Currently Listening Secret Life of By Veronicas Leave me Alone see related

Okai. so I havent written in this in a longg time, and alot of people think its lame but whatever. this is gonna help me keep track  of myself and help me remember memories and things. So uhm today is sunday. in 2 weeks exactly i will be 17!! I donno what im doing for my birthday yet. I think I just wanna chill with 2 of my close friends and just hang out and have fun. This week was pretty much the best/worst week of my life. I know, how can it be both at the same time. Well it was great because I had this really kool person to help me out. He was a boyfriend at teh time, but yah know things change. He was there for me and he made sure I was okai before He'd let me go and all that .Its funny how God makes you think that theres this one person that you think Hes gonna want you to be with for a while to see how things go, but it turns out you were very wrong, and that God has something else in store even though it hurts to turn away from the other thing. Soo like I went to church today and my childhood best friend Allie was sitting in the fonrt of me with her boyfriend. It was so cute cuz she had her baby cousin and she was like hold me bubby and stuff and its like he was holding the lil girl and he had his arm around the girlfriend and it was like aw... that is so cute.. they are like th perfect couple and I was just thinking about when Allie gets married and its like aww... THIS IS SO CUTE. I envy their relationship by the way. I prtty much realized ve been wanting a guy that WOULD COME TO CHURCH WITH ME. i know its gay huh? but dude its like I want someone to love God more than he would love me.  and Every sunday wed go to church together and i donno im a nerd and think its cute i guess. i also think it could help build some strength up tho

Anyway, the homily was really good, it was about a man who lost his wife to cancer, and they had a daughter. Well the father decided to book a cruise for him and the little girl and one nigth while they were out infront of the ship, and the sun was setting, the little girl asked "dad does God love us more than Mommy did?" and the man said you see how far the sun set is...God loves us mroe than that...then he turned 180 degrees the other way and said you see where the light and then you see where it starts to get dark? god loves us more than that...then he looked up and said see how high the stars are? God loves us more than that... or something like that? oh well you know what im sayin. and then the little girl said....and the little girl said...adn the best part is...we're in the middle of it all. i donno it inspired me and made me thing...then Father Bob said something else

he said... "To me love is the most perishable thing in the world. It is not meant to be KEPT...its meant to SHARE..." and I was like wow that is so true..so in my mind i made a promise that i would never keep my love locked in for fear of someone rejecting it or breaking my heart. I promised Id always give it, no matter what the cause. Ive realized alot in the time spand of 24 hours lol. I wanna be a better person. I wanna know God deeper than I do now. I am SO lucky to  be where I am. i love the way i am... i love being silly,stupid,crazy,dramatic, everythingg i am so lucky to have the people I have and to be so happy with my family and everyting. I see no other way of living my life. I know that times get hard, but man... Its all worth it in the end right? If I get to meet God in Heaven...everything is worth it....

Thankyou so much to my girl AMANDA>>i look up to this girl my gosh shes been through so much i love you!! your like my sister now haha. and Lacy Bugg...i love this girl too cuz man we understand each other...and Ashley... i love you and thankyou so much for everything... <3 i love you girls

Ashley Grogen also told me this ---sometimes you just want someone there for you ... knowing that they feel the same way as you feel ... someone who you are comfortable with..

and i was like wow...amkes alot of sense.... blah so okai

sorry... I had a bad day...well no a bad week more like it but yah know...

I juts wanna pay a lil tribute to my buddys that left me..

Matt Horton... you havent left yet but gosh im gonna miss you. I love you and YOU BETTER COME BACK TO ME..

Ethan- you know you were mine for like a week. but those past 2 weeks were the best. i love you (as a friend) lol and i do blank you..alway always will and ill allways be here for you. sorry it didnt work out but i hope you find your happiness somewhere. im gonna miss hanging out with you... but im happy to have you as a friend.. <333

Cowboy- you leavin was the worst i believe. you were there for me when no one else was... even tho you may not believe that. lol i think we understand alot about each other. and i dislike her alot for breaking your heart. she doesnt know what she lost i guess. but i know someone else will help you build up the blocks for loving someone again. I love you!

Rodgerick- i dont knwo what im gonna do without my second favorite black guy... you are so wise lol and good luck with all the mgirls hahah ... dont let em say that they have yo baby hahahhaha  i love yah man!!

okai that was my tribute

long time no update...well to fill you in...

i have 3 homecomings this month,

i went to shhs homecoming and it sucked cuz i just hated being around all those ppl...but i shoudlnt say anymore cuz yah know if i do someones gonna get all pissed and offended like they normailly do because yah know once they get out in the real world, they will never get criticized...

i loved my date though he was the greatest...

i swear one measly lil person came into the picture that night and it got soo fucking dramatic that it was fucking gay...

i havent seen that much drama in a year lol....i like having no drama to worry about

my moms been pissing me off lately, so has other ppl

just when my mom gets into shhs i just wanna punch her... its like LEAVE IT ALONE THAT SCHOOL IS FUCKING GAY

me and a guy from my school were talking about shhs cuz his rents went there an di was like why you go to wcaa then and he was like because my rents were bad in hs, and thats not a christian school...i was like damn your right haha

yes i know im bagging my old school but its just because i realized how much of a bitch i was when i went there and it was because of that schoool....so dont get mad!!

you know leaving shhs made me realize that i never really had any true friends over there...and all my true friends are the best ever.. i love them.... im sad to say i didnt have any true friends, because i still love all those ppl with all my heart...but things change...and im happier now

uhm i lost a friend that night too...yah know things just screwed up when a stupid guy came into 2 of my friends life and ruined one of their lives practically and then the other just screwed her over... so i hate him for hurting both of my friends...well one of em at least cuz the other one wont talk to me cuz shes pissed at me cuz my mother is kool

another reason why i left shhs... mother is too involved over there..

i love my mother though...sorry to say..seh does alot for me...

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this week was just crap... Luke Angelle's dad died...so ecveryone was really upset

i missed kaitlin and really needed to talk to her..

me and Bean have been talking lately and its really kool...i should have talked to him sooner...before he graduated... hes so sweet and funny haha he makes me lauph..

anyway...this week is OC's homecoming, im hoping its gonna be off the chain cuz that would rock...then our hc last month of october

oh yeah wca is 4-1 or whatever...we only lost one game even though it doesnt count...score!!

well ttyl!! <33 lindz

Hey people, not much has been happening here.

 School has begun its corse of stress. Im dying already and its not even bad yet. Chem is kicking my ass!! so is Algebra. Our teacher cant teach for shit. uhmm I got in touch with Justin and hes okai YAY! We are gonna get together soon since he lices in Baton Rouge now!

 We play SHHS this friday its flippin nuts. We have to win though haha.

My neighbor and his friend died this past satuday on a backroad. They were riding 4 wheelers and the dust was so bad they didnt see t he truck when they went to pass up someone....and yeah... it was sad....14 and 15 years old...RIP BROCK AND JADE!

Katrina has hit as the us has heard...and its madd town down here...things are starting to cool down though

We had a drug bust at our school today, it was effed up..they had dogs and everything at our school and one annoying person is getting expelled...YAY

I chopped off my hair...its short...I like it though

Im going to 3 homecomings in october...SHHS, OC, and WCA

I got drunk out of my ass this weekend and made out with shute...he cheated on his girl hahaha ...

yeah thats all thats been goin on really i think?

Becky and May had their birthday htis pass week...we're throwing a suprise bday party for em saturday...SHHHH

We got alot of new kids today too...one of em her birthday was today...so we celebrated that....

well bye pepole!!

Currently Listening Cruel Intentions: Music From The Original Motion Picture Soundtrack By Various Artists Bittersweet Symphony see related

OMG, Its been a effing long time since Ive updated htis baby...whats up people I miss you!! OKAI! so getting started on my wonderful life...

Last wednesday(17th) was my last day of summer...so I went to Anna Shutes house and I ended up spending like the whole afternoon there. Me,Anna, and Michael watched a movie. Uhmm Last thursday (18th) I went sleep at Halis housee because we were the only cool people who wanted to have a sleep over the day before school! lol so yeah, the next day we started school...we went til 1. And then me, May, Heather, Hali, Kelly and Kaitlin went to Ryans(the restraunt) We stayed there till about 230ish then I went to Shanes apt, because my parents went out of town. I went see his play Steel Magnolias at the Opelousas Little Theatre. It was good. I didnt really know what was goin on because i never saw the movie bfore but thats okai. Saturday I went sleep at Mays house and me her and Anna went rent movies and went back to Mays and watched them. Woke up Sunday morning and went with May to church then came home. Had schoool ALLLL WEEEK...and they SLAMMED us with hiomework omg. I have SOOO many tests this week but anyway. Thursday me and May went to the jamboree and her mom decides to tell me at 9 at night that I can sleep evene though I have NOTHING whatsoever. So I stayed there thursday and went tos chool friday. WCA WON!! WE BEAT THE BLUE JAYS!! WOOP!! uhm I saw stephen, ran into a couple of awkward moments lol Met this really kool guy named Ben.. Hes so freakin tall. hes about 6'5 I cant even reach him to my shoulders. He was kool. Uhm so alot of SHHS people that I havent seen in a while I missed them alot. Garrett, Thomas, Grant, Ricco... people like that..Uhmm talked with Stephen alot too...HE SLAPPED MY BUTT...I was so violated this weekend omg...

Uhmmm, Friday me and my two hot girls Anna and May went to Annas to get  her and then we walked to the stadium and saw OHS play against uhh I forgot who lol...Jamie kicked off so he was happy. They did well. They won I forgot by how much it was like 0 and 14 or somethin...Dude... I have never seen so many black people in all my life at that game. IT WAS PACKED....you coudlnt even get through omg...it was crazy. We met up with Stephen and Ben again...Ben lied to me and told me his grandpaw was Willie Nelson lol even tho he does look like em. Ben and Stephen both kinda flirted with me all night. Anna and May think Ben likes me though so thats okai lol he got my number. We met Josh, TJ, and Luke..and we chilled with them for a while. We were offered to go swim at Josh's house with them but Mays mom said no. We were bummed about that. omg I saw met my good ole pal Michael lol I slapped him on the butt with my paper and thats how we got to know Ryan, Scott and the other Scott who Ive een knowing since he was lil and I hadnt seen him in so long!! lol Uhmm Ryan slapped my butt I was like OMG!! lol and then Michael was like what its nothing and then he slapped my butt

I WAS SOOOOO VIOLATED THIS WEEKEND...

Stephen told me I was sexy and that he loved my hugs..hes such a flirt lol...Uhmm we had so much flippin fun. deffinatley cant wait til next weekend...Ryan and May or likin each other I beliee...and then it Anna and Scott...so now Im left and I donno what Im gonna do lol..maybe find some guy? Uhmm so Saturday I did nothing..which sucked I was miserable...I watched Cruel Intentions for hte first time. OMG that movie is so sad...that guy is SO hott lol Resse Witherspoon is SO damn lucky. Her new movie has the guy who played Napoleon Dynamite in it. Hes funny haha he looks like a dope head. Uhm, Today I turned off my alarm clock so I didnt get to go to church. I felt bad.. but Im juts gonna make it up hopefully. I studied a lil bit and watched Lucky 7. Thast a good show too. And Kaitlin calls and tells me NO SCHOOL TOMMOROW... Pumped about thatone so I tried making plans around 7ish but my dad told me I couldnt be on the road cuz it was packed cuz of evacuation. May and Anna were gonna come and we were gonna make plans to see the guys. But yeah May is stuck in Marksville and Anna has school tommorow cuz shes home schooled.. I called her to see if she could come and Stephen answered the phone and had to be a pain before he could give her the phone lol I still love him though.

SOOO now Big Katrina is on her way to eff up our town of Ville Platte, and New ORLEAN!! OMG JUSTIN I HOPE HES OKAI!! ....wow okai that was random haha... I have a friend in New Orleans that I hope he got out... well uhm yeah not much goin on ...we have no school tommorow...and Im gonna have ot be babysitting because the kids I babysit their grandmaw died of cacner.... Pray for her...Mrs Gail Perrodin...uhmm may go see my babies May and Anna though...if the weather gets better lol...well guys this is what IVE been doing for the past weeks....update in a couple of more weeks haha.. <3 all of yall SOOO much!