DANG!! It has been so long since I have blogged on Xanga!!! Freaking Myspace!!! haha...I guess a lot of things has happened.  Nothing that I can't handle of course.  Jk...Course I'd have people there for me only when I need them.  I wouldn't just want them, i'd have to need them.  Get what i'm saying???   I made foolish decisions this summer and got learned from many of my mistakes.  Er, I finally got over the only person who literally took my breath away.  Yeah, that was really hard to do. Its dumb how people can just bluntly say, "Get over it already.  Move on.  There's plenty of other people out there." Uh, excuse me, that isn't the point here.  If someone out there has your heart and you truely love them, how could you just forget about them instantly?  Sorry, but I don't work that way.  Speaking of work; I had my second intern this summer.  She's alright, a little too immature to be working though.  Because she was in a summer intern program, we couldn't fire her.  She had the guts to tell the Manager, to her face, that there was no work to be done.  At that time i was on vacation.  So when i came back and the Manager spoke with me, my face was literaly like ....cause i swear i left so much work for her to do, and she's pretty slow so i knew she couldn't really finish it within a week...so i have no idea what she was thinking...and my Manager was like, "I wanted to @&($&(%^@#!^!(&#!(!!!!!!(*($&#^!!!!!" and so on.  Its nice having an intern every summer though.  There will be times where i would have an intern that i will bump heads with or get along very well with.  My first intern, we got along very well.  I am happy about that cause well that was my first time having an intern.  I kind of shocked me though...My second intern, she was alright, we bumped heads in the beginning and got along well enough through the summer.  Everything got hectic after school started.  My dumbass was like, "I miss school, i miss doing homework, etc." Once school started..."Can i quite now?" Lol, Jk.  Nah,I just can't hang with school in the morning...I learned my lesson. Shiet when i get my car -Yes i'm paying for my own car and ins and all- I'm going to work in the morning instead and go to school in the afternoon!!!! Or, well at least don't have any class until after 9..cause seriously...man...I'm not a morning person anymore.  I'm still shocked that i used to wake up at 6 just to go to elementary, middle, and high school...WOWzers...I like college so far though...=)....I met new people, made friends, hung out with old buddies of mine...and I met someone too...surprisingly...It was wierd..cause...everytime i see him i want to put him in a headlock..is that normal? haha...and i'm always getting the urge to just hug him or just mess with him, i really can't keep my hands off of him...hah...i'm so wierd...but...he really is a nice guy treated wrong by ex girls of his...the nice ones are always stepped on...*sigh*...Its been a really long time since i've actualy come to er...like someone i guess you can say...=)

it isn't fair how i was looked at to be the bad guy all the time when for once i don't give into what ever you force upon me, i knew nothing in life was fair, and i know sometimes no matter how strong willed you are you just gotta give in, but those times are over for me, i thought that maybe the people in my life would make me balanced, but then again, i have to do everything myself...all over again...it was wrong of me to depend on anyone but me...
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just the thought of you makes me weak...
~LazyOn3~

Through everyday that I make out alive isn't just another day that I have lived and survived, It was the ending to the next beginning not knowing what holds for tomorrow, no matter how much you plan out your life, and days, it doesn't mean everything falls through as planned, who is to say that we'll make it to the next day, who knows what might happend tomorrow, the next few hours, minutes hex, why not dah next couple of seconds? We might not know what holds for next day, for our future, but theres just only one things I have always done my whole 16 years of living. All I Ever Wanted To Do Is Live My Life Showing How Much I Love You
~LazyOn3~

In The End, With No Hope For The Next Beginning, I Was A Fool That EveryOne Made Fun Of, I Was The Fool In Every Single Joke, I Was The Fool In The End After All, I Don't Care Of What Words Others May Say About Me, But When It Comes From The Mouth Of Those You Love So Dear, It Hurts A Thousand Times More Than A Friend Stabbing You From The Back, I Have Given EveryThing Up, I Never Ever Expected AnyThing Back, Only Love, Yet Again, I Was A Fool To Believe In Such, THING, Love, I Knew That Love Is A Bitch When It Comes To Relationships, But When It Is Family Love, My Whole Life, Nothing But DRAMA, But, I Always Believed In This Faimly Love, Now, Now I Have No Idea, Now, I Am Not Even Sure If It Even Exists Any More, Life Couldn't Throw AnyThing At Me To Make Me Fall And Not Get Up, Family Love Is What Kept Me Alive All These Years, But When This Love Slowly Fades Away, When It Is Finally Given Up and Gone, I Will Also Be Gone, Because Life WithOut Love, Is A Life Not Worth Living....

~LazyOne~