I wish I knew how to control the universe.  . . to make ervything perfect.

But I know that is impossible. . .

So now I am here. . .

Alone. . . allthough Ive felt this my whole life it seems,  I hate this feeling more than any other. . .

No one to call your own.

No one to be with you.

No one to laugh with you.

No one to make you happy.

Life is miserable when your alone.

FUCK YOU WOMEN.

You all do the same shit. . . Irrational, Immature. . . a list that I cant even think about right now. . . I hate how im always the bad person, , ,no matter how hard I try. I always end up being the person wrong in a relationship. . .Its Bullshit.

WHY AM I ALONE?!?!?!

I talk to everyone and they all say the same. . . "why dont you have a girlfriend?" "Your so cute"  "Your a great guy"  "your so loveable" "Id go out with you but, I dont want to ruin our friendship"

I cant take this stupid shit anymore. . .

Its rediculous. . .ok so yea, It makes me happy when you girls say these things. . .but it doesnt do shit for me. . .. I feel like Im being lied to..  .If Im such a great guy they whynot take the risk?

Im done. . .

pissed off I guess. . .

Ed

To all my friends who might posibly read this. . .

FUCK YOU!!!

no actually. . .

I LOVE YOU!!!

hahaha

Ed

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mmmm. . . I was wondering. . .why do I make a new xanga after I cant figure out what the problem is in the last one? I figured the problem on this site . . . I think I can fix my other one too. . . hmmm. . .

well just thought I would say hi form here. . . . boredomd rules. . .

Yea so im bored and I decided to post from this site. . . just cus I can. . so yea. . .

HI!

lol

Ed

Ok so there is a Halo 2 Tournament this saturday. . . I am still not sure whos going or even if im going to go. . .I want to hang out saturday and Ive been dying to play in a tournament. . . this could be the door Ive been waiting to open. ..  im just not sure yet. . . I dotn want to piss anyone off by saying that Im gonna go.  . . but I still dont have any money to go. . . I need a team of four . . . I would really like. . . Randy, Greg, Nghia and myself as the team . . .no offence to the other guys. . . I just beleive this is the best chances of a victory. . . I could say. . .hey guys lets bring all eight of us . . but I just dont know. . . that would mean our team alone will be giving the holders $120 just to get in. . . and if we were to lose. . . it would have been a waste of money. . .  I think that the people who I ask are the best on the team . . . and I dont want to piss George or Bob off about this. . .i mean . . . you guys are good at playing its just if I had to pick four. . . it would be Randy, Greg and Nghia to come with me. . .  and then I dont know. . . I do want George, Bob, Nhan and Rusty to go. . . but really. . .  I dont see Rusty coming. . .he's too busy. . . i dont see Nhan coming. . . im sure he will be at work too. . . so that leaves George and Bob left. . . It will cost $3 for people who arnt playing in the tournament for feee play. . .

I already asked Raqndy and he said He will think about it. . . and I dont know if he will say yes yet. Greg wants to go. . .  Nghia. . .haha I forgot to ask him . . .ill call him now...................... he says yes so i have three . . .looking for the fourth. .  .If Randy says no , then Im askin George. . .

welll . . . .gimme some comments on this topic. . .

Pyrax TG