I wish I knew how to control the universe.  . . to make ervything perfect.

But I know that is impossible. . .

So now I am here. . .

Alone. . . allthough Ive felt this my whole life it seems,  I hate this feeling more than any other. . .

No one to call your own.

No one to be with you.

No one to laugh with you.

No one to make you happy.

Life is miserable when your alone.

FUCK YOU WOMEN.

You all do the same shit. . . Irrational, Immature. . . a list that I cant even think about right now. . . I hate how im always the bad person, , ,no matter how hard I try. I always end up being the person wrong in a relationship. . .Its Bullshit.

WHY AM I ALONE?!?!?!

I talk to everyone and they all say the same. . . "why dont you have a girlfriend?" "Your so cute"  "Your a great guy"  "your so loveable" "Id go out with you but, I dont want to ruin our friendship"

I cant take this stupid shit anymore. . .

Its rediculous. . .ok so yea, It makes me happy when you girls say these things. . .but it doesnt do shit for me. . .. I feel like Im being lied to..  .If Im such a great guy they whynot take the risk?

Im done. . .

pissed off I guess. . .

Ed