
12/22/2002
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| random tag1. I have a pessimistic personality, and you have to work really hard
to be a part of my life. I constantly test people. I dno why...
2. I take a lot of things for granted because I'm a spoiled brat.
3.
I'm a generous person, mostly because everything comes so easily to me,
so I see no problem in giving back (as long as its not too much).
4.
If I don't like you, you will FEEL it. But I refuse to go out of my
way to make your life miserable anymore, it's not worth the stress or
effort.
5. I am OCD. My belongings are a mess in my room, but I know where everything is.
6.
I've recovered from a very hardcore addiction, and I have horror
stories. But I've been blessed with more than just second chances.
7. I fall hard, fast, and deep. But I know I hurt others almost as much as others hurt me.
8. I will never be satisfied with myself. I will always be working to make myself better for the rest of my life.
9. I cry for no reason a lot. I'm emotionally unstable.
10.
I dont like children. There are a few exceptions, but in the long
run kids annoy me and drive me nuts. I'm evil and I don't want kids.
11.
I aspire to be a traveling nurse/anesthesiologist, because I refuse to
end up lower than the financial level my parents worked hard to put me
at.
12. I want plastic surgery, a motorcycle, a 99 toyota Supra,
and a lot more expensive unnecessary crap, and I'm pretty sure that
makes me materialistic. But it doesn't hurt to dream right?
13. I stand out, because I'm loud, clumsy & obnoxious. Too many people know me for my own good & I hate it.
14. Many of my friends don't even like each other, But they're all still my friends.
15. I have stretchmarks and tanlines & sometimes I drool in my sleep. Its disgusting. :]
16. I look better on myspace than I do in person. Ask anyone :] | | |
| i found love, but.... love doesn't always lead you in the right direction. love can distort your vision of whats real, and somewhere along the way, i feel like i have to decide between love and my dreams for the future. like i'm unsure if this'll get me where i wanna be in life. i dont want the struggle. i have to constantly remind myself why i love him.
cuz i keep forgetting why i need him. | | |
| i don't post spam. you should know that by now. take a look. SO, apparently my boyfriends friends want to judge me and compare me to this girl "gizzy" she's ugly. and i'm a horrible mean person. but she is really ugly.. at least in my opinion. look: 
it ruined my day yesterday and pissed me off. whatever. you don't even know me.
dont EVER come around me. ----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: BRiTNEE[♥]
Date: Jun 27, 2008 11:43 PM
i dont mean it offensively to you.
i just know raul from her
thought they were gonna go out
but guess not.
n didnt kno u would be the one to read his mail
tell him i said hi
and gizzy had NOTHING to do with this.
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From: rawlo (雌犬!!!)
Date: Jun 27, 2008 10:44 PM
BITCH. i'll stab you. shut up
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: BRiTNEE[♥]
Date: Jun 27, 2008 10:12 PM
raul!?
eff u pal!
whts going on here!?
your gf is sooo not cute.
what happened to gizzy?
shes waaaay better!!
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| so an update on life... I'm still with Raul Enmanuel Toledo III . It's been over 3 months, and I'm still amazingly sprung head over heels in love with this guy. I've been stubborn, mean, arrogant, and a real bi-polar bitch. But still, he hasn't given up on me. I can honestly say that this is it. I know for sure it hasn't been the first time I've said this.. But everything is so different when it comes to him. I've never changed for anybody. I never gave a shit about the bad things i've done to myself, and finally all of a sudden, the things that I do matter. I quit smoking, drinking, going out. He got me a job at a LAN center. We spend 93% of our free time with one another. and when he's not around, it's wierd. I feel like something's missing. I know it's cheezy as hell, but it feels like he completes me. I wake up in the morning and look at him and I get excited cuz i know i get to spend time with him and he goes out of his way to make me happy. I've never really lasted with anyone for longer than 3 consecutive months. the whole thought of a relationship and a commitment used to scare the hell out of me. But for some strange reason, I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. For the longest time i was pushing him away and fighting the fact that i'd finally found someone who I really needed in my life. He fought back and found a way to my heart. And i couldn't be any happier. I promise you Raul E. Toledo III, I will marry you one day and you WILL be mine.. muahahahahah :]
Gosh Love. It sure is evil. Family is great BTW.
Haven't had SO much time for friends, but everyone understands.
Those who matter know that just because I don't see them everyday doesn't mean I dont care for them.
I get paid tomorrow!!! :] yeeeeeeee! | | |
| as of last night, i'm engaged..
and i'm happy. after all the bullshit i've seen come my way, i know this is the real deal. i've had people who i was with just because i didn't want to be alone, or i stayed with them out of pity cuz they seemed to need me. but him, i just can't imagine life after him now that i've found him. i feel like i don't need to search anymore. don't get me wrong. i know i'm really really young and everything. so we're not really getting married for like 5 years. but it's nice to know i've found him. and i'm never letting this go. shh... don't tell anyone yet.
ring shopping.. YAY! | | |
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