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Sunday, July 20, 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Tha Carter III
    By Lil' Wayne
    Playing with Fire
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    Adoption Update!

    Letter from my adoption agency!

    July 14, 2008

    Dear Leigh,

    A few weeks ago you requested Bethany's assistance in filing a clearance request with the Central Adoption Registry in Lansing, in order to find out if your birth mother had filed a consent or denial with the registry. The Central Adoption Registry has recently notified Bethany that there is a consent on file from your birth mother. Also, there is no denial on file from your birth father. Therefore, we may now release to you their last known names and addresses, if you are interested in receiving that. The information we have about your birth mother was received in 2006.

    Receiving identifying information about your birth parents is an important step, and one that you may want to give some thought to. It may be helpful to prepare yourself by reading about search and reunion. I have enclosed a book list with titles of books which may be helpful to you.

    Please feel free to contact me if you have any questions, or would like to discuss this further. I can be reached at (***) *** - ****. If I am not available when you call, please leave a message on my voice mail regarding a convenient time for me to contact you.

    Best wishes to you as you consider this next step.



    Sincerely,
    BETHANY CHRISTIAN SERVICES


Wednesday, July 02, 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Mood Muzik 3: The Album
    By Joe Budden
    Send Him Our Love
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    TUFF

    I sit.
    I think.
    I listen.
    I hurt.
    I hate.
    I love.
    I breathe.

    I'm just your average being.

    I haven't had it easy.
    But it hasn't been hard.

    I've lost friends.
    Both in and out of life.
    They're well missed.
    I think they know who they are.
    I want to apologize for any wrongs that I have done to anyone who reads this.


    I'm more happy than sad.

    I am in love with the most wonderful man ever. I have people that will have my back if I'm in trouble. I have the most wonderful brother in the world. I have a place to live. I have music that keeps my sanity. I have a crappy car, but it works right? No job, but I haven't lost hope. Keep searching...that's the my theory.

    There are some things I miss immensely though.

    I miss Kyle.
    I'm listening to a song. A rap song of all things. (And I know he loves it.) It makes me miss him. "Send Him Our Love" - Joe Budden
    A well said line..."Can't believe that it's over, but if God called you, I ain't even mad at Him. He must've needed a soldier."

    In His Grip. In His Grip. We love you Kyle. Less than three.

    ______________________________

    As crazy as it sounds, I miss my family. I took so much for granted. I was raised well. I have always looked back and wondered everything about my adoption. But I really shouldn't. I mean, it's something that I'm curious about, and what I would like to know. And which soon enough, I will know. But I shouldn't be sitting around just wishing I knew all the information that I don't know right now. It's not the way to live. I was a gift from my birth parents to my adoptive parents. I'm grateful to be alive right now. My families are gifts from God. And someday, I hope to be at peace with my adoption. But clearly that's not the case right now. Answers are coming!!! I got some balls and went down to the adoption agency to request my birth mom's information. We'll go from there...

    _____________________________

    I miss my brother. He's the best. My hero. No doubt about that. I don't think he realizes how much I love him. How much I talk about him. How much he means to me. We should probably hang out soon. For good sake, him and I get along now. Why not hang out?

    _____________________________

    So that's basically it. Just a little dip into my brain. Enjoy.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

  • two thousand seven - two thousand eight

    out with the hardships in with my blessings.

     

    two thousand seven was a really hard year for me.
    i successfully managed to get severely depressed.
    to lose my best friend of 8 years.
    to have a pregnancy that resulted in miscarriage.
    with a father that didn't give two shits.
    to get kicked out of my house.
    to live in my car for a month and a few weeks.
    to have the inability to find a job or even want to find a job.
    and to do things that weren't exactly legal...

    but with all this, there were blessings as the new year approached.

    two thousand eight is gearing up to be amazing.
    in august i met the man of my dreams.

     

     

    Brendan Austin Bennett, my future husband.
    he never ceases to amaze me.
    although i don't have a ring yet, we're engaged.
    we're just trying to pay off rent and all that for the house.
    and i might be a mommy.
    but my parents don't know yet.
    i'm a litte uncertain yet, but the symptoms are telling me so.
    i'm not worried about being pregnant with his child.
    he's able to support me and give me everything i need.
    and i know for a fact that he will stick with me regardless.
    and i finally found a fulltime job.
    i'm now an employee of Speedway Super America.
    i get 40 hours a week, full benefits (dental,medical,vision,401k,life insurance)
    and i have the opportunity to make monthly bonuses and climb the corporate (ew.) ladder.

    so as for now, i'm getting excited about two thousand eight.
    it's going to be good.
    and i guaranteed myself a good year, so it damn well better be.

     

Saturday, November 03, 2007

  • Cheers

    Cheers

    cheers to going to the lake.
    listening to mixtapes.

    cheers to stargazing.
    drink, drank, drunk.

    cheers to massages.
    hugging, kissing and cuddling.

    cheers to cigarettes.
    popov and pepsi.

    cheers to "breaking the seal"
    outside my car.

    cheers to not seeing a single deer.
    and one hour trips to greenville.

    cheers to KFC,
    for letting us use their parking lot.

    cheers to kitty cat scratch
    and spooning with my BFF

    CHEERS TO LIFE
    for being so good and keeping me safe

    FINALLY...
    cheers to sleep.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

  • i encountered...

    my worst known enemy.
    if i had a gun.
    i would have shot him right then and there.

    but he got away too quickly.
    and i had no weapons.
    only my car.
    and i wasn't about to turn around and chase him with that.

    i never thought that i'd encounter such a thing in my life, but little do we know, things like this happen.

    and when i say WORST enemy i mean it.
    i hate him.
    with all my heart, soul and mind.




















    conclusion: worst encounter with my worst enemy.

    I HATE DEER

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