LiLMisChickenH21's Xanga

Thursday, July 24, 2003

Thu, 24 Jul 2003 15:32:25 GMT

Dude! it's been so freakin long since I've written in this thing lol I don't even know why I still have it! But yeah... summer's flying by school starts in a month or so, which completely sucks ass but there's nothing you can do about it.. besides I'll be a SeNiOr ne way so it can't be that bad! :-p 3 weeks vacation--arizona, vegas, LA, San Diego, then New York--finally back home it feels great :) glad 2 be back & see my friends again lol Me and Nicole have def. gotten closer & i'm glad we've been hangin out again like b4, only it's been a whole hell of a lot more fun since it's not basketball lol My love life is well "blah" considering the my whole situation is pretty fucked up EITHER way. Life's been goin up & down for me, a lot of trouble and worry back up in NY & w/ the family not 2 mention my own problems back here at home... guess all the stuff goin through my head have been doin a lil damage specially since 2 certain ppl who i didn't even think would matter about it all did figure out stuff was wrong lol even when I tried not to sound down, guess I'm starting to slip on that skill if those 2 knuckleheads figured it out lol but other than all that i've been enjoyin my summer, makin sure to have fun & hang out w/ my buddies been doin a lotta drinkin on vacation & since i came home--not 2 good but oh well i guess lol but yeah i'ma leave b4 i start 2 write other stuff down lol...*oNe*

Saturday, May 31, 2003

Sat, 31 May 2003 15:34:44 GMT

the long expected day of my grandmother's arrival has come... don't get me wrong, i love my g-ma but she makes my life a living hell when she's here, specially durin the summer--only b/c she's completely middle eastern culture which messes w/ everythin here. ahh but she's comin 2day & i spent a couple hrs cleanin, not many b/c i slept in till 1! it was great lol but it's saturday & i think that there's something special about this day, i just can't remember what lol oh well... well it's gonna be a looonngg month, i gtg finish preparin 4 stuff ttyl...*oNe*

Thursday, May 29, 2003

Thu, 29 May 2003 20:32:48 GMT

the stress of life, bein a teenger, & a good daughter & all that BS have suddenly become extremely overwhelming i'm tired of all this crap, always having 2 live up 2 someone else's standard when this is supposed 2 be my life, i'm through with all that crap, i'm gonna live my life the way i want 2 now, honestly, I JUST DON"T CARE NE MORE! there's somethin missin in my life right now, i wish i knew what it was cuz then i'd feel much better ..:sigh:.. school needs to be over & summer needs 2 come soon! 14 days, 14 days & it'll all be over & i'm gonna live this summer to the fullest, considering the fact that we'll be back in school sometime in August! it's okay 1 more yr & i'll be graduating & then i'll be wishin i had another yr left in high school, yup that's how it always goes--eghh.. u ever think that some days u might overthink on some stuff? well i have, egh ..:sigh:.. but then i always end up just confusin myself, or makin things worse, or i just end up w/ more problems than i had 2 begin with in my life...but things will always get better sooner or later right??...well, yeah that's what I have 2 believe, someway somehow, everything will be better & when it does it'll be the happiest day of my life, just wish it would happen soon...just wanna say 1 more thing: *2 aLL my friends, thanks 4 makin my life so much easier 2 deal with! I LOVE YOU GUYS WITH ALL MY HEART!! *

*live rite now n b urself who carez if its good enuf 4 sum1 else

*Just when u think things cant get ne worse..they do. But ive learned that life is like hr glass sand. Sooner or later, everythin hits rock bottom, but all u have 2 do is be patient & wait 4 sumthin 2 turn everythin around.

*Our lives can change in an instant,Jus a moment in our time N theres nothin u can do.U cant jus press rewind.We can learn 2 endure the pain N turn it in2 strength N value all our time w/ our neva-endin faith.We can learn 2 face our fears B4 they knock us 2 the ground N we can build up hope,Enough 2 fite anotha round.In life there r no pauses,No time-outs n no stops,It jus keeps passing by u Wen u need helping out.Although we sumtimes wish Tha we could press fast forward 2 c if its all worth it.We have 2 work real hard Becus our lives can change in an instant, Just 1 moment in our time.There is somethin we can do But its sumthin we mus learn.

*2 ThA 1z WhO dOnT UnDaStAnD-WaLk A MiLe iN mY sHoEs-C wUt i C-n-wUt i fEeL..n DeN u'LL kNo Y i Do WuT i Do

*Ur gonna come across people in ur life that lie n say things that u take 2 the </3 that really weren't true, it might hurt @ that moment in time but it will get betta just keep ya head & say 2 urself i tried my best, & thats all u can do. It's part of life & learning from ur mistakes.

welp i'm done writin, quite a lot there- i'll leave ya'll 2 thinkin..ttyl-- *oNe*

Wednesday, May 28, 2003

Wed, 28 May 2003 19:08:31 GMT

WHOO HOO! lol...I'm rather excited about how 2day's been goin, minus my whole body shakin fiasco..which by the way I have NO idea why I was doin that but I dropped sum popcorn lol but I'm all better now! ya know what? Math is completely gay! pre-calc is like seriously eatin away my brain lol there's wayy 2 much stuff 2 remember! whoever came up w/ math is gay lol So yeah ne way...lunch was pretty sweet, i'm offically a senior now that the old ones graduated yesterday so me, pip, alex, ryan, & chris chilled in the ToWnE RoOm- that was pretty sweet, Oh & ryan, we are def. gonna go 2 OC w/ alex & chris this summer I hit up Rita's after school, gettin some cookies & cream gelaties--mmm mmm mmm! lol but the bestest part was when i went runnin 4 like an hr & a half! aww it was soo perfect! although my calf is tight as hell & my feet hurt cuz i had 2 run barefoot on the pavements cuz all i had were cleats lol went 4 a snowball w/ yvonne & went ridin w/ PiPPeN! it was nice a day & 2 top it all off....my rents aren't comin home till 10ish so I'm lucky cuz i won't be seein them 4 awhile!!!! YESSSS!! hmmm, well i think it's about time i started on my hw egh!! hw sucks but only... 15 SchOoL DaYs LeFt!!! YESSSSSSSS! ......*oNe*

Tuesday, May 27, 2003

Tue, 27 May 2003 22:24:35 GMT

Always tend to be late w/ keeping up in these things lol....

<MoNdaY>

The day I've been waiting for since tuesday has finally come...MONDAY! & i'm soo glad, well plans kept on gettin held back, thanks to you know who yvonne i'm tellin ya, he's always messin w/ our plans lol... 2day was a great day! We had a lil family/philippino cookout which turned out really good! We had sooo many crabs, ah it was crazy & they were DeLicIoUs!! Yvonne finally came home from her day-trip to DC & we went on w/ our plans, & can I just say it was SPLENDID! lol I luved monday & it is now my favorite day of the week lol syke i'm out...*oNe*

<TuEsDaY>

welp, today's graduation day My senior buddies are all leavin me! But it was nice 2 see them all durin the day, the "suspended" ones lol I didn't go 2 graduation, although I could've, I went 2 the mall w/ Yvonne instead... I figured I'd rather do that then end up cryin the whole graduation Ne way, shoppin, well it was fun lol I found the perfect outfit that I wanted, it's my goal now & I'm gonna get it, just b4 my special occasion, right yvonne? lol School was extremely loong 2day, I guess cuz we've been goin 2 school 3hrs later 4 the past week, but I actually worked in English lol I was actually workin on my freakin slide show when the damn cheap ass comp in the school library busted down on me! Go figure! The day i actually do work i can't! lol & u see why i've become such a slacker now?! THE BEST part of the day was when Cole called me from Rita's & was like ur fav is finally in!! Aww man that was the best! lol :) oh & yeah, my mom is the biggest bitch in the world right about now!!!!! no worries, 1 yr & i'll be graduating this time around & then i'll be outta the house....*oNe*

Sunday, May 25, 2003

Sun, 25 May 2003 13:20:18 GMT

ohh man...last night was great but it's a lil blurry!! But I woke up w/ a headache & my ears are ringing from that DAMN dj!! Ne way, I'm gonna write a recap of last nite...

<LaSt NiTe>

well...I went to Tony's graduation party...pretty fun, except for that DAMN DJ! I mean did he have to blare the music up that loud!? lol I wasn't exactly that far away from him! But it was good, met some of Yvonne's cuz's, & yet again I'm named "Ruthie" from Real World.. don't think I'll ever NOT be called that! Well her cuz's were real cool, a lil crazy but cool lol. But the thing I loved the most was the bouncy jumpy house thingy!I felt like such a kid but it was str8 it was so fun! lol the whole time my cuz was hookin us up w/ alcohol I luv my family! Then me and Yvonne left around 11:30ish to her house & we stayed there & drunk just a lil bit b4 her rents came home...then I left around 1ish or 2ish can't remember...came home to a house full of drunks, lol everyone is wasted & my cuz has saved us a bunch of alcohol so i spent the nite drinking again! lol then I remember bein online 4 awhile, who I talked 2 or what I said i don't even know! lol fell asleep around 4ish i think! it was a great nite. aww somethings happened that nite that I enjoyed lol ....*oNe*

<ToDaY>

ahh man, woke up at 1 with a lil hangover!but it's str8, it's worth it for last nite..my cuz's left this morning, all except the one that supplies me w/ alcohol but they left & now my momma's bitchin to clean..ahh I can't stand to hear it, it makes my headache worse! But the best thing is--it's SUNDAY which means.... MONDAY is 2morrow!!! YES! can't wait von & carrie lol well i gtg freakin clean & maybe then i'll go hit up the movies 2 watch Matrix Reloaded! ohh yeah & I might be gettin my own compie! aww I love my daddy! gtg... *oNe*

Saturday, May 24, 2003

Sat, 24 May 2003 17:59:20 GMT

No HFS for me but it's okay because I'm going out to a party tonight I'm soo luvin this weekend! Ne way it's Tony's graduation party...I can't believe he graduated college, now he's all grown up I remember when he was a lil kid and we used to play all the time...God I miss those days...ne way I'm gonna stop reminicisn (totally butchered that) lol b4 I start cryin...well I'm off to the party!! It oughta be pretty fun, me & the "kids" of the batch are gonna be sneakin them drinks.. lol haha oor rather not cuz my cuz's will hook us up! well I'm out... write later! *oNe*

Friday, May 23, 2003

Fri, 23 May 2003 17:16:04 GMT

HeY peoplez!!...this page came along b/c... I WAS EXTREMELY BORED!! Ne wayyz...

Thursday:

HaPPy 17th B-dAy KaRa!! :) how's it feel to be 17 now? lol haha! Well today turned out to be a GREAT day. Went to school three hours late again, I'm luvin that part of the week... but yeah--me and my girls went to Friendly's for breakfast :) yum yum! But I hit up the cheap part of the menu lol I'm rollin a little low on the dough! Then I went back to Rayshi's house for a little bit with Paige...got my first MONDAY there OHH YEAH! School was pretty beat, as usual, but at least we got like 18 days left. It just seems to be draggin on forever! But it turned good afterschool--I hit up Rita's for some Italian Ice and then headin back home with Ash and Jess for some crabs! YUMMY! Oh but I finally played some basketball today! Hairball outta be happy now.. lil punk! But yeah i tore it up out there on the courts and ended up w/ an injury! lol How the hell it happened I couldn't even begin to tell ya! lol

Friday:

Today is FINALLY Friday and I can't tell you how happy I am! It's been a long week, but it's weekend now--time to let off some stress *Party* ohh I can't wait for this weekend to begin! Got some big plans! MONDAY!! ahh I'm so tired tho! Blamin it all on my sister, had to go wake me up at 8 and I couldn't fall back asleep! school wasn't as bad today, I guess cause it's Friday. I talked my chem teacher out of giving us that test! lol ohh yeah I guess I can be pretty persuasive at times! Bought my yearbook, they looked pretty good but I mean I did help make them so yannno! Then me and heather ended up goin to Wendy's to pick up food for our yearbook class--god I love that class.. so we all ended up eating wendy's for lunch! I'm so excited cuz my girl Ashley aka ITCH! lol has made my CD's!! My brother pissed me off sooo bad today, i swear I just wanted to punch him in his freakin face! but I didnt' lol.. ah i'm gonna get fat, I had pizza for dinner, wendy's for lunch, 2 much fast food! lol I think i'm gonna join Waz w/ her no more fast food deal!lol but yeah, i went to pick up the pizza & i see like all my guy friend's cars in the parking lot & i run into eric, chris & sean & they're all like "hey Reen, Alex is in there..." What's that supposed to mean now? :-X But GoOd NeWs! I saw my girl Katie & she told me that all of them are walkin across stage now, which is soo great! & I'm gonna be there @ graduation Tuesday! aww my buddies are leaving me Welp I'm outta words so.. ttyl PeAcE! *oNe*