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Yesterday was definitely one of the longest days of my life. It started out great: Chris and I decided to go kayaking (neither one of us had ever gone before) there in Charleston. It was awesome: really pretty and lots of fun. We made one mistake, however: we decided to wear flip-flops. :)

Chris got out of the kayak at one point, slipped on some rocks, and cut his feet up really bad on some barnacles. So I drove him to the emergency room. They ended up doping him up on morphine and cleaning the crap out of his feet. Ouch. I was sad because I had to leave him there at the emergency room when his roomate zach came. At that point it was already 7:00 and I had a 5 hour drive home last night. But he is okay - but can you imagine the pain? Ouch. Sitting in the emergency and  having him go into shock bc of blood loss is definitely an experience I don't want to have again.

All in all though, it was a good weekend. I got the sun I wanted: burnt from being out on the river all day. And I got to spend time with Chris, which I don't get to do very often and when he is deployed in June I won't for a long time. Definitely a good early birthday present. :)

I am so excited about this weekend. Going to Charleston to hang out on the beach all day with Chris and his friends. I need a vacation like this: low cost, low stress and a break from everyday life. Should be fun - an early chance to work on my tan. Besides, its my senior year, and I am not done enjoying my last few weeks of high school just yet. :)

I need a lot of faith at the moment.

Some burdens are too heavy for me to bear alone.

First, I must confess that this train of thought is not original. However, no matter who inspired it, it is true regardless...

An observation: its that time of year. Spring, end of the school year, beginning of new lives. And yet, it is sad. Because the old things are being left behind. Not only as a senior but as a individual, I feel like I am inbetween lives. It has just hit me that I have lost the past year: a big year. Exactly one year ago from today I was preparing to go to Venezuela. Within the next two months, I would have gone on the trip, gone to prom, begun dating my first boyfriend, found out I was moving, incurred major church drama and left my church, and also: begun on my trek to where I am today. I realize that all the drama that has gone on this past year (a ton, believe me) all has had a purpose. Besides working in different parts of my life, I feel a lil wiser for it. I dont want to claim that I know everything, because I dont. I still have a lot to learn and a long way to grow. But I know that, because I have had to face some hard things and overcome some major issues, I am better prepared to enter that next phase of my life. Which brings me back to my point. Its spring. Its time to evaluate who we are, where we have been and where are we going.