Current Mood: Helpless, Depressed.
For those of you who don't know (which is probably most of you) my family has been going through a rough year this year. i dunno y im putting this up here since im a very private person but...whatever. I guess i just need an outlet for all of this. Its just been difficult, especially the past few weeks. My Lolo was rushed to the emergency room last week and had to undergo a major emergency surgery. My mom didnt want to worry me so she called me after the surgery was over. I didnt realize how severe and serious it was until i went home and visited him in the hospital and heard my mom and the doctor talking about how much of an improvement (thank God) he made since the surgery.
And then this past summer, my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer. I was just in shock when it happened. I never thought anyone in my family would ever get an illness like this. And we havent really discussed this openly too much in my family. My mom will mention updates about the treatments to me and my brothers, but i just feel that i need to be strong for my mom. if i talk about it, i dunno if i would be able to stay strong for her.
God bless my mother. I never realized what a strong woman she was to handle all of this crap thats been thrown at us. She's just been such a Rock for my family, and i think i admire her more now than ever. Shes been handling it so well and has kept up such a strong attitude in dealing with this crap.
And then theres my own personal situation that only one or two people know about. It just sucks that it had to happen this way. i mean it probably would have happened anyway, but the way it happened and the people involved really made the situation completely fucked up and twisted.
I dunno what elese to say, even though i have been going out lately and been having "fun" all this bullshit still exists and no matter how hard i party, no matter how much i try to ignore it and distract myself from it, its there. I guess i just gotta live with it and try to stay strong and not get sidetracked. I'm here for school and i can't let any of this crap get in the way of an education. corny sounding? yes but its the truth. Anyway, thanks for reading my bitching/complaining/moping if u even got to the end.
"Everyone crying out in pain will be quickly set free; they will be quickly rescued from the power of death and never go hungry. I will help them because I am your God the Lord All-Powerful, who makes the ocean roar." Isaiah 51:14-15 | 
) but celebration went on through the weekend. Sadly all sober celebrations since everyone is home. But watever, i can wait till next year. So friday was fun; lunch with my kuya at chili's then shopping at Express afterwards, then dinner with the rest of the family at red lobster. Saturday, high school friends took me out to eat at Friday's and embarrased my ass since they had the waiters sing to me and we were sitting at the part that was open to mall traffic. Monday (today) i met up with all my favorite StonerZ in the city. Went skating at Bryant park for like 4 hours then ate at McDonalds. We waked around Times Square for a bit; went to the Toys R Us in times Square and had dinner at Olive Garden. AGAIN i was embarrased with a birthday song and cake. Yea today was fun seeing my StonerZ. We should do it again guys. Next week? lol. u know u guys want to 
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