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LadyOfShiva
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Country: United States
State: Massachusetts
Metro: Springfield
Birthday: 10/8/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: Buddhism, Theology, Metaphysics, Astronomy, Physics, Quantum, Music of pretty much any sort (excluding country and 3/4 of hiphop), listening to my parrot sing and chitter with the music, Hello Kitty, Inuyasha, World Of Warcraft, Antiques, Coffee, Chocolate, Reading (usually about the occult or more religions), Gardening, the Mountains, Hiking, Hugging Trees! And reading Tarot and using other divining methods.
Expertise: Expertise? I guess you can say I am good, not an expert, at helping people. Listening is a trait I posess, and giving the right thing to say. Doesn't mean I always heed my own advice though, that makes me less than expert in it, eh? Beyond that, I'm told I know everything. I think I just know everything about nothing, but even nothing counts, too!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  PhoenixOfAthena
MSN: ladyofshiva@hotmail.com
Member Since:
2/16/2005
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| This is what I am supposed to feel, but don't know how too, anymore.
Give me release
witness me
I am outside
give me peace
Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides
In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe
Passion chokes the flower
'til she cries no more
possessing all the beauty
hungry still for more
Heaven holds a sense of wonder...
I can't help this longing
comfort me
I can't hold it all in
if you won't let me
Heaven holds a sense of wonder...
In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe
I have seen you
in this white wave
you are silent
you are breathing
in this white wave
I am free
My plan for the next week is lose myself in the delicious stream of
alcohol. Think ill of me all you want. You don't have to live with this.
"Stupid"
Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady there now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes
[Chorus:]
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you
[Chorus]
everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know
[Chorus]
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| *almost cries* My head hurts from my ears....I just got sized today,
and went up 2 guages, now my bottom set is sittin at an 8g. The
endorphines have run out, and now I feel all...crappy. Only a few more
hours and the pain will subside...a few more hours. *sighs* But it is
so worth it. I got my blue buffallo claws put in, so now they look
really good, instead of just the s. steel rings.
So we're leaving for Baltimore in about an hour. Which is totally cool.
I'm really excited to get out and about. I won't get much of a chance
to see the city, but I do get to see a friend I've never met in person,
lol. We've been talking for like 5 years, and the time has finally
come! Yay!
I have no idea what else to write. Bleerrrrr.
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The Special Practice Of Buddha Akshobhya
There
is a powerful deity of purification called Mitrugpa who is a
manifestation of Akshobhya. There are tremendous benefits to be had
from reciting his mantra and even seeing his image or mantra written
(refer to "Weekly Meditations" on the left side, and another will be
written after). Practicing the mantra is said to be extremely powerful
for "rescueing" those who have fallen into the lower realms of
existence. The Venerable Ribur Rinpoche, one of Lama Kyabje Zopa
Rinpoche's gurus, says it, ...
- Purifies all negativities accumulated in past lives
- Prevents the ripening of past negative actions
- Purifies the five extreme negatives of killing
your mother, killing your father, killing an arhat (a saint), causing a
buddha to shed blood, and causing disharmony among the spiritual
community of monks or nuns.
- Purifies all inauspicious signs arising from negative actions
- Has the power to reverse untimely death
- Prevents all those who hear it (animals and
humans) from falling into the three lower realms (the animal realm, the
hungry ghosts realm, and the hell realm)
- Has the power to rescue anyone who has been dead a
long time from the hell realm, if you recite it 100,000 times and
dedicate it to that person
- Has the power to prevent any corpse that may be
one week old from being reborn in any of the three lower realms, if it
is recited 100,000 times over sand, sesame seed, or flour, which is
then sprinkled on the head of the dead person.
- Has the power to purify all negative karma,
thereby protecting a person from entering the lower realms, even if
they have committed very heavy karma-if, while dying or at the instant
of death, they see the mantra in written form.*
The name Akshobhya means "Immovable" or "Unshakable." Akshobhya's
Mirrorlike Wisdom reflects all things calmly and uncritically
and--reveals their true nature. One text says,"Just as one sees one's
own reflection in a mirror, so the Dharmakaya is seen in the Mirror of
Wisdom."10 Mirrorlike Wisdom antidotes the poison of hatred and anger.
In the mandala of the Five Dhyani Buddhas, Akshobhya is usually
positioned in the east (which is at the bottom) but he is sometimes
placed in the center. His color is blue. He rules over the element of
water and personifies the skandha of form. In some systems, he is
associated with the skandha of consciousness. Akshobhya's lotus throne
is supported by the elephant, symbol of steadfastness and strength.
His symbol is the vajra, also called the thunderbolt or diamond
scepter. It is depicted in this mandala above his head, directly below
Vairochana. The vajra denotes enlightenment, the indestructible,
adamantine nature of pure consciousness, or the essence of Reality. In
some traditions the vajra signifies the union of man and the Buddha;
one end of the vajra symbolizes the macrocosmic realm of the Buddha and
the other end the microcosmic realm of man.
Akshobhya's mudra, shown here formed by his right hand, is the
bhumisparsha mudra, the earth-touching gesture. It denotes
unshakability. This is the mudra Gautama Buddha used
to summon the earth to witness to his right to attain enlightenment
when he was challenged by the Evil One, Mara.
Akshobhya's paradise is Abhirati, the Land of Exceeding
Great Delight. Buddhists believe that whoever is reborn there
cannot fall back to a lower level of consciousness. Akshobhya's bija is Hum.**
*The Buddha Book, Lillian Too
**Indrabhuti, Jnanasiddhi, quoted in Govinda, Foundations of Tibetan Mysticism, p. 113.
OM AKSHOBHYA HUM
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| I was asked today to help in spreading the word of the Buddha in subtle
messages as much as I can, so I have decided to change my "Daily
Dharma" section to "Weekly Meditations" of Buddhist nature. I will also
talk of more of my views on Buddhism more often than I have (well,
haven't really). But I will make this one statement as a disclaimer:
"The
views depicted in this journal are not to be looked at as the opinion
of the "One True Religion". I respect any religious path, and emphasize
religious freedom to anyone. Nowhere will you see the idea that I
believe that everyone should follow Buddhism or it's relations. I give
the meditations and talks and thoughts on Dharma to not only benefit
myself in learning, also to allow others to digest it and form their
own opinions and feedback."
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| I went in yesterday and I got my lower piercings stretched. It was
awesome, because they so didn't hurt, so on Wed I'm going back in to
size up again before we leave for Baltimore. I also got my second set
re-pierced, which hurt like a bitch. Going through scar tissue is not
fun at all. But it will be well worth the pain when they heal and are
up to my desired size.
Oh dear...we got a thunderstorm coming...will be back!
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