August 20, 2013

  • Passage of Time

    The past few weeks have been full of strife.

    I am getting older and the passage of time is painful. Unfulfilled dreams, unreached goals glare at me. They point out my failures and my flaws.  I always thought I was destined to be more, just follow my heart and the rest will follow. But nothing did. Well, somethings did….but then they were pulled out from under me or taken away. As if someone said,”Whoops! My mistake. This is  not meant for YOU!”

    Life has become uncomfortable and tight. I try hard to find joy in things, but when I smile it hurts and is only a facade.

    The Passage of Time is painful.

July 16, 2013

  • It is has been a long time, old friends…

    Years. Many years since I last updated this blog. My last entry was in the summer 2008.My first summer in Japan and when my sister came to visit me. After that, I guess work and life got more in the way of my blogging. For that I apologize.  

    I spent a wonderful and frustrating 3  years in Japan. I made many friends. I learned some Japanese. I loved teaching/working with the kids.  I lived in small town and got to know many wonderful people who were so open and kind to me. Many people who come to Japan to teach run into so many issues/culture shock. I did eventually have some horrid culture shock moments, but that was when I decided it was time for  me to leave. I would have loved to make Japan my permanent home, but my family needed me. And I needed them. It was hard and painful to leave. I am still reeling and dealing with that move back home. It was like being pulled from the life of your dreams that slowly turned into a nightmare. I wish I could have done so many things differently. I left a HUGE part of myself in Japan.

    I don’t listen to as much Orange Range anymore, but during my time in Japan I did see them in concert twice. I joined the fanclub and it was great. I became a big fan of Tohoshinki (when they were 5) and saw them in concert once. I joined their fanclub too. I have great memories of the concerts I attended as well as some memorabilia. 

    Now, I am rebooting my career as a visual artist. It has been a very rough road so far in this economy. And I need as much help as possible. I have dream and vision that I want to share. I want to continue to touch lives and make a difference. So, i will post some personal stories from Japan from time to time. I will post some artwork too. 

    Thanks for standing by me when I disappeared.

     

    xoxo

August 18, 2008

  • I totally forgot

       I totally forgot, this was suppose to be my photo/video blog.
    I have some great pictures to share of my favorite subject: Flowers!

    First, the Tiger Lily. I love Tiger Lilies. They seem kinda magical to me.
    I like all lilies, but the Tiger Lily is special to me:

     

    The next flower is the Lotus. This flower is actually mystical and magical and oh so pretty.
    I could have stayed all day taking photos of these darlings:

May 19, 2008

  • Many apologies…

    I am sorry I have not posted sooner.
    I was without internet for almost a month and thought I was going to go batty!
    The flight to Japan was a long one. I almost lost my mind over Alaska. I remember it being too bright to open the shades and having this killer headache and  my legs were sore.
    PLUS I couldn’t fall asleep. It was bad, but it did get better. Once I got some food in me and took something for the pain.
    Here are few photos from the flight. I believe this near or actually Mt. McKinley in Alaska:

    I settled in my new apartment o’k. I was excited when I bought the following magazine:

    and look….

    But this was the best part:


    yeah, I am dumbass…I didn’t rotate the photo before uploading it…blah.
    I can’t wait to pick up the KCB single on Wednesday! I was concerned about whether or not I would be near a CD store or not.
    There is plenty of shopping in my area. Speaking of CD’s, OMG buying CDs here is no joke. The equivalent of $40 fucking bucks!!!
    Oh, that OR cd better the ultimate shit!! I can’t even imagine…I always thought that price was some international shopping mark up bullshit…but no.
    And I need printer…a printer I can pay between $50 and $70 bucks for in the states cost the equivalent of $165 to $200 dollars. What the hell is that about?

    This week I will finally get a contract phone so I can do the spice at OR thing…oh yeah..I need to join RA don’t I…hmmm yeah, better put that on my calendar of things to do!!
    XOXO

April 18, 2008

  • I’m off…

    Everything is packed and I am all set to go!!
    My biggest worry is getting from the airport in Japan to my hotel.
    A company rep is suppose to meet me, but I haven’t heard word about who, if anyone, will meet me.

    Once I am settled, I will feel better.
    But yeah, by this time tomorrow I will be over the Pacific Ocean. AWESOME!

    XOXO

April 12, 2008

  • Touching Base

    Hi Friends!!!
    Down to my last week and so much still has to be done.
    My goal tonight is to pack some boxes for shipping later, although at this very moment I feel very tired. I would climb into my bed but

    Yeah that is my bed under all that crap!!!
    I just want to chill out for a while. The thing is that whatever needs to get done will get done because that is how it works in my world. There is a lot of administrative tasks I must carry out before Thursday. My first concerns are to contact the State Department and contact the bank (about changing currencies).
    I need to study more. I mean, I will be pretty much illiterate over there (which I hate) but I will pick it up fast. I have no choice in the matter.
    Wanna see a purty picture???

    And now for the guy I will probably miss and worry about the most:


    He is really my sister’s dog, but I do care about him. I told him I am a bad owner and that he will be find without me.
    We just lost my precious Kitty Ike in November and now I am leaving. I worry about his mental health. But I promised Kitty Ike then after he died I would do something great, that I would live my dreams freely.

    So, I will take a rest for a while and then get to work.

April 4, 2008

  • How deep is your love?!?!

    I am taking a moment from not really packing to share my latest Orange Range purchases.
    I have some CD singles on the way, but that is not what has been so excited.
    It is this package:

    My recent purchases from YHJ Auctions are tour swag from the 2006 Fantazical Tour (well a tour book) and the fun box from the 2007 Step by Singin Tourist tour. Y’all it has a truck and stickers. Two huge photo books, a poster, a face towel (?), a folder thingie…how awesome! So worth it


    I paid a leg and 3 fingers for express shipping because I wanted to have before I moved to Japan.
    So, yup, I will box it right back up and have queued for shipping later.

    Orange Range has a new single coming out May 28th…can’t wait!!

March 31, 2008

  • Zero hour..

    Yes, that is what the next 3 weeks are for me..”Zero Hour.”
    Today I made very little progress. I managed to narrow down what shoes to take:

    I’m still not sure about the clog type shoes. And I still need to get my “indoors” shoes. According the company manual, I will need one pair of indoor shoes for school, indoor “sneakers” for the gym, and outdoor “sneakers” for outdoors school activities. This is in addition to my “house” shoes.
    I have tried explaining this to my dad. Because I have long feet (size 10US, narrow), I doubt I will be able to walk into a shoe store in Japan and find what I need. I am not a small person either. By US standards I am fat, but I am average (we are fat nation..). In Japan, I know I will considered Jabba the Hut…I think “plus” size there is like…10 or 12 (US sizes). While I can hope to get down to that size again, I am not that size now…so I must take as much clothing as I can carry. This is not an easy move for a big girl .

    Ack, I just realized I updated my browser and that my smiley central toolbar is gone .
    Right, right…lost my train of thought. RIGHT.
    So I set out my “professional” and “dress” attire. My “casual” attire will not be separated and packed until the last week.
    My goal for tomorrow is to finish going through the bottom of the closet. and work on packing up the studio.

March 30, 2008

  • Wait for it….wait for it…

    and I’ve got nothing.
    Not really. I’m just very bored right now.
    My sister came down for the day. I found some nice blouses at Target and a cute cardigan…
    I order some more from Target online. I need to buy a larger sizes to accomodate my bosoms and the store doesn’t always carry what I need.
    Wow, I am really cold.
    I may play some Castlevania. I haven’t played in a while I think I stuck on a particular level on Portrait of Ruin.

    yeah, that is about it. I changed my desktop again…yikes I need to transfer my files over to the laptop ::making a list of things to do::

March 28, 2008

  • My Day of Rest…

    Yes, I had a most restful day.
    I didn’t really do much.
    I do have this crazy craving for iced coffee.
    I went to Starbucks and got a grande iced coffee
    as well as getting schooled by the manager/owner on
    why I couldn’t order a iced cappuccino. Sue me for wanting
    to try something different. She talked really fast and was kind of
    annoying. But I knew she was only trying to help…not be
    a condescending know it all..

    Did y’all see the POD wallpaper on the Xanga page.
    I totally forgot about POD..and Korn..oh how I love some
    Korn.

    No new pictures today, but I do have this:

    Kinetic Artificial Replicant Manufactured for Immediate Exploration
    Get Your Cyborg Name


    Yes, immediate exploration…lol