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| I've realized I'm the only one that looks here. I still come here to be able to remember things.
Well, I left College in October, I miss it badly. I broke up with Pammie, I don't feel a bit of remorse, or pain. I lose feelings in an instant.
But, there was someone else, though I'd never tell her that... I had feelings for Danielle the whole time. I told her that Danielle was hot, but I'd never mess with her... I was lying through my teeth. Danielle haunted my thoughts, my emotions for the 3 months and change that we were together. I loved Pammie, yes. But love is shrouded by the feelings that I had for Danielle. I don't know what the hell it is about the girl, but she's the plague of my mind. It decays when the thought of her never giving me a try enters it.
I know she doesn't wanna get hurt, but who does? If one must go through life being too scared to being hurt to try and find love, does one want to find it all that badly? I'm damned sure I need to find it. I can't live life scared of being hurt. I never have, never will.
But oh, Danielle, she's got a daughter already. I know I always said I'd never date a girl that had a kid, but it's for some reason applealing to me at this point. I want a family and to be in the environment where I can settle down and focus on some life goals that I've been un-able to reach. (Family being one)
I guess she doesn't understand how I feel or somthing. I can't explain it, nor do I want to know why. But the girl has somthing about her, somthing that I'm drawn to. I need to find out what, and find out if it's somthing that I need.
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| Yeah so I've moved in and I've begun my college adventure. With FROG
week over, I'm left nearly bald. I have so much pride in my uniform and
my new life style. I've been thinking and when I say thinking, I mean
thinking very hard and deeply, I feel like the Army is the place for me.
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| Well, haven't been here in a long time. If you're reading this, HI JARRON!!!!
Now, for the entry
I've met someone new, she's really cool, and we're going to college together, both staying on campus. Her name's Emily, and who knows what lies there between us. Friends, or somthing... More. Who knows.
She's really cute too, so that helps alot.
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| I'm bored and I dont' want to go to work tomorrow. But I'm too tired to do anything. I think I'll go to bed and sleep and go to work and then go to sleep and then go to school and sleep and come home and go to work..... Sounds like fun.. Screw that, that no it doesn't. It sounds like it's going to suck.
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| WHOA update needed. I just got back from one of the greatest nights I've ever had. I'm in the process of rebuilding a friendship with what used to be my best friend. So I got up this morning and went and bought everyone in the house breakfast. Then I went and bought Casey's coursage. Like 22 buxzors. Jeez. Then I went and washed the car. Then I took the 40 minute drive to Casey's house... But I LEFT HER COURSAGE IN THE FRIDGE. I felt so stupid when I walked in her house and I realized... I forgot it. So I was sitting there like DO'H!!!! She walked outta her room in the basement, walked up the stairs. She was soooo goregous. I didn't know what to think, she was just amazing. I got a booty dance outta the deal  . Lol. Casey wasn't much of a dancer, she says that she doesn't like it. Then we go to Family Fun Center, but Zack gets lost getting there, so we just say F it and go to his house were we woudl watch a movie and play Twister. Casey and I decided that it was getting late and that we should be heading home, she had a long drive to go. And now here I am being fat kid Zeb eating up the night.
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