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today wasnt as cold outside i could not see my breath as much as normal. lexi watches the wheather channel and i just breathe to see how cold it is going to be lol. it was a good thing that it wasnt as cold too becuase i did not wear a jacket. we had to dress up all nice for our basketball game, in which i did not play in. awsome i know plus great self esteem booster right there. ugh. besides that whole part my day ended up being pretty good. i asked miguel to winter formal. the first time i asked i messed up and said homecoming instead. i almost just did that just now too writting about it. i was all excited for it and everything too cus i thought everyone would be able to go. but now britt is telling me that she most likely isnt going. in that case it would mean shes not. we all never get to do stuff together and so it made excited to know that we maybe all could but i guess you cant get your hopes up. im hoping mrs lexi will go with me tho and sammy and travis. if not...man i dont even want to know if not. so for this dance i think im ending up having to wear pink. really im not a pink wearing kind of girl but i guess you got to do some things for these boys even if its looking like a complete and total idiot. i feel kinda like a hypocrite cause i gave dustin so much shit for wearing and liking pink and then go off to another boy that does the same thing and i go along with it. smooth...

oh and i found a linkin park cd on the ground at skool today which made me real excited. it scratched to shit tho but it still worked with a few defects. my plan is to put it on my computer and make a new copy. its METEORA which is a very good one but its linkin park, there all good.

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it was hard and my stomach knotted up in which it still is. but for the moment,  i think it was the right thing. so i broke up with dustin this morning. we had a long talk about it all and since he works so much and never can come see me or whatever than it best that we take a break and all. he did admit to be a shitty boyfriend because he could never come down here. and im glad that he actually relizes these things. he also told me that it seemed like i wanted to break up with him for awile. which i really did but then didnt at the same time. i just wish hed get his shit together. we will see where things go from here. its about christmas time and even tho were broken up, were still friends and im still going to get him somthing. Nothing too exciting, but i think i want to get him a dirtbike video. maybe the new pastrana one, i dont know.

so somthing pretty interesting happened today. It didnt just happen once, but  twice...i got the butterflies, badly  :x hmm. i wounder why people get those or..if you can make them go away. But do i want them to go away? i donno, but i should. Im very interested on this whole butterfly thing. i mean with this boy im with now i cant even remember if he has given me butterflies. i think not :/ but i think i remember i tried to get them with him but it just never worked that way. There was one person i used to get them from tho. lol i think everyone would be able to guess his name. i havent mentioned him in awile, but i still think about him and still miss him. The only other time i remember getting them was when me and david rangel were together and he kissed me. Other than that, the butterflies have been kept in a jar until now. i think thats where they belong...then i have nothing to be afraid of. stoopid boys, but you got to love them. their just too beautiful not to look at lol. ne ways enough about that i have to do my lovely homework. DBQ is due tomorrow. Oh my grades im going to post so i can see if i do better next time.

English-C

Science-C

History-D

Math-D

Phycology-B

Sports Medicine-A

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