Lazy_PigLet's Xanga

College

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 02:28:25 GMT

DANG!! It has been so long since I have blogged on Xanga!!! Freaking Myspace!!! haha...I guess a lot of things has happened. Nothing that I can't handle of course. Jk...Course I'd have people there for me only when I need them. I wouldn't just want them, i'd have to need them. Get what i'm saying??? I made foolish decisions this summer and got learned from many of my mistakes. Er, I finally got over the only person who literally took my breath away. Yeah, that was really hard to do. Its dumb how people can just bluntly say, "Get over it already. Move on. There's plenty of other people out there." Uh, excuse me, that isn't the point here. If someone out there has your heart and you truely love them, how could you just forget about them instantly? Sorry, but I don't work that way. Speaking of work; I had my second intern this summer. She's alright, a little too immature to be working though. Because she was in a summer intern program, we couldn't fire her. She had the guts to tell the Manager, to her face, that there was no work to be done. At that time i was on vacation. So when i came back and the Manager spoke with me, my face was literaly like ....cause i swear i left so much work for her to do, and she's pretty slow so i knew she couldn't really finish it within a week...so i have no idea what she was thinking...and my Manager was like, "I wanted to @&($&(%^@#!^!(&#!(!!!!!!(*($&#^!!!!!" and so on. Its nice having an intern every summer though. There will be times where i would have an intern that i will bump heads with or get along very well with. My first intern, we got along very well. I am happy about that cause well that was my first time having an intern. I kind of shocked me though...My second intern, she was alright, we bumped heads in the beginning and got along well enough through the summer. Everything got hectic after school started. My dumbass was like, "I miss school, i miss doing homework, etc." Once school started..."Can i quite now?" Lol, Jk. Nah,I just can't hang with school in the morning...I learned my lesson. Shiet when i get my car -Yes i'm paying for my own car and ins and all- I'm going to work in the morning instead and go to school in the afternoon!!!! Or, well at least don't have any class until after 9..cause seriously...man...I'm not a morning person anymore. I'm still shocked that i used to wake up at 6 just to go to elementary, middle, and high school...WOWzers...I like college so far though...=)....I met new people, made friends, hung out with old buddies of mine...and I met someone too...surprisingly...It was wierd..cause...everytime i see him i want to put him in a headlock..is that normal? haha...and i'm always getting the urge to just hug him or just mess with him, i really can't keep my hands off of him...hah...i'm so wierd...but...he really is a nice guy treated wrong by ex girls of his...the nice ones are always stepped on...*sigh*...Its been a really long time since i've actualy come to er...like someone i guess you can say...=)

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 01:13:12 GMT

it isn't fair how i was looked at to be the bad guy all the time when for once i don't give into what ever you force upon me, i knew nothing in life was fair, and i know sometimes no matter how strong willed you are you just gotta give in, but those times are over for me, i thought that maybe the people in my life would make me balanced, but then again, i have to do everything myself...all over again...it was wrong of me to depend on anyone but me...
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just the thought of you makes me weak...
~LazyOn3~

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 05:35:05 GMT

oh yea, haha, i'm on academic probation..dats stupid...teheheh

All I Ever Wanted To Do

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 05:01:43 GMT

Through everyday that I make out alive isn't just another day that I have lived and survived, It was the ending to the next beginning not knowing what holds for tomorrow, no matter how much you plan out your life, and days, it doesn't mean everything falls through as planned, who is to say that we'll make it to the next day, who knows what might happend tomorrow, the next few hours, minutes hex, why not dah next couple of seconds? We might not know what holds for next day, for our future, but theres just only one things I have always done my whole 16 years of living. All I Ever Wanted To Do Is Live My Life Showing How Much I Love You
~LazyOn3~

its hard to wake up

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 03:00:59 GMT

In The End, With No Hope For The Next Beginning, I Was A Fool That EveryOne Made Fun Of, I Was The Fool In Every Single Joke, I Was The Fool In The End After All, I Don't Care Of What Words Others May Say About Me, But When It Comes From The Mouth Of Those You Love So Dear, It Hurts A Thousand Times More Than A Friend Stabbing You From The Back, I Have Given EveryThing Up, I Never Ever Expected AnyThing Back, Only Love, Yet Again, I Was A Fool To Believe In Such, THING, Love, I Knew That Love Is A Bitch When It Comes To Relationships, But When It Is Family Love, My Whole Life, Nothing But DRAMA, But, I Always Believed In This Faimly Love, Now, Now I Have No Idea, Now, I Am Not Even Sure If It Even Exists Any More, Life Couldn't Throw AnyThing At Me To Make Me Fall And Not Get Up, Family Love Is What Kept Me Alive All These Years, But When This Love Slowly Fades Away, When It Is Finally Given Up and Gone, I Will Also Be Gone, Because Life WithOut Love, Is A Life Not Worth Living....

~LazyOne~

Right here Right now

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 23:50:44 GMT

*My Feelings, and Thoughts* I need to know something, I know that I would definetly marry you. I know someday i'll hold give birth to your child. But i need to know, if you're willing to stand by my side for the rest of my life. You have been by my side for over 10 years now, and we haven't parted yet. But if i married you, gave you all i have, my sould, my shattered heart and everything that makes me who I am, will you change? Will you not be the man i will marry will you not be the same goofy guy i fell for ages ago? Will i not be the person you have imagined you would spend the rest of your life with?? I need to know allthse things i just need to know if i'm willing to give my all to you will you stay the same for me? will your love your goofy ways change? i never cared about looks because all i can do is just keep my eyes on you, yea we probably check out girls here and there i know you do, i know you know i check out guys, but hey we can look but we can't touch right? tehehehe...man...i just lover you....

Too bad i can't tell him all of this...lolz it would soo feel weird! cuz i wrote him this long ass poem and i wrote out all of my feelings to him once already and i told him in person how much i love him.... so there ain't no point in saying it over n over wen you know the answer already

You want to know the funniest thing? We may not be together at this moment, but we both know for sure we will end up together to the end to the next beginning....i think that's funny...

sure sure i noe ppls are thinking that forever never lasts, well of course not duh! who said i'd love him forever? i'll love him even after i die and he'll love me wen he's a snake...lolz (inside joke wid him)....huy...

I wanna know, is anything worth it anymore

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 02:33:34 GMT

Its hard for me to tell you I love you all the time I noe, it may seem like i'm playing with your heart I'm not trying too I really do love you It's just that, everytime i'm with you, i feel as if i was a child I so childish when i'm with you, when i feel that love from you While your just looking at me with that smile i love Its funny how you act more mature than me in the relationship I didn't mean to do what i did I meant everything that i wrote I meant everything Sometimes i regret meeting you, because i think you would be better off with someone who would treat you better I am the happiest person when i'm around you i don't know how, but somehow you end up rescuing me from my sorrows even just for a few moments of happiness you don't mind at all i can't understand why, but when i'm with you i'm so scared to lose you, even though you always tell me that i don't have to worry a thing that i can trust you no matter what happens. i know that i just can't help myself because all this seems a little too good to be true to me. it's almost like a fairy tale, a fantasy, something so unreal. something that everyone in this whole world is searching for to find that one true love i know that i love you is there any doubts? i don't know what to think anymore i don't know what to do i dont doubt this love i have for you each year that passes by my love grows stronger and stronger as i'm growing old with you i have no idea what i am trying to say, i guess i'm just trying to let these emotions out even if they don't make any sense at all...I do know one thing though, I Solenna Lover Narong, and nothing can change that....

We known each other for 10 years, I have loved you for 7 plus more years and i've been with you for 6 years maybe even more???

~LazyOne~

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 05:44:30 GMT

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 02:28:14 GMT

I only wish that one day can come sooner and i can finally breathe again. I can finaly live once more. Everyday i put this smile on but really i'm sufficating, drowning in my sorrows. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, my tears aren't rolling down my eyes because i have everthing takened away from me. But its because everyone i love and hold dear and close to my heart, has finally lost hope, they finally confessed thier true feelings, this time, it is the end, with out love, there is nothing, there is no more tomorrow for me...

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 00:06:47 GMT

I need to know what I need to do in life because I don't know what to do now a days. I need to know how to get away from all of this I know that I'm not a lone and that everyone goes through the same things but I'm out of answers I don't know what to do and I just can't help but think that maybe just maybe I can't do anything at all maybe just maybe I can't even move on I mean how do you really know if you can do anything I know that if you spent your mind to doing something that you can do anything everything in the world but its easier to say things than to actually do things if you know what I mean though its easier for me to say that I'm going to make it to the next day that I'm goint to live a full life a full day tomorrow but who's to say that I will, will I? who knows, I don't certainly don't know, I could even be dreaming right now, who noes the difference between dreaming, and living we could be dreaming while we dink we are dreaming, wising hoping believing and dreaming, things that I used to do things that I thought things, I thought...they were just thoughts, you can't do anything while thinking wow you can write you can type you can walk and talk and do things but can you make a difference by just wishing something would happen by hoping that someday will come and believe what you "see" or "hear" and dreaming your world away all of these things are just my thoughts, I always say I form my thoughts into stained words on a piece of paper, poetry is my way of life poetry is my world letting my feelings go expressing them on a piece of paper never meant for anyone to read, that's me, its my life but, is that really enough? could it really fulfill this life I have to live only once that I can remember before I pass and reincarnate into a new life trying to figure out the same things? I don't know, I have no idea, these, are just my thoughts. (for now)

~LazyOne~