This blog is dedicated to the one and only:: HENRY-ica

He wanted an update... haha mmmk.. I generally use this xanga to post pics.. what I did today and then I realized.. WHO GIVES A FAWK! Hahah.... I going to write whatever I feel like writing... and today I happen to like the word::

                                                                                                   FIDDLES.

The amigos and i at FARRELLS...before i went to murrietta.

me and CHRIS WU!!! waiting f for our table!

hees a hunk of meatme and jaxx shoppin

I Trying and Failing  miserably.

Normally, I the type of person that HATES changes. Latli a lot of new changes have been happening in my life.. and well.. yeah I hate it.   Hahah go figure?

-- My Move to Murrietta. [[ this of course affects pretty much everything in my life . . . ]]

-----My parents officially divorcing..... theye been separated but I guess it hit me now.

---------My boyfriend... is well..... no longer my boifrend? Bwaha...sorri weird way to put it.

-------------and I guess... Me. AND IM SICK!! nOooo

                      ***if your one of those mg! Who broke up with Who??type of people... u can just close this window right now. I AM NOT posting drama in my xanga. I simply.... letting my frustrations out?  Ahem OSSIP GIRL?i have no idea who you are... but yer better off closing this window now. Noone cares what so and so said to you last month and who gave who flowers either. IF their interested in me or my life.. theyl come to MY xanga or tawk to ME. So just close the window. =] tootles.

So Murrietta. New place, New house, New people, New everything. Haha and I already hate it. I dunno.. it hasn really hit me YET... because I haven stayed there for more than a week at a time... I came down this weekend because it the FORTH of JEW LIES. And I get to come down next weekend cuz its MISS. JAKKIS birffday. I deno.. I doubt Il be able to drive down here once school starts becaws... hah yeah BOO jenn doesn have a PERMIT yet. How sad. Haha I finally learned how to shift tho!! Hahah wheee supahfly! Joke. I the only one that proud. I dunno.. I guess Murrietta just sucks cuz.. I won have my friends causing mischief every other nite with me anymore.  I noe yooh guys will be there still.. just a phone call away... but its just hard.. Ie gotton used to yooh guys like.. RIGHT HEREE... and its gon be tough.... I know Il prolly make a frend or two up there....because that just how it is.. but its going to be WAYY hard to replace these doodes down here... and I guess I DON want to replace them. Irraplacable lovlies they are.  I pretty shure Il be complaining about this more later so Il leave it at that.

Parents. Divorce. Dumb. Heh.. I feel kinda ergh about this.. because I guess if it makes em both happy then.. good riddance right? Okay selfish me: Couldn u stay together till I GOT MARRIED?! Itl be weird not seeing both my parents everyday when I get home.. but whats dumb is.. when I had that.... I took it for granted. I just went out with my friends instead. I didn want to be home. I HATED staying home.. I hated watching them fight. So instead, I left. Took my mind off things.. and just stayed with my friends. Even now when my parents are somewhat close by, I really don hang out with them much. We go eat out and stuff every now and then.... I dunno...but.... a lil resentment here and there? And now.. Daddy is moving to LA and mother in Murrietta.  Il prolly complain about this agen later.. so once more Il leave it at that.

The boyfriend. Ahh.. yes. For the past 9 or so months I have gotten used to the fact that he will always be there for me...when I need him. He was right there with me around the beginning of the school year and there till the end. He was there with the whole famjam deal going on... school stuff... pretty much everything...and then. In one day..one minute...one sentence. It gone. Funny how things work. You spend a hell of a lot of time making this person a bigger part of your life... and it only takes about a second to screw everything up. For the first few days it was difficult. I didn want to do anything.. eat anything.. see anybody. But after a few days I realized... why waste time moping. It not going to do ANYTHING... so I went out with the amigos. It was weird..... I was doing okay after all. Surprised me because I honestly thought I would be MISERABLE without him in my life The twisted part... I realized yesterday... I somewhat am. A part of me is missing. And I miss it. I mean I am doing okay and all.. keeping busy.. my friends making me LAUGH every other second... but that part of you just isn there. Ugh I not a hopeless dope... before this relationship Ie never really had anything that lasted more than 4 months. This is MY first Love. I had no idea that it would last this long,, I didn think I would tawk to him the way I do...need him the way that I needed him.....and I had NO IDEA it would hurt this much. ...And im guessing my 2^nd or 3^rd love will prolly hurt just as much or maybe even more. Before I was almost I dunno independent? Im good with or without u kinda person... changes. Hum bah. As for now, surprisingly we are friends. We Do talk still. And of course the feelins are still there. As hard as I tried.. u cant just get rid of those feelings in a day...  ergh. But 4 now im just hoping that it not gon be one of those Oh yeah wel be frends.. and 3 months later we never talk agen.  If anything I hate to loose him completely.. but who knoes? So I guess for now im good... or better than I thought I would be... but still missing it.  That that for now.

ME. haha I have DEFINITLEY changed A LOT... I dunno. Going through a lot right now. I dropped summer school.. a very unlike me thing to do.. but it was just one of those things I just dint need at the time. If im gon be in murrietta theres NO WAY I cud not miss 6 hours.... I just.. I dunno.. didn want to try. Why waste my time there if I couldn finish it? I rather spend it sleeping and with the amigos anyways.

Okay.. Optimismistic Horse Dooky:: This is For Chris.

Murrietta:: Okay.. so its like a fresh new start... some people are dying to start over... so yeah.

Ergh. I not though. I like who and where I am already?

Parents:: ummmk... yeah.

The single life:: it has been a LONGGGG Time since Ie been solo... for more than 2 or so months... so I guess I should embrace it.. have some fun? Haha how bout no.

Blah... this means im all blogged out. Haha prolli because theres more ppl online now.. distracting me soOoo...

So My life isn PERFECT... I don have the erfect?family....i not lways happy?...and of course I far from being perfect. I simply jenn .I a pretty darn selfish person. I in good health... I have a roof over my head.... great friends...food. Yet I still find something to complain about.  Don prop me for it.

Tootles.