Today I am feeling very sad.  I have been beyond exhausted for a couple weeks now. And I can't figure out why.  I am not in the best of shape...am considered obese by medical standards (and my standards), and don't have good eating habits.  I have been slowly working on them...trying to eat better, started taking our Lab, Avery, for walks daily....30 minutes... but I am still just so tired.  I feel literally like I haven't slept in days.  If I could I am sure that I would sleep for about 24 hours straight.  Though I don't really have that opportunity.  I just don't know what is wrong.  I meditated this morning... and had my Life Coach class last night...and I am receiving messages from my Life Coach, Elizabeth, and my team that I am resisting some emotions, and that is what is draining my energy.  So, when I meditated this morning, I really opened up so I could receive what it is that I am resisting....and again, my mom came up.  I really don't know what triggered it, but I am very sad today that she is gone from this earth.  It has been 2.5 years since her passing, and the last few days I just miss her terribly.  I miss her smell, the feeling of her soft skin when I would hold her hand, I miss her smile and her laugh, I miss her hugs, I miss just looking at her and talking to her.  I know that she is here with me spiritually.  But I am still feeling much pain in her physical and mental absence. I know that the reason I am resisting the feelings is because I am still afraid that I will go back to where I was at 2 years ago.  And it was so hard to get out of that dark whole....the whole that I never thought I would see the light again.  I need to let myself feel these emotions that I am creating, and let them go to the universe.....I need to...
Here is my Scripting for today:

Divine Source,  Thank you for this perfect day. Thank you for all of the beauty that I can see. Thank you for the awesome creations that you have provided to me to experience. Thank you for the deep connection and unimaginable love that I feel and share with my Husband and family. Thank you for life and the time on this earth to experience the love that I have experienced.

Today is a sad day for me. Today I will not resist the feelings that are coming to the surface. I will allow myself to experience these feelings fully. I will be surrounded by my team and my guide as I go through these feelings. I will feel the love and support from my Team and those around me that love and care for me. I will allow these feelings to surface and serve their purpose. I am not going to judge this experience. I am open and allowing today. I am allowing all communication and I am remaining connected to my team today to assist me with clearing this creation. I am Source, I am growing spiritually, and this is not a step back...it is a step forward. I decide and so it is.

I am Source.

Divine Source, Thank you for my team and my guide. Thank you for guiding me with my higher self. Thank you for abundance in my life. Thank you for the health and safety of my family. Thank you for prosperity that continues to flow to us. Thank you for the beauty that surrounds me. Thank you for allowing me to learn and grow with enlightenment.
Today is a perfect day. The trees and earth that surround me are beautiful and energetic. The sun that shines through the trees is a beautiful sight that fills my soul with calmness. I want to feel calm today. I want to have assistance from my Team today creating the website. I want to feel knowledgable and capable to build the perfect website that I picture in my mind. I want to feel that building this website is easy.
I will feel my team guiding me on building this website. I will know exactly what to do, and how to do it. I will be easy and problem free. The website will be perfect and exactly how I picture it. I will feel competent building this website that will help other people. My body and mind will be relaxed and I will move the mouse with ease and purpose, clicking and moving, adding and building the website effortlessly until it is complete. I will feel content and proud that I am doing this project on my own. I am happy and peaceful knowing that many people will benefit from sharing in the knowledge of this website. I deserve to feel competent and able to do this, I decide, and it is so.

I am Knowledge. I am Source.