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Name: Jason
Country: United States
State: District of Columbia
Metro: Washington D.C.
Birthday: 12/2/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Stuff... sports... spirituality... different cultures... people... laughing and joking...
Expertise: Being a sociology major and attempting to do research.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  leadbyfire
Member Since:
3/6/2005
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| That Place...Life is always challenging. Always learning, always making mistakes, and never able to live peacefully within characteristics which are dangerous to self and others for long.
Kicking, crawling, bleeding, crying... There's a Space that I'm pursuing.
Thank God for the difficulties laced with lessons and challenges.
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| Life.... Life.... Life...Life has been a theme around here this year. Recently, it seems to have changed some. I don't know if I'm going to wrestle with it so much. I'd rather seek to live it and learn from it. I don't know... it's 5am and I may just be saying bunch of crap at this specific moment, but... life may be about to change as I know it.
God is awesome...
He's never restricted....
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| Attritional intervals...Time after time... day after day.
Something befalls me that's just difficult to deal with. Such is life.
The most significant aspects of this all is how the battles that I'm facing seem to be so versatile, as they consist of not only external difficulties, but internal one's as well.
Right now, my life has consisted of some really rocky research. So many ups and so many down, yet there's been some great learning experiences. Most have been lessons from mistakes, sadly, but happily they still remain learning experiences. The strangest part is that most of the mistakes were not directly related to specific parts of research.
I'm not sure what the following month after research is looking like exactly. I'm taking a summer class, and hopefully I'll find a job. But, I need adventure in my life. There's so much unchartered territory in my life still. Plus, I really don't think I've been on an actual vacation in YEARS. I've traveled places here and there, but those weren't exactly the sit in the sun, explore new surroundings, care free on a budget, type of travels, they weren't vacations. But, I think a vacation would be really nice.
My fingernails are quite dirty... O well....
Japanese Steakhouse tomorrow.... sounds good.
TV seems to be more and more useless every day. Somebody please remind me why people get paid MILLIONS to act? Are they really that great and significant? If somebody wants to entertain me try to be a bit more relevant and realistic. I tend to care less about the unrealistic life of a man who either isn't aware of his surroundings and the extent of life's troubles or he ignores them.
My niacin intake is beast. I'll be good in that supply for weeks.
Screams, gunshots, and sirens continue outside. Who will intercede?
I'm getting my plane ticket home for a week.
Dueces!
I like have another camp accompany me. Much more secure....
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| The Ongoing Circle of Life...Life... life... life.... that just so happens to be my main topic throughout this year. LIFE...
It's constant, never takes breaks, and always finds a way to carve out a huge section of my thoughts. It causes me to reason, wrestle, cry, and sigh. Reasoning seems to be a significant characteristics of life that I encounter often. That's where the ongoing circle of life comes into play. Repeatedly, I encounter new situations, new people, new places; changes, transitions, transformations occur in my surroundings and in me.
It's kind of like a linebacker who faces TOTALLY different offenses every game; from the option to zone blocking, to spread sets to run heavy sets. Every game, there's totally different sets coming against the linebacker and he has to find a way to be effective in understanding the defensive schemes, the individual players (tendencies, weaknesses, strengths), and the best scheme to defend against the offense.
To speak in regular English, life continues to progress and I am continuously encountering new situations. Some which I have to answer to, and SEVERAL others which I am left with prayer and a seeking... a reasoning... a desire to break every case down to it's most simple form like a fraction composed of numbers in the trillions.
The options that I have in these situations are the most intriguing. The choices that I have... o the choices. I can sit and pity myself... I can embrace a drive that cancels out all characteristics that could potentially take hold of my emotions and give myself to a cause or person(s) or completely withdraw myself from it all... I can be sensible and moderately seek a balanced life, seeking, somewhat indecisive, but open and live in a selflessness that could, at times, seem unreasonable.
No matter what choice is made, nothing seems to be easy... everything seems to be a strenuous mile, and exhausting wrestling match.... That's what I seek relief from the most....
Typically this type of rambling really brings some kind of release and breath of fresh air... but this time around, I'm seemingly still gasping...
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| I just wanna be a kid again!As people get older, they tend to have these realizations of just how good they had it when they were a kid. Typically, this realizations causes people to wish for a return to childhood. Usually one of the most significant reasons for making the return to childhood is less responsibilities. Of course, that's not too great of a reason lol.
Lately, I've been noticing a reason that made childhood great. This reason have less to do with running away from personal expectations, and more to do with one's environment. To sum this reason up in one word: PEOPLE.
When your young, people remain the same (or you tend to always see the best in them). Childhood friends never changed on you and became a totally different person with all these hidden characteristics that you never saw. They never sought to isolate you. They may have done some pretty dirty things, but nothing that was done couldn't be handled over a few minutes of legos or a episode of Rugrats.
Although there's such a focus on the bad side of people and relationships, I have to express how great and awesome it is when there are people who remain just that tight. Where nothing can get so bad that separation has to occur. Where there's nothing that a roach at TGI Fridays can't settle. People are definitely conditional, but its awesome to see what God does in relationships when we sit broken, humbled, and yielding to HIM.
The joy of His presence in relationships.
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