sooo basically... i'm at 87 pounds right now. i feel great, look great. i love this. sorry my entries are so sporadic. i barely have anytime with school, cheerleading tryouts, working out, and such. much love, *J

11 more pounds. do they actually think they can stop me?

 therapists a bitch

im so depressed

i haven't eaten in 13 days.

i've worked out for 2 hours 4 days a week.

i've lost 16 pounds.

my family knows.

my mom's making go to the therapist.

i'm starving.

but it works.

yesterday ended dreadrully, as did the beginning of today...

B: cinnamon toast crunch with 2% milk ( 2% MILK!) *400 calories*

L: pria bar *110 calories*// 4 carrots with fat free ranch *8 calories*

EXERCISE: one hour at the gym, *-50 calories* elliptical (i hate sweating... and today it was really hot in there!)// *-200 calories* weights (arms)// *-100 calories* weights (legs)// *-10 calories* bike// *-13 calories* treadmill// *-70 calories* other

the last few days have been pure crap. including today...

B: belgian waffle (290 calories) with spray butter (0 calories) and syrup )210 calories) *500 calories*

L: macaronie and cheese (320 calories) and icecream (210 calories) *530 calories*

i'm already over 1,000... and my gym membership is only for sundays monday wednesdays and fridays... so i can't go workout on the elliptical today. = (

i'm so worried. i know iv'e gained like 6 pounds. don't even try to tell me that's okay because i haven't lost any weight at all. everytime i decide to diet exercise or lose weight in any way it doesn't work. i've been taking my green tea pills, too.

i'm so frustrated. it's like i have a good day (like tuesday i think, the day with all veggies) and then the next week i eat crap and workout minimally.

what the hell is wrong with my body? i'm under 18 so there's no way i can get actual diet pills like trimspa. 2 more years until that happens, i just turned 16 in july.

i have a stepper. i guess i could do that for like 30 minutes. it's semi-cardio. and i have the ablounge. i never thought it worked too well, but my stomach was better whan i used that then when i just did crunches...

i won't eat at all the rest of today. just diet sodas and raw veggies. PLUS WATER

same plan for tomorrow. hopefully?

much love, *jessica

sorry i haven't updated since wednesday or commented... when my mom leaves, i will comment on your sites!